A/N : You may want to hear, SHINee - Quasimodo, while reading....

CHAPTER 6

Kibum is sleeping soundly when a soft knocking sound was heard behind the door. He shifted his body around so that he could sleep a little longer, but before he once again enters the dream world suddenly a big hand decides to snake around his waist.

Wait. ?

Kibum instantly open his eyes but only to shut it again, when his eyes are not accustomed to the bright sunlight that filled the room. He once again tried to open his eyes but this time he knew better than opening his eyes so suddenly like that. Slowly the room is clearly visible to his eyes and also the person who is sleeping soundly besides him. Kibum hastily slapped his hand on his mouth preventing himself from shouting at the side of Jonghyun’s bare body. The wedding and their activities last night totally slips out from his mind earlier, but now everything started to came back. The kiss, his moans, everything was playing in his mind like a broken record. He was lost in his thought until Jonghyun started to shift around, and the older opened his eyes slowly, getting used of the lights in the room. He had the same expression as the younger earlier when he realized that they were lying on the same bed, both are but their lower part are covered with sheet.

What the ?

Jonghyun instantly sat up with his eyes almost popped out from his head, looking at Kibum with regrets and anger. Kibum kind of expected the reaction of his husband and he thought he already prepared for such reaction. He had promised himself to not hurting, but Jonghyun’s reaction totally killing him inside, without the older uttering any word, his heart was already stabbed mercilessly.

“Bum…I’m sorry”

It will be much better if Jonghyun ignore him and walk away than uttering the words that he wished the older didn’t say. He was not sorry for seducing Jonghyun last night, even though he knew the older wasn’t in love with him. He was not sorry at all.

“I hope you forget what happen last night”

It was easy dying than bearing this kind of pain. That’s what Kibum thought. How can he forget his first time of doing it with the person he loved for his entire life? Jonghyun’s words were like a gun, shooting his heart repeatedly. The pain he was bearing at this moment couldn’t be stated into words. Kibum clutched the blanket tightly, preventing himself from bursting out into tears. He stands up slowly without uttering a single reply while biting his lips as he felt the older slipping out from his and also preventing him from shouting because of the pain that have been killing him from the moment he woke up. He ignore the fact he was as he walked towards the bathroom, he was sure Jonghyun was staring at him but he couldn’t care less about the older since his heart was so busy breaking up into small pieces.

Kibum fall on the cold bathroom floor as soon as the door shuts and his tears are making their own way down to his cheeks. He already expected for the older to say those cruel words to him, but it doesn’t mean to hurt any less, it turns out the words hurt him more than he had imagined. With shaky legs he stepped into the tub and only then he realized that he was bleeding down there. He was sure his blood stained Jonghyun’s sheet.

Jonghyun felt like a after seeing the blood that clearly visible on his bed, but he had to say that, because Kibum possess something that could make Jonghyun lose himself and he knew he had right to have Kibum in any way, but he felt like he was cheating on Jessica. She meant so much to him and it won’t be easy for him to let her go. He knew she had done something unforgivable, but he had done something worse to her. Until now Jonghyun had never forgive himself for what he had done. Things like last night couldn’t happen again. He doesn’t want to hurt Kibum, more than he already is. Jonghyun wasn’t so airheaded to know that the younger loves him. Who wouldn’t realize? The way the younger looked at him, the way he reacted when Jonghyun touched him. It was crystal clear that the younger was head over heels towards Jonghyun. Jonghyun couldn’t deny that his feeling towards the younger was more than a friend.

“Jjong…I’ve already prepared your bath” Kibum said, smiling to his husband.

After crying his eyes out in the bathroom, Kibum decided to calm himself. He had predicted how the taller would be after their session last night and he was happy to know that Jonghyun was his first, he couldn’t wish for better. He had promised himself to be a good husband to Jonghyun and he was going to fulfill the promise, until the day Jonghyun decided to throw him. Kibum walks towards the closet, taking out few clothes and a luggage as he started to pack. Jonghyun frowned, seeing the latter.

Seeing his husband crooked eyebrows, Kibum let out a small chuckle and said “we’re going to Jeju, today…remember? By the way, do you mind if I pack your clothes too?” Only then it clicked to Jonghyun thick head.

“Not at all…” was only his reply.

Jonghyun seriously thought the younger would curse him, kick him, slap him, but the way the younger acted just now, as if he wasn’t affected at all towards Jonghyun’s words. Without uttering any words, Jonghyun took his steps towards the bathroom, but stopped abruptly when the younger decided to say a word that unknowingly struck Jonghyun’s heart like a lightning.

