Cafetaria seems so not too crowded today. Not like another day. Haha. I just ordered an avocado juice while KwangMin is eating his ramyun.

“ ya.. eat it slowly.. you will get indigestion if you eat that fast.. “ I warned KwangMin.

He just shaped an ok with his fingers. I heard a 4MEN’s song being sang. It’s confession! Waaa~~

“ KwangMin a~ you heard the song right ? I though it is being live performed somewhere around here... “ I am getting excited. “ Let’s go there! “ I took his hand while he still grabbing his chopstick and eating the ramyun.

“ ya.. I am still eating though ... “ He speaks with a lotta ramyun in his mouth. Ah .. I am just too excited about this sudden concert. Who held this one ? Who is performing ??? then I just took KwangMin’s hand while he still eating.

“ AH.. sorry >.< okay then.. I will go by my self.. can I ask you to keep my juice while I am enjoying just this song ? “ I am worried about the juice that I have just ordered. KwangMin is nodding so I take it as a yes he will..

“ Okay then.. “ I left him but then I think I need to tell him to .. “ don’t drink what’s supposed to be mine kwangmin.. “ I am shouting a little then I see his thumb is being raised means he understood what I said.

I am searching for the place where the voice is coming from.. em... I think it is not hard to find it. It is in the center of the school field where crowded can be seen. I think the voice is familiar.. so I came closer to the crowded. I just loved this confession song. I wonder if Hyunseong oppa can sing it for me totally . I mean by mean it. Giving the whole meaning to the song. Yeah.. I hope he confessed to me with this song. Don’t you think it will be just GREAT ? hahaha.

I try my best to pass the crowded just to come to the front. Ah ! Finally .. Right in front of me I can see a poster cutely designed. I read it and haven’t seen the singer yet .. “ Happy Birthday Yoon Bora “ is written there.

Once I turned my head to the left. There I see HyunSeong oppa kneeled down, still singing while holding Bora’s hand. A sincere smile is painted on her face. HyunSeong oppa didn’t change his sight. He still singing.. when the song is almost end, a friend of Bora came with a birthday cake.

“ Happy birthday bora.. “ He is standing now. In front of Bora, Bora gave him a peck on his cheek. I can see that HyunSeong oppa now filled with joy. His face is turning red, blushing. I can’t move. I see happiness around. The mic from HyunSeong oppa now is taken by Bora’s friend while HyunSeong oppa is holding the cake and the crowded started singing a happy birthday song while waiting Bora to blow up the candle. Once candle blown up, the friend of Bora said “ you are soooo lucky. HyunSeong has prepared for this from early in the morning .. “ HyunSeong oppa now looks so cute with his shyly smiling. He never throw that kinda smile before. What a lucky Bora... and so he came early to prepare all of this ? what a super lucky Bora.. I am so envy of her.

“ Thank you HyunSeong “

I am frozen. Seriously I want to move. I can’t watch more. I don’t now what kinda relationship they had. But.. I cant. I cant even make a single step.. my eyes keep on watching the shows. I can see it clearly that HyunSeong oppa really happy. I can feel someone drag me. In a flash, crowded is moving behind me. There I can see KwangMin. He show me a glass of avocado juice.

“ I wrap it here for you. “ and then he lowering his hand to see my face.

I can’t hold my feelings anymore. I feel so angry, envy, sad. The guy that I like for a long time... The guy that I stalked almost everyday.. The guy that has a perfect smile, a kind hearted guy, a guy with a warm hand,.. the guy that won’t get bored to explaining things until I totally get it. He is so happy now with another girl..

“ Ya.. uljima...don’t cry.... “ KwangMin now looks so confused. He lowering his voice.

I look to the ground. Still crying. Like a cry baby I am crying. I know KwangMin might be in a total embarrassed because of this but I cant hold up my tears.. I can’t look at a so happy HyunSeong oppa.. I am so bad. I should be happy looking at a guy that I like feel happy right ? but what am I doing now ? I feel so bad for feeling the hatred and anger and a not happy feeling for him.

“ I said.. dont cry.. “ He pulled me to him.

“ Stop. Dont cry.. “ He tighten the hug. But still... I cant stop.

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Eunki's note :

I seriously taking a long time to update eh ? sorry .. ah.. have you ever heard HyunSeong sang 4 men confession ? you can rewatch the boyfriend mpick last episode or when Boyfriend has their 1st date in Singapore :)