It has been nearly two weeks since I’ve seen Team B, with the filming and continuous intense training and practice they have been been put through - it was impossible to meet or even see them. I didn’t want to disturb them during their training but sometimes I would sneak a peek from the windows of the practice room and see them all wearing grave and serious expressions. Especially Hanbin, his serious and tight expressions when he sat in front of the mirrors analysing each of s and harshly scolding them for their mistakes.

I had been exchanging messages with Hanbin and Yunhyeong oppa but even from the messages I could tell, they were all stressed and overly exhausted. I kept watching the Mix&Match episodes and increasingly I grew worried for Hanbin when I noticed he wasn’t making as much jokes as before, laughing as much and looking a lot slimmer than I have ever seen. I felt so helpless that I couldn’t even do anything for them, for him.

HI - How are you, Hanbin ah.
BI - To be honest, I’m tired Hayi ah. I got eliminated from Show me your money show because I wasn’t prepared enough. I’m stressing because I’m not sure if I should train and help the new members or not…
HI -  I know I heard. You had alot on your plate with making songs, training the others and along with filming Mix&Match. You’re not superman, it is okay to fail sometimes. As a leader of the group, it will be hard but I think hardwork overrides everything. Team B has been working, training harder than anyone. You should have more trust in them.
BI - I think people expect me to be superman though...I feel like running away. But you are right, I should trust in them. We have gone through so much together, nothing can stop us from debuting now. Thank you Hayi ah, your words always comforts me.
HI - Then run away, clear your head. But come back quickly, you are what puts everything together. They need you to tell them your feelings Hanbin ah, they want to hear from you too. Trust works both ways, they need to know.
BI - hmm...yes I know what to do now. I’m glad you texted me Hayi ah. Thank you. I wish we could meet soon.
HI - Its okay, we are friends - thats what friends are for, keke. We will meet soon !! Fighting IKON!
BI - I hope so, hope you sleep well tonight.
HI - You too, Hanbin ah.

The next day I had no schedules in the morning so I made up my mind to do something for IKON. The next morning I woke up very early and began gathering ingredients around the kitchen to cook. I slid my apron on and got to work after googling a few recipes on the internet. I chopped and sliced tomatoes, mushrooms and fried sweet egg and sausages into octopus shapes. I made 9 portions, big portions and placed them carefully into the bento boxes. I arranged the food carefully and began making a stack of extra sandwiches with ham, cheese, tomatoes and avocado and lettuce. By the time I finished cooking, the whole table was full of food and I placed all the lunches into 4 big bags after admiring my work. I quickly grabbed the two large bottles of cold barley tea from the fridge that I had made in the morning and called my manager oppa to pick me up.
 

I got my manager oppa to call ikons manager to ask when they would be around YG training centre. They told us that they would be back in the afternoon and we quickly headed off to the company as I had a schedule with shooting a CF song in two hours. We hauled the lunch bags into their training room but it was empty apart from two or three staff setting up for the filming later on. I really wanted to at least greet the iKon members but my manager oppa rushed me off so all I could was leave a note for them and told the staff I would leave the package to them.
 

“Oppa, you think they would receive it?” I asked my manager oppa nervously.
 

“Hayi ah, don’t worry. I heard from the staff that iKon is making their way to the training centre now. They won’t miss it.” oppa tells me with a smile. I sat in the backseat of the van and I decided to text Hanbin just to tell him to expect something.
 

HI - Have you had lunch yet?
BI - nope not yet, I’m so hungry! Are you at the building now? We are on our way, we might go to the cafeteria first. Should we have lunch together?
HI - I just left to go to my schedule today. But you should definitely go to the training room first, with the other members.
BI - :(  We haven’t seen for a long time. But goodluck with your schedule. Training room? why?
HI - Thanks Hanbin ah, I’ve got to go but just go first okay! Enjoy.
BI - eh? wai