“Last night was a mistake…”

What Jonghyun didn’t know is, Kibum was hurting more than he had ever imagined…Kibum was lying, he need to lie, to at least save his pride in front of Jonghyun. His heart was too late to be saved.

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Kibum jaw almost dropped to the floor seeing their room’s hotel. Even though he’s rich but he had never expects the hotel would be this luxury at the same time had beautiful scenery. Their room was as big as an apartment, which had everything that a house would have except for kitchen, while Jonghyun just casually throws his body against the fluffy bed after putting away their luggage near to their bed, totally used to that kind of room.

“Wow…this is so beautiful.” Kibum muttered by himself, but it don’t go unheard by Jonghyun.

Jonghyun who still lying on the bed, turns his head towards the windows where his husband stands. He couldn’t help but to imagine how good it would be if he could stand behind the younger, wrapping his hand around the younger slim waist while enjoying the scenery before them. The taller quickly shook his head, pushing away all of his thought.

“Bum, is this your first time being here?” Jonghyun asked out of curiosity, since the younger seems so excited when they arrived earlier.

“Yes…Jjong, could you take me to the beach? I really wanted to go there…” Kibum excitedly ask, it has been his dream to have his vacation at Jeju-do. Only today his wish got granted.

“Okay…but please let me sleep for an hour, and then we’ll go” Kibum nodded a little too fast, totally excited by the promise the older had made. He also was going to sleep, but his eyes won’t close and only then he decided to put all of his belonging and his husband’s into the closet.

An Hour Later

Jonghyun woke up as promised and took his husband to the beach near the hotel they were staying. Kibum jumped excitedly at the sight of beach in front of him, it was the same as the one he had imagined. Since he was a child he had never been to the beach, he didn’t know why, but his father didn’t allow him to go near the beach.

Jonghyun could only chuckle seeing how excited the latter are. His father in-law had clearly warns him to never let Kibum go to the beach, but seeing how the younger’s eyes twinkle when he asked him earlier, he couldn’t help but to agree. Jonghyun knew Soohyun only wanted to make sure that the past didn’t repeat itself. Not only Soohyun, but Jonghyun also didn’t want Kibum to drown once again. It happen when the latter was only 12, when their family decided to go picnic at the beach. Kibum was playing with Jonghyun at that time. Jonghyun was so busy, making the sand castle to notice that the younger had gone into the water, but soon after he began to notice that the younger wasn’t with him. Jonghyun heart almost dropped knowing the younger was struggling in the water to continue breathing. Kibum’s shout when he was about to drown is still ringing in Jonghyun’s ear until today. It took Kibum 2 days to regain his conscience back, and the younger totally forgot about the incident that happen to him.

Jonghyun little flashback was thrown away when he heard a faint sequeal from the younger. He quickly shifted his head towards the younger, worried. But he let out a relief sigh after seeing the younger was kicking the water lightly while squealing whenever the cold water touched his porcelain skin.

“Jjong! Come here…this is so fun” the blond shouts enthusiastically

Jonghyun hastily took his step towards the younger, playing along with his newly wedded husband.

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That night Jonghyun took Kibum to the most romantic candlelight dinner ever (in Kibum opinion). The restaurant is filled with tourist and also local people, but most of them are tourist with their own partner. Jonghyun wanted to treat Kibum with utmost care, he wanted to at least respect Kibum as his husband. He knew they couldn’t be like any other married couple, but he had promised his father-in-law to make the younger happy and he don’t want to break the promise because he knew the younger deserved to be happy like anyone else.

“Jjong…thank you, I’m happy” Kibum suddenly said after the waiter walked away after taking their orders.

Jonghyun could only reply with a smile, he didn’t know the younger would felt happy over something trivial like this. If it was Jessica, it took him over 20 million won to make her satisfied. This dinner not even reach two hundred thousand won. Kibum surely different or maybe he was used to luxury present, but if it was like that, the latter wouldn’t say thank you.

“-ong…Jjong?” It took Kibum over a minute, calling over Jonghyun to grab his attention.

“Yes?” was all he replied.

“You haven’t touched your food…it’ll get cold, if you didn’t eat soon” Kibum jutting out his lips towards the older untouched plate. Jonghyun didn’t even realize, when did their food arrived.

