Romantic / Minho
SHINee Songfic Oneshots
All in Minho's POV. Italicized sentences are excerpts from Minho's novel.
{Romantic}
Yeah, my girl
(I'm an idiot)
Your unforgettable love,
These final tears
Are tearing my heart to pieces
It's tearing apart
(I'm sorry) I'm so sorry
She pushed an enormous box to my chest. I glanced at her with my heart aflutter. Lifting the lid a few inches, I saw old letters and trinkets inside -- things I have given her for the past years.
"W-why, Minhee?" I asked tearfully. "Why are you returning all of these?"
"Since we're already over, I don't need any of those anymore."
Hearing her say those words made the reality struck me hard finally. Until this time, I could not yet accept the fact that she broke up with me yesterday.
"Good bye, Minho," she said firmly, turning her back on me.
Like a scene on a movie, we walked towards opposite directions, away from each other. If this is what would make her happy, then be it. But the earth is round; I know we'll meet again someday.
I thoughtlessly walk wherever my heart takes me
I am searching for anyone that resembles you
But I'm just stuck in this same spot
Two years has passed but I never missed a day to stop by this place where I last saw her.
It was a very beautiful place, a park beside the sea. From here, visitors could watch the glorious setting of the sun, making it a popular spot for dating couples. Why did Minhee chose to end our relationship here, I never knew.
I keep on hoping that she would return here, looking for me too. As I wait for her everyday, I write down in a little notebook. I've been trying to finish a novel and this place held all the inspiration for it. It seems that I couldn't write anywhere else but here.
Angel broke up with Jero for some strange reasons and they never met again ...
I looked at the setting sun, my pen dangling over my notebook. It was getting dark and I could barely see the words I have written. I packed my things, preparing to leave. I will just return tomorrow. And maybe by then, Minhee would finally come.
It seems as if you tapped my lonely shoulders
Only to hide when I turned around
Why aren't you here?
Why can't I see you?
Or is it that my eyes are looking too far?
Oh no
I stood up and walked by the sea wall, looking sideways at the gently dropping sun that makes the clouds around it a brilliant shade of orange, until a white light flashed and I bumped into someone I didn't notice.
"Kyaa~" she shrieked, losing her balance. I grabbed her wrist to prevent her from falling hard on the asphalt ground.
"I'm sorry!" I said hastily, my heart pumping fast. Did I just bump into Minhee--?
"Oh, it's fine. You gave me a fright!" she said, swishing her long hair out of her face.
She wasn't Minhee. I let go of her wrist. "I'm sorry," I repeated.
"Don't mention it. I was taking a photograph of the setting sun but I guess it's all blurred now ..." she explained, sighing. Now I know where all the white light came from. "But, as I say, it's fine. The sun will set again tomorrow."
"Yeah," I said, looking to the west. The sun has gone and the horizon was all purple now. I smiled at her and remembered how Minhee used to always bring camera with her.
"I'm Insa, by the way. Yoon Insa."
"Er, Minho. Choi Minho." We shook hands.
"What a nice way to meet someone ..." she said, looking away shyly.
I smiled at her, something I have never done for quite a long time. And that was how our friendship began.
I believed that I would be able to love another
the pain of you branded in my heart is killing me
What should I do?
We always meet coincidentally at the park and soon it became intentional. We usually chat a lot throughout our stays there everyday. Later on, she kept on wondering what I was writing about.
"Can I read whatever is it that you're writing?" she asked.
"I'm afraid I can't let you ..." I said, not looking up as I scribbled continuously.
"Well-- why not? I don't think you should be shy about it--" she insisted.
"It's a kind of journal," I lied. "Like a diary--"
"You're writing entries to your diary even if the day is not yet through?"
"I--" Aish. That didn't work. I looked up at her, smiling. "Okay, I'll stop it for a while. You want to eat something?"
"Ice cream! And then, let's take selcas!"
"Sure!"
She's nowhere near Minhee but the thing is, she made me smile a lot lately with her witty jokes and ridiculous ideas for something to do. I left my novel for a while as I spend time with Insa. I just found ourselves one day, holding each other's hand and exchanging sweet nonsense.
If it's not you then it can't be
Now that I've realized this, I'm so miserable
The pictures make it seem as if I'm still your love
Your body heat, your face
I can still feel them deep in my heart
Still I have romantic in my heart
I want to go back
I spent another day with Insa and I went home, tired. My smiles when I was with her was slowly fading from my lips. The happiness I felt just earlier was like fireworks drenched by rain. I lay down in bed with my eyes closed and my arms spread out on either side of me.
"OUCH!" I gasped as my left hand hit something hard. I turned to the place where I hit my hand and saw an enormous box covered with dust.
Minhee's box.
I haven't opened it for a long time. Sitting up, I took the box and placed it on my lap. Slowly, I removed the lid and rumaged inside it. My letters to her were in it, complete from the very first up to the last. There was also her pair of the couple shirt we bought and the stuff toys I have given her. She did a good job in keeping all of it, only to return everything when she left.
