"It's sad but I don't even understand how sad feels like. I can smile but there's no joy in it. It's just my muscles pulling at the corners of my mouth. And those aren't even real muscles. It's like I'm not allowed to be angry or be merry and I'm alone and I should be but don't want to be. It's messed up but it's actually crystal clear. It's like a hallucination. I can't even have hallucinations. I think I'm lost but everything is actually in place. It's unfair because I'm a burden to someone who should be enjoying his life and not babysitting a non-living thing like me. I don't deserve to walk this Earth when all I ever did was cause pain and harm to people around me. I'm an unimportant neccessity and I hate it. my only purpose is experimentation and I know I've no right to long for more than that. I know I'm half and there are people who will always be there but the fact that I'm different will always be undeniable. I am a mistake, a glitch in reality. I should be gone but I'm still here. I'm supposed to be more capable than most but still I'm like a lost  child who can barely understand anything. It's frustrating because I never wanted any of this. I never wished for anything like this and it's breaking me apart, figuratively. This is killing me but not really, because I cannot die. I'm lifeless but not dead and I don't exist but I'm alive. I know everything yet know so little and it's, well... mindblowing."

credits to the person who made the covers for this story:

MXGGLEMXNDXYS (Margarette) this username is her username on wattpad ^^

http://www.wattpad.com/user/MxggleMxndxys