Jonghyun let a small smile curving onto his lips, before grabbing his chopstick and stuffed the food in front of him into his mouth. Jonghyun is too engrossed in eating to notice that some of his food sticking on his cheeks. Kibum is the first to notice how silly his husband looked, Jonghyun may be the most wanted bachelor in South Korea, but this Jonghyun, who is sitting in front of him is the one who he fell in love with. He let out a chuckle, but a bit louder than he intended to, grabbing the older attention with his eyebrows crooked in confusion. Kibum shook his head before grabbing his napkin and inching closer to Jonghyun, which makes the older almost choked his own spit seeing the younger alluring lips. Before Jonghyun could even think of another ual thought, the younger wipe off the dirt on the elder’s cheeks with his napkin, which makes Jonghyun’s mind, goes blank. It took everything in Jonghyun to prevent him from kissing the younger right there.

“Jjong…you haven’t changed at all, still eating like someone was chasing after you…” Kibum said as he returned to his previous place, once again enjoying his food.

Jonghyun clear his throat awkwardly, before once again continued to eat, but this time a little bit slower than before. He was not going to give the younger the second chance to make fun of him. The dinner continued with a silly argument between the married couple. Kibum was more than happy to be able to spend his time like this with Jonghyun. It was like everything was fine, where there is no Jessica, no arranged married, no unhappy first night.

But, Kibum shouldn’t say anything so soon. After their romantic dinner, Kibum was left alone in their hotel room because Jonghyun are entertaining his girlfriend to only-god-knows-where. Kibum definitely spoke too soon, and everything was perfect until Jessica decided to wait Jonghyun in front of the new welds’ room. Why did she had to be there when everything are finally alright?

Kibum couldn’t sleep, how can he? When he know his husband is positively ing Jessica somewhere. Kibum grab his coat and throw it over his shoulder, before stepping out from the room, going to where ever his foot wished to go. He walked aimlessly along the unfamiliar road, watching no one in particular. Eventually he stopped miraculously in front of a river, he wanted to think of anything except Jonghyun, but every single thing he saw makes him think of Jonghyun more. He wanted to shout, to scream, to do anything that could take away his heartache. He thought he was strong but no, he was weak…everything that related to Jonghyun make him the weakest person on the world. He was starring at the river blankly, as his heart started to feel numb.

“My Bum?” a familiar voice suddenly ringing in his ear, he knew that voice very well.

Kibum turns around only to be greeted by his best friend when he was at United State.

“My Hyun?” Kibum said as he wanted to confirm that his eyes didn’t trick him. Hearing the latter reply, Woohyun grab the younger slim frame into his arm, crushing the latter with his infamous bone-crushing hug.

Kibum was suffocated but he needed that hug so really bad. He wanted someone to tell him that everything is alright. He wished for Jinki to show up, but instead the God decided to send Woohyun to him. He couldn’t ask for better.

“Kiki? Why did you cry?”

Only then Kibum realized that he was literally crying, he didn’t want anyone to see him in this state, he had only showed this side of him to Jinki, No one else. He hastily wiped his tears, but the fresh tear started to make their own way down.

“You scaring me, did someone do something to you?” Woohyun asked worriedly. But the taller unable to talk, the lump in his throat preventing him to make any sound. He could only shook his head to reply the latter. He didn’t want to cry but knowing his husband is somewhere in that island ing his girlfriend, he couldn’t do anything but to cry. That was seriously persistent, couldn’t she wait for this honeymoon to end? Why in the world that she had to show up in that moment?

“L-let me cry, just d-don’t ask any question” the taller managed to stutter in his sob. He just wanted to release even a little bit of his heartache.

Woohyun frowned but still hugged his friend, without uttering any words as the taller wanted. He was glad meeting the taller at this island, but he wasn’t happy at all seeing his friend crying like this, which was his first time seeing it. Kibum never showed his vulnerable side to anyone, including Woohyun. Even though, they are best friend.

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Jonghyun was beyond mad at Jessica this time. She seriously testing his patience, how could she just barge into his honeymoon like that? Kibum surely are hurting so much at this moment.

“Oppa, I missed you” Jessica used her infamous sickly sweet voice, hoping it would calm her boyfriend’s anger.

“What the hell are you doing here? I’ve told you, I’ll be back in two days!” Jonghyun was even furious seeing Jessica still could act innocently.

“Why are you so angry? It’s not like you’re in love with that !” Jessica’s word was cut short when a big hand landed on her cheek, hard. It left her speechless seeing Jonghyun was fuming mad. The silvered-haired man had never raised his hand against her. Jonghyun is a gentleman, never in his life, he would hit a woman, on top of that his girlfriend.

