Unfaithful- Rihanna

Have you ever felt so in love that you just thought this is the one? I have finally found them. I was like that five years ago but who knew time could be so cruel and let this feeling subside. It's like a fever well a good fever where you don't have to go to school but then that fever eventually disappears. 7 billion people in the world, what's the chance that the one in front of me is actually for me? I still care about her deeply but I won't lie I think the spark is gone and my love for her went out like a flame. She know it too. I know she know it. 

We were watching a movie in the living room when my cellphone suddenly went off. I looked at the caller ID then looked at Amber who was still engrossed in the movie. 

"It's Jessica. I'm just going to take this in the bedroom." She nodded and I walked into the bedroom in haste.

"Hello, oppa? What? Dinner?....tonight?..... I'm not sure if I can.....fine see you in an hour okay I missed you too." 

I walked out and Amber turned her head to me. "Hey babe, I was thinking takeout tonight?" She looked at me like she already knew what my answer was but was still anticipating it. "I can't tonight. Going somewhere with my sister." She nodded again and turned away in silence. I could see the disappointment in her eyes before she turned back to the movie. 

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
'Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I finished getting ready and went out to bid her goodbye. "I'm going to be back late and if I'm not next to you in the morning. I probably ended up sleeping over at Jessica's. Don't wait up for me. Love you." She knew what was going to happen and heard this excuse from me countless of times. I knew she could just call Yuri and find out if I was really at my sister's but she never did. She embraced me and held me tightly with her face buried in my neck. "Could we please just stay like this a little longer?" I nodded to her request. It's moments like this where I think she really knows what's going on. Although I told her not to wait up, I know she will try until she falls asleep. Those eye-bags are evidence of tears and little sleep. I couldn't take it any longer. I needed to breathe. "Amber, please let go...don't worry I'll be back." She lifted