CHAPTER 9

Jessica smiled upon hearing her new ally, in plotting something evil against her ex-boyfriend. Yes, ex-boyfriend, since Jonghyun had decided to end their relationship upon his pregnant husband entering his 4^th month. How could, Jonghyun forgot the five years of them being together? Just because of a pregnant man! She was also pregnant before! What makes Kibum any different than her?

He didn’t lose the baby, unlike you!

Her inner voice choose that moment to talk, a very bad moment on top of that. Agreeing with her inner self, Jessica started to see red. She slapped Jonghyun as hard as she could, but she still couldn’t calm her anger and hatred towards the man and also his ing pregnant husband. Jonghyun thought he deserve to be slapped, and he let the blonde girl do whatever she wants with him, as long as his Bummie isn’t hurting.

But little did Jonghyun know that his submissive response is making Jessica even more furious as she started bawling her eyes out in anger.

“How could you do this to me? I’ve lost everything in me and now, you wanted to leave me?” since using violence, didn’t work on Jonghyun. She decided to gain the older sympathy.

And Jonghyun fall for it, by doubting his decision to leave Jessica. Sure, he didn’t love her, but being with her for five years, he couldn’t help but to feel bad seeing her cry. Indeed, a five year relationship couldn’t be underestimated.

“Jess, I’m sorry…” but Jonghyun had made up his mind to end this useless relationship for Kibum and also their future baby. He couldn’t let Kibum hurt anymore.

Of course, leaving Jessica wasn’t something easy to do, but Kibum had suffered enough because of his ignorance. Now, he knew why Jinki said to stop hurting Kibum. The words had been playing in his mind since before, but after he by accident read the younger’s diary. Everything started to make sense.

He wanted to end the relationship with Jessica first, only then he could face the younger and beg for his forgiveness. Though, he didn’t deserve to be forgiven at all.  He knew the younger loves him, but never crossed in his mind that Kibum had loved him since before. He also never thought that the younger went to United State because of him. Only god knows how much he wanted to punch himself for letting Kibum hurting that much.

“Oppa…please don’t leave me.”

Jonghyun slowly approached the crying girl, before wiping her tears away. He couldn’t help but to feel bad for hurting her.

“I’m sorry, but I can’t. I love Kibum and I can’t hurt him. I’m sorry” with that, Jonghyun walked away from Jessica, Hoping that girl would understand him.

Five year of knowing Jessica had gone to waste, from the moment Jonghyun thought Jessica would understand his feeling. She couldn’t be underestimated, yet Jonghyun still did that. Minho’s warnings were forgotten since he saw the blonde girl crying her eyes out. Besides, he wanted to reach his pregnant husband as soon as possible, so everything didn’t matter to him except for Kibum.

“Let the lovebirds enjoy the remaining times of their useless love” an evil smirk instantly spread on Jessica’s lips as her ally said that.

As much as she wanted to separate the couple as soon as possible, but she couldn’t rush the things, or everything that they planned would be wasted. Her ally was worried that she would go soft when the pregnant man is captured, but seeing the hatred that Jessica had towards Kibum, definitely would help the plan to run smoothly.

Kibum is going to be his, and he’s not going to stop until Kibum is separated with Jonghyun. His intentions were the same as Jessica, but instead, he wanted Kibum. This is the perfect opportunity to have Kibum but he couldn’t do this thing alone and he decided to use Jessica.

Foolish girl

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Kibum’s frequent throwing up had reduced as he entered his 4^th month, but it was replaced with his weird cravings. There was one time when Jonghyun had to cook for him as he didn’t want to eat if it wasn’t Jonghyun who cooked. Even though Jonghyun’s food didn’t look like a food at all, still, he ate the food deliciously. His craving is getting weirder as days passed, all of them must be related to Jonghyun. It was like the baby wanted to be in Jonghyun stomach instead of his womb. Jonghyun, being the sweet husband he is, would do anything to fulfill his husband’s cravings, even if he had to wake up on the early morning.

Kibum is trying to make himself a pancake to fill his stomach, even though he already ate with Jonghyun before the older went out. For the first trimester, he couldn’t eat the food he wanted because of the constant throwing up. Now that he is in his second trimester, his cravings for food are getting bigger each day. He was gaining weight and it was good sign, as Dr. Jung said.

When he was about to mix the pancake together, suddenly a familiar muscular hand wrapped his waist from the back, making his heart almost jump out from him. He let out a squeal while hitting the older hand in surprised. 

“Jjong, you startled me!” Kibum said in protest.