“Don’t call him that…” Jonghyun growls angrily at her.

“Oppa! Don’t tell me you love him?” Jessica holds her burning cheek, as she said that.

“What if I do? What are you going to do? He is my husband, I can love him to my heart content!” Jonghyun wasn’t thinking at all as he blurted out the words that piercing through Jessica’s heart.

“If I can’t I have you no one can, Did you forgot our unborn baby? You killed him! You killed my baby!” Jessica shouted angrily. She knew Jonghyun will change after the marriage, and she was right. They only married for about three days, but Jonghyun already forgot her. Jonghyun raked his hair harshly. Every time they argue, their unborn child will also being dragged into that argument. And yes, that child was Jonghyun and Jessica child. She had a miscarriage 2 years ago after the 3rd time they had a rough and Jonghyun blamed himself for losing their baby, that’s why he can’t leave Jessica even though he loves his husband. Along with her miscarriage Jessica also lost her opportunity to become a mother again. In order to save her life, her womb was removed along with her unborn child. Jessica also blamed Jonghyun for what had happen to her. She had vowed to never let Jonghyun live a happy life when she has lost everything in her.

“I still remember it, but please don’t do this to Kibum…he had nothing to do with this” Jonghyun knew he had lost in their argument from the moment Jessica brought up the incident.

“You really love him…” it wasn’t a question but a statement. Jessica had always suspected it, but today her boyfriend shamelessly showed her how he loves his newly wedded husband. Jonghyun just kept his mouth shut, unable to deny it. She totally hit the right spot. Jonghyun thought that he loves Jessica wholeheartedly, but the truth is Jonghyun never loves Jessica like he had thought. When Kibum decides to leave him to United States, Jonghyun was a mess. He didn’t come out from his room for a week, it was Minho who dragged him out and introduced Jessica to him. Their relationship started because he wanted to distract himself from thinking of Kibum.

“Don’t ever think you can broke up with me after you took all of me!” Jessica sternly said before she stomped away from Jonghyun.

Jonghyun rested his back against the wall, totally worn out from his ‘heated’ discussion with Jessica. He loves Kibum but he was blinded by his fake love towards Jessica. His father was right, Jessica isn’t the person who he thought she was, but still he can’t leave Jessica just like that. Because of him, she never gets to know how it feels to become a mother.

I’m ed up!

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After crying for another 10 minutes, Kibum finally stops crying. He was totally worn out by crying like there’s no tomorrow. Woohyun broke the hug and looked at his best friend, wanting to get an explanation from the taller.

“Hyun, why are you here?” Kibum asked, wanting to distract his friend from asking question that he would never be able to answer it.

“I just wanted to enjoy the fresh air of Jeju before going back to Seoul. Now tell me why are you crying?” Woohyun aren’t distracted though. Since it was the first time the taller cried in front of him, there’s no way he would let this thing go unanswered.

“No reason, I just wanted to cry…will you go back to US?” Kibum halfheartedly answered and once again tried to avoid the talk about his little burst out.

Woohyun sighed deeply before answering “No, I’m staying here. Seriously Kiki, tell me, what happen?” He wasn’t going to back out.

Then it’s the taller turn to sigh…

“No question asked, remember? You said you wouldn’t be back here anymore? So why the sudden change?” Kibum simply said, but his voice is stern, warning the latter to drop the issue.

Woohyun knew better than be persistent, whenever Kibum’s voice came out like that. He wasn’t going to mess with the diva.

“I wanted to make you fall in love with me, since I’m unable to do it in US…” Woohyun said cheerfully. He is absolutely unaware of the gold ring wrapping the diva’s ring finger. He had always love Kibum, but the taller had never gave him a chance to prove it.

“Woohyun-”

“I know you didn’t love me, but soon you will.” Woohyun said confidently

“I’m married” Kibum didn’t meant to sound so cold, but he didn’t want to hurt his friend by giving him a false hope. Kibum will never love him, no matter how hard the latter tried. Even without Jonghyun presence, Woohyun cannot make the diva forgot about the older, let alone with Jonghyun being his husband now. Woohyun didn’t stand a chance.

“What?” Woohyun is totally dumbfounded by the diva’s announcement.

“I’m a married man, Woohyun. I’m here because we’re in our honeymoon, I’m sorry.”

Woohyun felt his world gone dark hearing the taller every words.

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Jonghyun was about to get out to find his husband, when he heard someone was talking in front of their room.

