This is gonna hurt a little.

MY ROOM IS nearly empty now. There are sheets and a comforter on my bed. A laptop on my desk, a few pens. A chair.

          I own a couple pairs of jeans and shorts. I have T-shirts and flannel shirts, some warm sweaters; a bathing suit, a pair of sneakers, a pair of Crocs, and a pair of boots. Two dresses and some heels. Warm coat, hunting jacket, and canvas duffel.

          The shelves are bare. No pictures, no posters. No old toys.

GIVEAWAY: A TRAVEL toothbrush kit Mummy bought me yesterday.

          I already have a toothbrush I don't know why she would buy me another. That woman buys things just to buy things. It's disgusting.

          I walk over to the library and find the girl who took my pillow. She's still leaning against the outside wall. I set the toothbrush kit in her cup and go home.

GIVEAWAY: TAEYEON'S BLACK hunting jacket. The one I wore that night we held hands and looked at the stars and talked about God. I never returned it.

          I should have given it away first of everything. I know that. But I couldn't make myself to. It was all I had left of her.

          But that was weak and foolish. Taeyeon doesn't love me.

          I don't love her, either, and maybe I never did.

          I'll see her the day after tomorrow and I don't love her and I don't want her jacket.

          I don't crave her.

          I won't.

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