But the older, didn’t say anything. Instead he tightens his hold, as if the younger would disappear soon. This behavior caused the younger to frown. Then, he decided to turn off the stove and faced the older, only to find red puppy eyes, instead of the cute one.

“Jjong? What’s wrong? Why did you cry?” asked Kibum in panic.

Instead of answering his husband question, Jonghyun pulled the younger into his arm and buried his face in Kibum’s silky hair, inhaling the usual strawberry scent of the younger. The guilt that he felt is getting bigger as the younger asked the question over again. What did he do in his previous life to have the younger in his arms now?

It seems that he wasted the good things that he’d done in his previous life by hurting the younger in the worst way possible (or so he thought). The fresh tears started to make their own way down, as the younger decided to return his hug. He could feel the baby bump between them. It makes him felt like criminal. Why did Kibum have to love someone like him? He totally didn’t deserve Kibum at all.

“I-I’m sorry, baby. I’m so sorry” Jonghyun finally said something. It was muffled, but Kibum could understand it clearly.

“Hey, it’s okay” even though Kibum didn’t know the reason to accept the apology, but ‘Why?’ wasn’t the right words to utter in this moment. Jonghyun is crying and it is his duty to calm the older. He decided to ask the older later on, when Jonghyun isn’t crying anymore. It hurt him to see his husband cry ever so desperately like this.

“No, it wasn’t okay at all! I hurt you, you shouldn’t forgive me so soon” Jonghyun said a bit louder, but he still holds the younger in his arms. He wanted to look at the younger feline eyes, but his conscience prevents him to. What right did he has to look into the younger’s eyes?

Let alone starring into Kibum’s eyes, he didn’t even have rights to hold the younger like that. He had lost his right to love Kibum by hurting the younger that much, but he couldn’t let the younger go. He wanted to be with Kibum and their future child.

“What are you talking about? You didn’t hurt me” Kibum wanted to break free from the hug to face Jonghyun, but the older didn’t allow him to.

“Yes, I did and I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. I can’t even look at you, because I’m ashamed of myself. I’m-” Jonghyun blabbering was cut short, when Kibum decided to press their lips together.

Jonghyun eyes went as wide as Minho’s eyes when the latter is shocked.

“You are saying sorry too much.” Said Kibum with face as red as tomato.

The kiss leave Jonghyun speechless, and it was right decision to kiss the older. Jonghyun didn’t even tell Kibum the real reason of him being so emotional like that. Since the older had arrived, the words that came out from his mouth were only sorry. No explanation, which makes Kibum frustrated since he couldn’t understand why the older is behaving like that.

“Now, tell me what was that?” Kibum said after calming his heart down.

“I accidently read your diary. Why didn’t you tell me? I can’t even look into your eyes, right now.” Said Jonghyun truthfully, looking at the floor as if it’s the most interesting things in that moment.

Kibum’s eyes went wide, hearing the confession of the older. He wasn’t planning to let the older knew about the feelings he had for him since they were kids, but now it was different. Jonghyun knew all of it, and the older is crying because of that. If he knew Jonghyun would cry like this, he would throw the diary long time ago.

“That’s why I don’t want to tell you, because I knew, if I did, you wouldn’t want to look at me ever again. I hate that even more.”

Jonghyun head instantly shot up as the younger said that. He looked at Kibum in the eyes before smashing their lips together, and Kibum is more than happy to comply to the kiss.

Their maids who wanted to enter the kitchen, instantly walked away from the entrance as soon as they saw their masters literally making out in the kitchen.  Not wanting to disturb the lovebirds.

The kiss went heated then Jonghyun intended to and he was about to lift the younger, when Kibum’s stomach starts to growl loudly, surprising both of them, which caused them to broke the kiss abruptly. Kibum couldn’t help but to turn into red crimson, obviously ashamed by the loud sound came from his stomach. He made a mental note to fill up his stomach to its fullest, so that it won’t interrupt their moment like this, ever again.

“uh…I was making pancake” Kibum, out of the blue informed the older, since he couldn’t find the right words to utter in that awkward situation.

Instead of answering, Jonghyun burst out into laughing mess. He couldn’t help but to find that the younger is cute by trying to save them from awkward moment, which obviously didn’t work. It scares him, on how Kibum could change his emotion from being sad to happy in that instant.

 Seeing that laugh, Kibum’s lips unknowingly curved upwards. He’s glad for able to make Jonghyun let out a big laugh like that. He didn’t even notice he was smiling while starring at the older handsome face, until Jonghyun’s puppy eyes meets his feline one.

Jonghyun extended his hand to reach the younger’s smaller one before squeezing it lightly.

