where i live, it's 11 pm and i am tired. took out my laptop and as curiosity crawled onto me, i searched up 'soompi' for the first time in a long time. suddenly i'm reminded of btsvelvet and the time i've dedicated writing fanfics about them. wow. has it been two years? idk anymore. every year i keep telling myself and everyone else that i'll write more, make more stories but those promises have still yet to be fufilled. but they probably will never be fufilled. you know what, since i've said that i might as well be honest. in the span of 2 years writing fanfics, i didn't even like bts. maybe i even disliked them just a little. who knows. i was a fan way before but then i stopped liking them. i wrote btsvelvet fanfics because i just felt like they were really real and that they were so cute together. of course, i still feel that way, but now i feel like these feelings come from more of a bystander watching btsvelvet shippers ship their ships. it's complicated, yes. also, i grew out of the kpop phase a long time ago haha. i mean, i guess all things come to an end. what im saying is, from now on, i will no longer write fanfics anymore. after i finish writing this edgy and sloppy mess of a paragraph, i'll just watch as my account disintegrates on this website. actually i won't even watch, i'll completely forget about it. i'm sorry. if you've been a reader since a long time ago, i apologise for all my excuses and whatnot. this is really the end. i really, really, really, REALL