Hyun was sitting at the edge of the bed singing the song beautifully yet painfully. Her tears were flowing as she sang the song. She caressed my face as she sang the ending.

♪geudaeman gidarilgeyo ~~ apado useumi nayo ~~ useodo nunmuri nayo ~~ geudaeui gieogi meomuneun ~~ geugose na isseoyo (translation: I will only be waiting for you, I smile even if it hurts, tears flow even if I smile, I am at the place where your memory remains)♪

As soon as she finished, she kissed my forehead and said goodbye. Her tears still flowing and she left the room without looking back.

“Hyun!!!”

I woke up from my sleep and walked out of the bedroom to look for Hyun. But to no avail, the house was empty. I was alone the whole time. It was just a dream. But it feels so real; I can feel still feel the warmth of Hyun’s kiss on my forehead. I walked back into the bedroom just to hear the alarm goes off. Might as well take my shower and get ready, since I’m already awake. I need to cool my head off anyway.

I opened the fridge to see what I could eat for breakfast. Surprised as I saw the fridge was full of pack foods with post-it notes on it.

Oppa, if you’re hungry I already prepared food for you for the whole week I’ll be gone. You just need to heat whatever you want. All of it is your favorite. Make sure you eat okay oppa.

Oppa, I have already cut different fruits for you in case you get hungry in the middle of the night. You can also use it to make juice, since I couldn’t make it for you.

How come I didn't realize any of this when I took the beers two nights ago. I guess I already know what to take, so I wasn’t attentive. Hyun had already labeled each container. She even packed some lunch box so that I don’t have to eat out. Why did Hyun do all this despite how I’m treating her? She was crying when she left, yet she still prepared all this before leaving the house. What is she trying to do? The more I do not want to think about her, the more she just appears everywhere. Hyoyeon yah I thought this would help me to think about my feelings but I couldn’t even think about myself and Hyun is always in my mind. How can I know my feelings? Seo Joo Hyun, you are not making it easy!

“You’re awake early Hyunnie ah.”

“I was having morning sickness and couldn’t sleep anymore. So I cooked breakfast. It’s almost done unnie, wait for awhile okay.”

“Aigoo, uri maknae, such a diligent and hardworking wife.”

“Unnie, I’m always diligent and hardworking in everything,” we both laughed at my statement as I served the food on the table.

“You are right. You are our hardworking, determined maknae. You really are, but now you have channeled it differently. From singing, dancing, acting into a great wife.”

“Of course unnie. I need to repay oppa for all that his done for me throughout the years we dated until we are married. He supported me in all the things that I’ve done, it is a given for me to give back now that we are no longer in the entertainment biz.”

“But maybe, do you have thoughts to continue again? Maybe slowly or something simple like me. I coached the trainees in dancing and choreographed the dance for our hoobaes.”

“Most probably unnie, I never thought of stopping as a whole. And after our session yesterday, I know for sure that I will still pursue it, one way or another. But just not yet. For now, I just want to focus on my family, oppa and this little one of mine,” I said as I rubbed my stomach. That was what I was thinking of after we went back last night. My family is still the utmost important but I still love to touch people’s heart with my singing. Maybe I can further my musical career or make a solo album. Whichever it is, I still want to focus on oppa first. I want oppa to understand that. I just want to repay him for being beside me all this while. Also I already came up with a few ideas to take oppa’s heart again. I was really touched with unnie’s plan in bringing me back to the past, it is like I have been going through a time machine and it made me realized things that I miss which I shouldn’t let go.

“Unnie. You know that I don’t like mildang right. But just to get oppa back, should I do a little mildang?”

“Interesting. What do you have in mind Seohyun ah?”

I discussed my plan with unnie, which unnie strongly agreed and accept wholeheartedly her position in the plan. Since I cannot do it alone, I need some help and I’m glad that unnie is in. I still need to recruit more helpers in the plan though. So as we had breakfast, we continued to discuss on how to make the plan worked successfully. Yong oppa wait for me!

I ended up eating what Hyun cooked. Well, she already made it for me, so why waste. I forgot how good it tastes. Serves me right for ignoring all the food she cooked for me every day. She worked hard in cooking all of it and all I did was get annoyed and scolded her. Babo Jung Yong Hwa. I ate it deliciously, and I was humming a tune. Must be from the good food. I continued humming, then stopped. I hummed again and was thinking what song am I humming. I continued humming as I looked for my guitar. As soon as I get my guitar, I tried playing the tune. It sounded familiar yet it is new. Then it hit me, Hyun’s food gave me a new song. I quickly wrote it down and put some lyrics that came along with it. I put the dishes into the sink and quickly left for the studio.

“Boys, I just got us a new song. Let’s try it and see how it sound.” The boys just looked at me surprised but took the music sheets and got ready to play the song.