“Bummie…I’ve left Jessica.”

Kibum didn’t know how to react when his husband said that, part of him are happy, but another part of him couldn’t help but to feel guilty towards Jessica. He wanted to accept the fact that the blonde girl is his husband girlfriend, but he couldn’t lie to himself. He was jealous. He wanted Jonghyun for himself and he knew he’s being selfish, and he was sorry for that.

“I’ve hurt you, enough. I don’t want to see you cry in your sleep ever again”

Kibum widen his feline eyes when the older said that. He thought Jonghyun was asleep when he cried, but little did he know that the older is very much awake when the younger crying his eyes out. It hurt Jonghyun when he heard the younger muffled sob, but he knew he couldn’t do anything to make the younger feeling better except breaking up with Jessica.

Jonghyun glad, he found that diary. It’s because of the diary he’s able to gather up his courage to break up with Jessica.

“H-how-”

“I heard you…and it hurts me to hear that” Jonghyun cut the younger off, before he finished his question.

“Did she cry?” sure he hates Jessica, but he couldn’t help but to feel sorry for her.

Jonghyun only nodded to answer the question. Kibum resists the urge to slap himself for asking the dumb question. They were dating for 5 years, how in hell Jessica wouldn’t cry? Of course she will.

“Let’s not talk about her…I Love You, Baby”

Kibum face instantly turns to bright red, as Jonghyun utter the three precious words and Jonghyun probably knew how he could affect the younger as he smiled upon seeing the red face of his husband and then suddenly Kibum felt something kicking his stomach.

It couldn’t be the baby, right? His mother always said that he wouldn’t feel his baby movement until he entered his 6^th month. Then he felt another kick, as if the baby wanted to make sure that her ‘mother’ knew that she was kicking him.

“Bummie, what’s wrong?” asked Jonghyun worriedly, seeing Kibum frowned while holding his baby bump.

Kibum didn’t answer, but instead he took the older hand and put it onto his stomach. Jonghyun was about to ask, when he felt something soft kicking the younger stomach, which he could also felt it.

“I-is it?” he didn’t have to ask the whole question, when Kibum nodded enthusiastically

“B-but mother said, you couldn’t feel it, until sixth month?”

“I don’t know, but let’s call your mother first”

Thinking it was a good idea, Jonghyun quickly pried out his phone and dialed his mother.

After a few minutes of question and answer session, the lovebirds hang up with a big smile on their faces. Their baby indeed make a movement, usually a pregnant woman won’t realize her baby movement until they entered their sixth month, but the baby already make their first movement in the 4^th month. Indeed Kibum’s baby is making her first movement which didn’t go unnoticed by him.

“Thank you, baby…for this beautiful gift” said Jonghyun before he bent down to the younger’s stomach to kiss it ever so lovingly.

The butterfly inside Kibum, went wild after the sudden kiss by the older.

I’m sorry Jessica…but I love this man too much to give up on him…

It such a shame that they couldn’t determine the baby gender yet. It will be revealed as the younger entered the 5^th month. Kibum couldn’t help but to feel that the baby will be a girl. It was unknown to Jonghyun, but he had been dreaming about her actually. She will be a beautiful baby girl with round puppy eyes, just like Jonghyun.

But that was a dream, their baby could be a boy. Even so, he will love the baby the same, regardless what gender it will be.

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Taemin was about to enter his car, when a big hand suddenly wrapped his waist, causing him to shriek ever so loudly, in reflex. When he was about to bite the big hand, a familiar voice stops him abruptly.

“Tae…I miss you”

A voice that never fails to make thousand butterflies went wild inside his belly. He didn’t want to admit this, but he also miss the older, so freaking much. 4 years, being stuck with Minho, didn’t help him to forget the older at all

“Let me go” said Taemin as cold as he can. He had been avoiding Minho for 2 month, but not once the older leave him alone like he had instructed Minho to.

Instead of complying with the younger, Minho tighten his holds. He needs the younger more than anything in that moment. Sure, he had hurt Taemin in the worst way possible, he didn’t have any right to hold the younger, but he needs Taemin to tell him everything is okay.

“Minho, let me Go!” Taemin shouted with all his might, totally oblivious about the tears that are threatening to fall from the older.

“P-please, let me hold you for a little while.” Taemin stops his little rampage, hearing the older hoarse voice. He let the older holds him as he wanted.

After a few minutes hearing the older stifled sob, Minho finally let the younger go. It hurts Taemin to hear the muffled sob of his ex-boyfriend and he couldn’t do anything to make the older feel better. Or he could, but he didn’t want to give in. The picture of his ex-boyfriend lying on the bed with a woman, are still vividly stayed in his mind.