I searched through it further until I found photographs -- our selcas together. Our frozen smiles in this pictures didn't fade and they never knew what happened to the persons they represent. I wish Minhee and I would stay this way -- always happy and together.
Although I have Insa in my life now, I couldn't help but still think of Minhee.
A little voice inside my heart shouts out for her name, screaming the feelings of love still left only for her.
For so many days I had all of you
Why is it now (baby why)
Is it (tell me why) that I can't seem to find you?
"Minho Oppa!" she said when she answered my call.
"Are you busy today?"
"No. Why?"
"Would you like to go out with me today?" I asked her. I don't know why I was still asking her out when I know that I still love Minhee more than her. Maybe I was trying to save our one year relationship? Ot maybe because I was too coward to tell her how I truly feel?
"Sure!" she squealed excitedly.
"Uh, okay. I'll be there at your studio in ten minutes," I said, my insides squirming with guilt.
Ten minutes later, we were walking together on our way to the bus stop.
"Where are we going?" she asked, her eyes twinkling expectantly.
"Some place I really like."
The bus arrived and we sat side by side, her head resting on my shoulder. I sighed deeply. Minhee used to rest her head on my shoulder too and having Insa here doing the same thing made me realize the big difference. As long as I'm with her, I only miss Minhee even more.
I'm so scared
That in the places where our memories are deeply embedded
That I'll see you there meeting the perfect man
I'm really afraid
We arrived at the Seoul Grand Park, the sun shining high and bright above us. We rode a shuttle bus to the tiger path, looking out the windows.
"This place really is beautiful! Look at those cute tiger cubs!" she said happily. "And those bears!"
I never really liked animals. I only went here because Minhee loves this place so much. By chance, I might see her here. Even just a glimpse ...
"Let's buy hats like theirs!" Insa pointed to a couple four seats away, wearing lion and badger hats.
"Er-- yeah, later--" I said but stopped suddenly. The girl who was wearing the lion hat could never be more than familiar to me--
"Minhee?" I stood up and Insa grabbed my arm.
"You know her?"
"Yes," I answered faintly. Finally, I saw her again. But the thing is, she was already with someone else.
I believed that I would be able to love another
the pain of you branded in my heart is killing me
What should I do?
When the shuttle bus finally reached its last stop, I jumped out of the bus to chase after Minhee but it was almost impossible because of the crowd. I had totally forgotten that Insa was with me until she tugged hard at my jacket.
"CHOI MINHO!"
People looked around at her warily but she didn't care. She was looking daggers at me and I have never seen her like this before.
"What's happening to you? Who's that girl?" she growled.
"She-- ah-- long story--" I replied, panicking. I need to catch up with her but Insa was holding me back.
"Then maybe you should start now," she said irritably. "I understand it that you know her -- Minhee, right? -- But why are you suddenly acting like this!" She was already screaming and other tourists were edging away from the pair of us.
I never mentioned Minhee to her. Even the novel I was working on was a secret to her. This time, I guess I had to reveal everything to her.
If it's not you then it can't be
Now that I've realized this, I'm so miserable
The pictures make it seem as if I'm still your love
Your body heat, your face
I can still feel them deep in my heart
Still I have romantic in my heart
I want to go back
She merely listened to my narration, rolling her eyes every now and then.
When I finished, she said, "So you're saying that you still love her, is that correct?"
I closed my eyes, took a deep breath, and nodded.
"Fine," Insa said, tears forming in her eyes. "Fine," she repeated, backing away from me. "Go look for her now and--" she sniffed. "You guys have a happy ending--"
"Didn't you see? She is already with someone else--"
"Now, don't use me as a cover up for her absence! I'm not a puppet!" she said angrily. "Good bye, Choi Minho," she said finally, storming away.
I watched her go and I wasn't surprise to realize that I wasn't hurt at all. I ran, not after Insa, but after Minhee.
I'm exhausted
Left alone, I wander
Searching for love left in the empty space you left behind
Please look at me
The one similar to you, look at me
This ordeal is too much for me
There were many visitor of the park today and I remembered it was Sunday so naturally, people would go out and enjoy their weekends. I have darted here and there, searching for Minhee but I couldn't find her. This city zoo was not called "Seoul Grand Park" for nothing -- it was definitely grand. It was almost impossible to easily locate someone here.
I saw a bench nearby and I sat on it, breathing hard after all the running I have done. Maybe I'll have to wait for a long time before I could see her again? At first, I only want to have a glimpse of her but now that I saw her, I can't stop myself from wanting to talk to her and ask her about many things.
Losing hope, I stood up and walked towards the main gate, my shoulders sagged. Without really paying attention to where I was going until I bumped into someone. Looking up, my heart fluttered when I realized who it was.
"Minhee!"
"M-Minho?"
"Minhee! Finally-- " I don't know where to begin. There are so many things I wanted to tell her and ask her, like how has she been after all this time and let her know that I want her to be the very first person to read my novel. Indeed, the earth was round -- we met again.
It so much worse than simply waiting
I've become so similar to you
I even copied your habits
There's more of you inside me than myself
I attempted to pull her into a tight embrace but she took one step backwards. "No, Minho."
