17 May 2014 – EXO’s dorm

            Usually when your group have a comeback the atmosphere of your dorm must be full of energy full of excitement. Just like our group. Whenever we’re done with our schedule and arrived at our dorm the first thing that we do is laughing. Make the tiredness become nothing. Teasing someone mistake or just having fun and being proud if we got a trofi. But that’s not happen for this comeback. Although all of music program giving us their first place but it’s not gonna change this dark atmosphere. Sorrow and gloomy face I can find in every EXO member now including me. It’s happen because one. One man. One news. One big decision.

EXO Kriss decided to leave EXO

            Just like that. No explanation for us. No excuse. No saying goodbye either. Just leave us suddenly. He said that ‘We Are One’. He said to be together, twelve of us, until hundred years. He said we have to grow old together. But now what? So that’s just bull? I hope this is just dream. Just nightmare. I hope any one can wake us up from this bad dream. Please this isn’t real. I can’t handle this atmosphere. Too sad. Too gloomy. Too not ‘We Are One’.

            I saw my hyungs. Byun Baekhyun that always smiling and make dorm so noisy became very quite. Just sat at sofa staring at his phone. Park Chanyeol, our Happy Virus became very not Happy. Sometimes he hit the table just for expressing his dissappointment. Do Kyungsoo and Kim Jongin are more calm then the other. But the one that very not okay is him. Kim Jun Myeon, Suho, uri leader.

            It must be really hard for him. For several times I saw his tears that he quickly wipe it. Manager hyung called him too several times asking him why this could happen, why kriss could leave EXO, why.. But Suho hyung just could answer with ‘I don’t know.’ Don’t blame Suho hyung because he really don’t know. We don’t know. We thought nothing wrong with this group. Nothing wrong with Kriss hyung. He practice as always. He did our schedule as usual. Nothing wrong. Just like usual. Tired, full of practice but just like usual. I don’t get it. I really don’t get it.

            Suddenly Suho hyung phone rang again.

            “Hallo” Suho hyung answer it.

            “I know I know.. No no please calm down Tao. Who’s with you? No no ... don’t say that please. You have us Tao you still have us. Give your phone to Luhan. Hah? Okay give your phone to Xiumin. Stop crying Tao. Ohh hallo Xiumin. Where’s Luhan? ... Ahh okay. You can handle EXO-M right? Sorry. I really sorry... No I really sorry...” then Suho hyung tears came out. I stand up and walked towards him. Grabbed his shoulder and make him sit at sofa. The other member approached him too. But not Chanyeol hyung. He walked to his room and I could hear he’s crying too. No please this is too sad. No please this is just dream. Suddenly I felt my cheek became wet. I cried and the other member too.

            It’s 11 pm right now. Everybody decided to sleep. But I couldn’t sleep and I knew the other member too. But we have to sleep. Tomorrow we still have schedules to be done. But I really couldn’t sleep. Suddenly ‘beep’ I got a message. I check my phone and it’s Jiyeon noona. I shocked at first.

            Ah let me tell you first. After we exchange our phone number I decided to send her a message that I never send it. Too coward? Yes you right. I really really coward guy. I don’t know what I have to send. Just Hi? But too plain. Asking about her day? No too close. I’m not that close to asking about her day. So until now no message to send to her yet. But now she sent me first.

            Are you sleeping now?

Hhhhgh she asked me. She asked whether I’m sleeping or not.

            No noona. I’m awake. Why?

I replay it. Emm is this too short? No it’s normal. But I think this is too short. Ottoke? But ‘beep’ she replay me.

            I’m in front of your dorm now. Want to eat midnight snack with me?

What???????? Okay calm down Oh Sehun. Just calm down. Don’t make any noise. I check Suho hyung. He already at his dreamland. I walked outside my room. Checking other room and I could hear their snore. Okay they are asleep now.

            Okay noona. I go down now. Wait for me.

Slowly I walked outside our dorm. When I already outside dorm suddenly a car approched me. Then the driver slowly open the window. It’s Jiyeon noona.

            “Hai Sehun.” She smiled. Beautiful as always.

            “Hai noona.”

            “Come in ehehe” She laughed. Still beautiful. Then I got inside the car. I put the seatbelt and turned my face to see Jiyeon noona. She smiling at me and m