♪♪♪

“Hyung, this song is also good. And the lyrics you sang  were great. We know you will manage to find a way through your heart,” said Jungshin after we played it once. I didn’t know what he was talking about, yes I had a rough idea of the lyrics but it doesn’t make any sense yet.

“Yeah hyung, I agree with Jungshin. The lyrics are great. Of course we can work to make it better. But we understand your feelings through the song. You were thinking about Seohyun right when you came up with the song,” said Minhyuk with his eye-smile.

“What are you guys talking about? What find my way through my heart, what feelings?” I said as I tuned my guitar to practice again.

“Hyung! You said that despite pushing her away, you felt empty. Even if you no longer feel irritated, yet you feel like something is missing. You somehow keep seeing her even from afar, and you wish she were closer. You think she is back to how you want her to be. But you are still not sure of your feeling. That’s the feeling you’re giving right. That is roughly what you sang. Even though you are still confused, but you are opening up again to Seohyun. So it is a good thing. I’m glad hyung, I know Korea’s model husband won’t let us down,” said Jonghyun while hugging me. Does the song come out that way? I didn’t even realize. I was just trying to play the tune in my head. They all look happier than yesterday. What about me? Is that really my feeling? I miss Hyun? I did dreamt about her and I didn't want her to leave. It hurt me to see Hyun that way. But I’m still trying to figure it out, what made me this way.

“Whatever boys. Lets try it again,” I said and ignored the sudden warmth in my heart.

“Jonghyun oppa, Minhyukkie, Jungshin chingoo, over here!” I called them as they entered the restaurant. I texted them because I definitely need my brother-in-laws in my plan, since they will be with oppa most of the time.

“Annyeong Seohyun, Hyoyeon noona. What is the important thing that you want to talk about?” said Jonghyun oppa as they sat down.

“Let’s order first. I’m sure you are hungry. How was the practice? Is Yong oppa doing well?”

“The practice is great. Turns out hyung manage to write two new songs,” said Jungshin chingoo and I felt a thump in my heart. I was gone and he managed to write two songs. Did I distract him so badly because as far as I remember he struggled to write new songs this past few weeks. “The songs are really good. Jung Yong Hwa did it again. It is more of a story I would say. Can’t wait for what he would come up next,” Jungshin chingoo continued.

“Don’t worry Seohyun. You are still his muse and inspiration even though he didn’t want to admit it yet. And hyung is still pretty grumpy but he’s warming up. We could feel it,” Minhyuk added. I guess he realized that my facial got tense and he was trying to cheer me up. Well I’m glad if I’m truly still his muse.

“Wait. You guys knew about me and oppa already?”

“Yeah kind of. Hyung told us briefly but we could guess. We also knew that you are staying at Hyoyeon noona’s house for the time being,” answered Jonghyun oppa. So they already knew something was wrong. Well easier for me to explain the plan to them then.

“I see. Well oppa is just going through a weird phase and I’m not letting it disrupt our family. So Hyoyeon unnie and I had devised a plan to tackle oppa again. Mission to make oppa fall in love with me again, and so that he no longer feels whatever he is feeling. I need my lovely brother-in-laws in the plan to help me out. Is that alright?”

“Definitely Seohyun ah. I am down in making hyung pay for whatever he is going through,” said Jungshin chingoo and both Jonghyun oppa and Minhyuk also agreed to help.

“Thank you so much. Really thank you. Let’s do our best to make oppa be choding and happy again.”

“Of course Seohyunnie. Don’t worry about it,” said Jonghyun oppa.

“Alright, since that is settled. Here is the plan,” said Hyoyeon unnie and we explained the plan to my brother-in-laws, who listened attentively.

I was walking down Insadong street. I just thought of clearing my head while walking surrounded by people. Of course, I disguised myself enough not to let anyone interrupt me and my thoughts. So how did all of this start again. So after the end of We Got Married, we continued to be good friends at first. If I had my way, I would definitely asked her out at that moment, but I know that both of us wanted to focus on our career first, especially Hyun. We stayed good friends, supported each other in every thing that we did. It was two years later, I finally asked her out and what a relieved when she said yes. During the years we dated, Hyun really don’t want our relationship to be revealed, so we went through a lot to be ninja couples. We fought here and there, but we always found ways to go through it and we got stronger. I love her more and more. She became a greater woman, fulfilled her dreams one by one. Together we achieved our dreams throughout the years. The only one dream left for me was to marry her; and after all we went through and the achievements we had, I took the courage to propose last year and she said yes. I was the happiest man alive at that moment. We decided a date and told the world about it. We were glad that people were happy and gave us support. What surprised us was YongSeo fans are still strong and believe in us throughout the years. We received a lot of congratulations and gifts from fans all over the world. Then two months later, we got married. The ceremony was great and fun. The life after that was so much better. I was never shy to show my affection for Hyun, that’s why I got the title Korea’s Model Husband.