"I'm sorry. I still love you, Minhee. Please give me another chance--" I said without further ado. "I tried to move on, I even entered into another relationship but it didn't work out because I still love you--"
"Stop it."
"You mean a lot to me, give me another chance."
"You saw us earlier. I'm so much better now so please, just stop."
"I remember how you really like this place and how addicted you are to strawberry ice cream," I went on, not listening to her. I spoke like a crazy guy. "We used to buy them whenever we visit this place long ago, right? And you know what, I'm trying to write a novel. Guess who the main character is -- it's you, of course! I want you to be the first person to read it. I think I have described you there perfectly, don't worry--"
"Stop, Minho, please," she said firmly.
I wanna be, wanna be your man
"I've waited for you," I said seriously. "I've waited for this day to happen and finally it's happening. I don't want to see you go again."
"But I must," she said, her eyes watery. She glanced sideways to the right and I followed her gaze.
Let's go back to the way things were
I was born to be a man that loves you
I won't hurt you ever again
Can I go?
I wanna be
(I won't let you)
Be your man
Her new boyfriend appeared, bearing two strawberry ice creams.
"Why, Minhee?" he asked her quietly.
"It's nothing, Taemin--"
"Is he bothering you? YAH!" He raised his voice at me. "Who are you? Why are you bothering Minhee? Wait ..." he said, his brows furrowed. "Aren't you that guy on the shuttle bus earlier?" He turned to look at her. "He's the one you told me about?"
"Y-yeah-- but he's leaving now. We have nothing to talk about."
I watched her helplessly, wanting to reach out to her.
"Please," she added, and in her tone, there was something different. It was full of unexplainable emotions, like she was extremely hurt inside.
Slowly, I backed away and turned around with my head bowed. I cannot hurt her like that. I'd rather be the one to feel miserable, not her. She doesn't love me anymore.
If it's not you then it can't be
Now that I've realized this, I'm so miserable
The pictures make it seem as if I'm still your love
Your body heat, your face
I can still feel them deep in my heart
Still I have romantic in my heart
I want to go back
I got home, my hands inching towards her box again. I opened it once more and put our memories together around me.
I want to go back. When she left me, I should have run after her. I should have refused to let go of her hand. I should not have accepted this box at all. All these regrets came crashing through.
Then I remembered my unfinished novel. I have left it when Insa and I started going out. Now, it's the time to return to it and finish everything. Every feelings still left inside me, they will be the contents of this story.
If it's not you then it can't be
Now that I've realized this, I'm so miserable
The pictures make it seem as if I'm still your love
Your body heat, your face
I can still feel them deep in my heart
Still I have romantic in my heart
I want to go back
Jero waited by their favorite place, hoping Angel would come and they would make up. He closed his eyes and felt the night breeze. He stayed like that for minutes. When he opened them, Angel was there, smiling at him. He thought he was dreaming but her kiss made him realize everthing was true. Angel was back and he was complete again.
I closed my notebook with my pen in between its pages. My novel was finished. Laying it down beside me on this bench, I stretched my arms and neck, feeling tired. I've been sitting here all day long, in this park beside the wide sea. Now, it's sunset again and I can no longer properly see the words I had been writing.
Leaving only scars that will never heal
Leaving me as my tattered self
I'm really miserable
What should I do? What should I do?
I decided to stay here for a bit. I watched the sun sink lower and lower on the horizon until it was completely dark and the streetlights were . The light breeze caressed my face as I closed my eyes. I wish all that I had written at the ending of my novel would come true, that I would open my eyes and see her standing in front of me. But when I did so, no Minhee stood in front of me.
Sighing heavily, I got up and walked nearer to the seawall. I leaned against the bars and looked far away, thinking of Minhee.
Then, a shadow stood beside me.
Honestly now I can still feel them deep in my heart
Still I have romantic in my heart
I want to go back
I turned to the owner of the shadow.
Minhee.
"M-Minhee?" I stammered. I was too full of mixed emotions.
"Yes, Minho. I broke up with Taemin because I realized that i still love you--"
I didn't wait for her to end whatever she would say. Hearing her say that she still loves me is enough. I embraced her tight, grasping the reality that Minhee indeed is back.
When the hug broke, I pulled her towards the park bench where the notebook was. I opened it for her. "This is the novel I did for you," I told her. Finally, she could read the novel, our story.
EmanneArdeeSy imnida! XD
Yay~ I'm sorry for my very late update. *TAEMINishi's been badgering me about it actually :P*
I over-enjoyed the beginning of the holidays here at home and writer's block attacked me terribly! But anyways, here it is and I hope you all like it.
I borrowed Yoon Insa and Oh Jero from the Pianist, I think you noticed that. And there's Taemin as well! Just a cameo role, though.
Any comments? Suggestions? Violent reactions? Let us know!
-- EASy ♥
PS:
Angel is Minho's codename for Minhee in his novel.
Jero is Minho, of course.
Just clearing things out~
BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY
DUBU LEADER LEE ONEW
Saranghamnida~ ♥
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