“I’m going in…thank you and I’m sorry” it was Kibum’s voice, he wouldn’t mistaken it with anyone.

“Take care…Kiki” was all Jonghyun heard, when Kibum decided to enter the room, with his redden cheeks and eyes. Everyone could immediately tell that the latter was crying.

Seeing his husband in the room, caught him off guard. Kibum seriously thought that Jonghyun will be spending the night with his girlfriend.

“Where did you go?” Jonghyun asked, his voice totally as cold as ice. Kibum was going to laugh hearing Jonghyun, as if he was jealous of Woohyun.

“Getting my mind cleared out.” Was all Kibum replied. He wasn’t in mood to act like a good husband now.

“On 1 ing morning?!” Jonghyun is burning with jealousy as he spit out the words

“What the hell is wrong with you? I never said anything when you decided to leave me here alone and ed your girlfriend!” Kibum didn’t know what got into him to make he blurted out all the harsh words to Jonghyun. But he knew one thing, that he was tired of hiding his feeling at that moment.

“I…”

“Enough, Jjong…I’m tired you know, why did you have to be so stupid?” Kibum’s voice shook as his tears started to make their way on his cheeks.

Jonghyun was speechless, never in his life seeing Kibum so vulnerable like that. Did Kibum was hurting that much? Jonghyun walks towards the younger. Slowly, he wrapped his hand around the younger slim waist and rested his chin on the younger head. While Kibum cried even harder.

“I’m sorry, bum…I’m so sorry” Jonghyun was also crying as he uttered the words. He loves Kibum (finally he admits it) but he just can’t leave Jessica just like that. He didn’t know how to explain that to Kibum. Knowing how thoughtful Kibum is, he was sure the younger will definitely back off willingly. But Jonghyun didn’t want to let the younger go. He had lost the younger once and he wouldn’t let the younger go for the second time.

“Jjong…its hurt” Kibum managed to say in his sob. He don’t want to hide it anymore, he wanted Jonghyun to know how hurt he was, knowing his husband wasn’t in love with him. Jonghyun only nodded, indicating that he knew about that. Kibum didn’t have to tell him because he knew better than anyone else how hurt it was.

The night was spent with them, cuddling and slept in each other embrace. Jonghyun silently wished that the morning never come so that they can stay like that forever.

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The morning came a bit faster than what Jonghyun had wished. He slowly open his eyes, adjusting it first before completely let it widen. He turns to his side seeing the most beautiful and cutest thing he had ever seen. He wished that he could see this face every time he woke up. Jonghyun once thought how wonderful it would be if Jessica was the first thing he saw in the morning every day, but seeing Kibum the first thing in the morning sent shiver to his body and his heart was thumping loudly against his ribcage. This kind of thing didn’t happen to him when he was with Jessica.

Suddenly Kibum shifted his body around, as if knowing there was someone is watching him, before his eyes fluttered open, looking deeply into Jonghyun’s eyes. The younger face is getting red in every second their eyes met. It makes Jonghyun feels like he is the happiest man alive, knowing, how he could affect the younger.

“Jjong…what are we?” Kibum knew the answer wouldn’t be the one he wanted to, but he need to hear it himself

“Silly bum…we’re married couple, of course” Jonghyun knew what the younger are talking about, and he was serious with his answer.

“No, I didn’t mean it like that…”

Kibum trying hard to find the best word to explain to Jonghyun, but his thinking face was absolutely cute in Jonghyun’s eyes.

“I know…and my answer is, we’re married couple” Jonghyun said while pinching the younger’s nose, lightly. Kibum starred deeply into Jonghyun’s brown puppy eyes, wanting to find any hidden meaning or lies, but he found nothing but sincerity in that eyes.

“What about Jessica?” Kibum wanted this to end once and for all, if they are married couple then Jessica cannot be there, along with them.

“I’m sorry…but I can’t leave her just like that…” Jonghyun for the first time in that morning, avoiding the younger’s feline eyes as he said that

“Did you love her that much?” Kibum silently asked as his heart once again breaking into pieces hearing the older reply.

“Bum, can you believe me when I tell you that the reason I can’t leave her wasn’t a love?” Jonghyun once again looked into the younger’s eyes, so that Kibum could see how sincere he was at this moment.

“What’s that supposed to mean?”

“It means that I don’t love her anymore” Kibum eyes widen as he heard the older reply. Without a warning Jonghyun inched closer to the younger and gently placed his lips against the younger bow-shaped one, caused the younger’s eyes almost popped out from his head.

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