Then after a few weeks we got married, Girl’s Generation decided not to continue their contract. They all discussed it together and decided to go their separate ways. SM understood their reasons and agreed to let them go. Their contract finally ended a few months later, which is like a few weeks ago, and they had a big farewell party along with their fans. It was all good still. Even the few days Hyun was at home, I never felt happier to see my buin’s face at home every time I came back from work. She cooked every meal and it was great. But one day, suddenly when I looked at Hyun, I felt like something was missing. All she did was house chores but never once she burdened me with anything. She looked really happy though staying home but I still felt like something was amiss. Hyun is a driven woman who worked hard to achieve her dream and goals, but now that she is no longer in the entertainment biz, she had nothing to be driven about. I don't like that. I tried asking her if she felt bored staying at home, but she always said that she is very happy with her life now, devoting her life for me. I should be glad and happy right, well I was for a little a bit but I don't want to take what she loves away from her. From just talking it turned into bickering and then turned into me feeling annoyed seeing her at home all the time. That’s why I always went home late and refused to eat her cooking. Yet after all I shouted at her, she still did what she thought is right, like cooking for her husband, waited for her husband. It was just me who didn't appreciate it because I was annoyed at her for not listening to me. I don’t want her to let go of what she loves.

As I was walking and thinking about this, I suddenly saw a familiar pink at the corner of my eyes. I turned to look at it. It was a scarf. A pink scarf. Unintentionally, I walked towards the girl wearing it. I was trying to take a better look of the scarf because it looked really familiar. The color is the same, and the scarf looks long. Just like the scarf that Hyun made for me, which I lost years ago. I just need to see the front, to see the initial to confirm it.

“Excuse me.” I said as I caught up with the girl.

“Yes. Omo omo omo! Jung Yong Hwa!” she shouted. I thought I disguised myself enough.

“Shh. Yes it’s me. Please keep it a secret.” She nodded and was all smile.

“Can I take a look at your scarf? Because it seems familiar.” She was cooperative and took off the scarf and gave it to me. As I took it in my hand, there I saw the Y.S initial. This is the scarf. I know it anywhere. I asked the girl, “Can I know where you got this scarf?”

“It was a gift from a friend when she visited Japan. Why? Hold on, oppa said it was familiar. No way. Is this the scarf that Seohyun unnie knitted for you?”

“Well it is. I know it anywhere. Even though I lost it years ago. I would remember it. And this initial confirms it.”

“I thought of it before. But my friend said she bought it so I didn't think further.”

“I know it is a gift from a friend but is it alright if I take it from you. This is my wife’s handmade gift for me.”

“Of course oppa. Of course I definitely understand that.”

“Thank you so much. Is there anything that I can do to repay you?”

“Well maybe can we take a picture together? So that I can explain to my friend and have proof.”

“Yes of course. Definitely.” So we took a picture and I gave her my signature. Both for her and her friend.

“Thank you so much again.”

“No, thank you oppa. And thank you for the signature too. I’ll be going now.”

She left and I just stood there for awhile, hugging the scarf. Hyun would be really happy when she sees this scarf again. I couldn’t believe it myself that the scarf came back to us after all these years. I suddenly remembered our first back hug when Hyun keep on saying that she’s cold. I was really choding at the time. Why did I guess it right? I laughed as I remember it again. She was doing her best to thank me. That is how Hyun is. I hugged the scarf tighter and knew that I was just being childish again. Hyun really did her best to be a good wife, yet I don't appreciate it. Yes I still do love her and I won't leave her. It was immature of me to feel annoyed with my precious buin. Well I guessed I figured my heart out and what Hyun is to me. Now how should I bring Hyun back?

I think I should just return home first and think about it tomorrow. Just as I was about to leave, I realized where I was standing. In front of me was Miss Lee café. Is this for real? I found back the scarf and now I’m standing in front of Miss Lee café. I looked around for cameras, just as instinct. I thought I was pranked or something but it’s not. I just happened to reach here as I chased the girl. Hyun ah, were you wishing that this would happen to make me realize that I was in the wrong? Well if you did, you are successful. I’m sorry Hyun. 

I finally managed writing this. I'm sorry if I took a long time but I will try to update it weekly. If I could finish it faster, then it will be updated sooner. Since I'm working on the weekdays and I can only write at night bits and pieces. Anyway, how do you find this chapter? I couldn't explain the plan because it is a surprise. You will know in the next chapters. Don't worry. Yonghwa finally realized his feelings thanks to the appearance of the lost scarf. haha. Well thank you again for reading. I really appreciate it. Do subscribe and leave a comment. Til next time.

PS: I am trying to make a cover photo for this story. I had some ideas, but it would be great if you guys suggested some ideas too.