He pushed the older away, before stepping into his car and drive away from the source of his heartache as fast as he could.

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For the umpteenth time Jonghyun let out a big sigh seeing his friend chugging the third bottle of his soju. He wanted to leave his best friend there and back to his pregnant husband arms, but knowing the reason of the younger being a wreck like this, he couldn’t.

“I miss himmm” Minho slurred out while opening the forth bottle.

He was about to drink, when Jonghyun decided to grab the bottle from his grasp.

“Givee it…” Minho tried to grab the soju back, but without success, since he was too drunk to see straightly.

“Minho…let’s go back” Jonghyun shook the younger as he said that.

But Minho didn’t even budge at the older request. Jonghyun was about to stand when Minho start sobbing ever so desperately.

“I-I need him…W-without him my life i-is a m-mess.”

This ain’t going nowhere…

Jonghyun pried his phone and make a call, since Minho wouldn’t move until he saw his ex-boyfriend.

“Hello, Jonghyun Hyung?”

“Tae…I need you to come here, Minho, he is-”

“I don’t want to…” Taemin cuts the older off, knowing perfectly what Jonghyun wanted to say.

“But Tae-”

Once again Jonghyun was cut off but this time it wasn’t Taemin but it was Minho. The frog-like-man decided to throw up near the table he was sitting, since the soju he drunk before gave him a terrible headache.

“What was that?” Taemin knew that vomiting sound, he would recognize it anywhere.

“It’s Minho…” Jonghyun sighed before he continued, “you should come and see it yourself.”

It took Taemin 30 minutes to arrive at the stall which make Jonghyun let out a relief sigh. He was about to walk away, when he decided to turn back, wanting to say something to Taemin, so that the younger won’t stay mad at Minho.

“He was suspended because of his poor achievement for the past 2 months…he needs you, Tae. I know what he did is unforgivable, but he didn’t mean that. I leave him to you. I need to go back to Bummie” with that Jonghyun walked away. After he knew what Minho did to Taemin, he wanted more than anything to kick Minho’s , but seeing how broken Minho been, ever since the broke up, he felt sorry for the taller.

Thinking that, he didn’t have any right to kick Minho, since he wasn’t any better than the taller. It was because of the pureness of Kibum’s heart, he could be with the younger once again. It was because of Kibum he could feel love. The happiness that surrounds him at this moment is because of Kibum not Jessica or his past girlfriends.

As he entered his car, his phone decided to went off. Seeing the caller id his lips instantly curving upwards. He quickly pressed the accept button while bringing the phone close to his ear, only to hear uneven breathing of his pregnant husband.

“Bummie, what’s wrong dear?”

“J-Jjong….hurry home I’m scared. There’s someone strange outside.” Stuttered Kibum

“I’ll be there…don’t hang up..keep talking to me”

With that Jonghyun sped up his car as fast as the car could go, wanting to kill whoever that dared to touch his pregnant husband.

“Jjong…i-I’m scared”

“Baby, listen to my voice and-”

“aaarghhh”

  A scream was heard before Jonghyun could even finished his line.

“Baby? Bummie?”

Nothing but silence answered Jonghyun’s desperate call. Without waiting any longer, Jonghyun started to drive like a mad man, which caused a little chaos to the other driver. But he couldn’t care less of those people when Kibum was all in his mind at this moment. 

As soon as he arrived at their mansion, he quickly run and stood in front of the opened door. He pushed the door while running towards their bedroom, hoping to find his pregnant husband safe and sound.

Of course, what he’d hoped didn’t go as he wanted. He stood there in their bedroom, only to find the younger’s hand phone lying there on the cold floor. It took him only 10 minutes to search the younger in the whole mansion, but he found nothing.

“BUMMIE!”

He shouted with all his might, regretting his decision, leaving the younger alone in the big mansion.

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Kibum starting to regain his conscious back, but he couldn’t remember anything after talking to Jonghyun though the phone. All he know is there’s someone who trying to get into his house or let just say already entered his house.

“Well…well, look, the sleeping beauty is awake”

The familiar voice ringing in his ears making him snapped back to reality. Only now, he realized that he was tied against chair. He keep struggling to let his hand free ignoring another person who starring at him viciously.

“Keep wasting your energy, I wouldn’t care less if you die”

Kibum stops his struggling immediately and trying to get a closer look to the familiar voice. As he saw the smirk on that face, his eyes instantly went wide.

“YOU!”

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