The next day, Yoseob woke up to the smell of scrambled eggs and toast. He yawned and stretched before opening his eyes and looking to his left. He had expected to see Doojoon in the bunk beside him. But, as far as Yoseob could see, Doojoon wasn’t there. He wasn’t sure why, but not seeing Doojoon next to him made him feel sort of disappointed.
 

Sighing, Yoseob to his back and stared at the ceiling.

With Doojoon still on his mind, he couldn’t help but remember yester day and how he had woken up from his nap in the older boy’s arms. Although at the time, he didn’t know Doojoon was so close to him. The memory went sort of like this:

Doojoon had softly whispered Yoseob’s name, telling him to wake up. But Yoseob didn’t want to get up. He was comfortable and the blanket was nice and warm. Although, as it turned out, the blanket had actually been Doojoon, and Yoseob had actually been snuggling into the older’s shirt. He remembered how he had quickly pulled away, and how his face had heated up with embarrassment. He remembered the warm chuckle Doojoon had let out as he told him it was alright and explained what happened, and afterwards ruffling his hair, before he excused himself to the bathroom out of embarrassment.

He probably would’ve gone on remembering the rest of the day if the aroma of scrambled eggs didn’t reach his nose again, ‘causing Yoseob to notice how hungry he really was. As he climbed down from his bunk bed, he realized that he was the only one left in the bedroom. There was a flash of hope in Yoseob’s mind, Maybe Doojoon’s eating breakfast.

When the pseudo maknae arrived at the kitchen, he saw a plate of steaming scrambled eggs and buttered toast on the counter and Junhyung placing a frying pan in the sink.

Yoseob yawned and Junhyung turned around to see his newly awakened band member.

The rapper smiled as he the sink, “Morning, Yoseob. Your breakfast is on the counter there,” he nodded to the plate of eggs and toast.

Yoseob smiled back and picked up the plate of food, “Thanks.”

“Yeah, no problem,” Junhyung replied as he rinsed off the pan and washed his hands.

“Where’s Doojoon and everybody else?” the vocalist asked before stuffing a bite of egg into his mouth.

Junhyung dried off his hands with a nearby towel as he replied, “Oh, Kikwang is around here somewhere, although, who knows what he’s doing. He and I have the day off to look after you, by the way. But Doojoon left early this morning to do some filming. He’s in a drama called More Charming by the Day. Then Dongwoon and Hyunseung are probably on their way to the company building right now to meet up with Prepix and practice our new choreography.”

Yoseob took a bite out of his toast before asking, “Who’s Prepix?”

For a second, Junhyung’s eyes flashed with confusion, but it quickly disappeared as he remembered the younger boy’s amnesia. “Oh, right. You don’t remember do you. He’s our choreographer,” he replied as he walked over next to Yoseob and leaned his body comfortably against the counter. “He’s been our choreographer since we released our last album – Shock of the New Era.”

“How long ago was that?” Yoseob mumbled around a mouth full of scrambled eggs.

“Umm…” the older paused for a moment to calculate. Yoseob munched on his toast. “I’d say…about five or six months ago I think. Huh, time sure goes fast…It seems like it’s been longer than that. Guess that’s what happens when you become idols.”

Yoseob nodded then muttered something. But because Yoseob had stuffed the last of his toast into his mouth, Junhyung couldn’t understand him.

“Don’t talk with your mouth so full. I can’t understand what you say when you do that,” Junhyung scolded. “Chew your food, swallow, then say that again.”

Yoseob nodded and did as he was told before attempting to speak again. When he finally swallowed his food, he asked, “So where’s Kikwang?”

Junhyung glanced around before shrugging, “I honestly don—”

“Here I am!!” A cheery voice rang, interrupting Junhyung’s reply.

It was none other than Lee Kikwang. He had a huge smile on his face as he walked into kitchen; his laptop held securely in his arms.

“Good morning Yoseobie,” Kikwang greeted happily. “Having a good breakfast?”

Yoseob simply nodded, not wanting to talk through his scrambled egg-filled mouth.

“That’s good,” Kikwang flashed a cute eye-smile. “Junhyung always makes yummy eggs.”

“I’m glad you enjoy my cooking,” Junhyung spoke up, “But I doubt that’s why you’re here in the kitchen with your laptop. What’ve you been up to?"

“Oh not a lot,” Kikwang replied casually. “I’ve just been looking at our music videos and videos of our performances. I was thinking we could show them to Yoseob later. Maybe he’ll remember them after he sees them – Or, at least just the songs, if nothing else.”

Junhyung nodded, “It’s worth a shot.” Turning to Yoseob, he asked, “Do you remember any of our songs?”

Yoseob set his now empty plate on the counter and took a moment to think. “Ummm….Maybe…If I hear them I might remember.”

“C’mon, let’s go sit in the living room.” Kikwang said as he made his way to the said room. “It’ll be more comfortable to sit down.”

Yoseob followed Kikwang into the living room, curious to find out more about himself.

Junhyung placed Yoseob’s plate in the sink, before following the younger two into the other room.

Kikwang settled himself on the living room floor and patted the space next to him, indicating for Yoseob to sit down next to him. The brunet did as he was bid and Kikwang opened up his laptop. There was a video up on the screen.

“I’ll show you the music video for Shock, the title song of our second album, first.” Kikwang said as Junhyung settle himself on Kikwang’s other side. “It starts out with you.”

Kikwang played the video.

It started out with few clips of some techy-looking things, but then Yoseob saw himself. He had lighter brown hair and was lying on some sort of lit-up table being…attacked by power cords?

“Why are there—” He started to ask. But Kikwang shushed him.

“Just watch.”

Without another word, Yoseob turned back to the computer screen and did as he was told. He watched.

He watched as Junhyung sang the intro, Doojoon and Dongwoon sang the first verse, and Hyunseung and Kikwang sang the pre-chorus.

When the chorus came Kikwang grinned eagerly. “Look! Look! It’s you!” He pointed at the screen excitedly.

When Yoseob saw himself singing, he couldn’t stop staring. He couldn’t believe it. He was in a music video, an actual music video, with effects and everything. He also couldn’t believe that he looked so …so…well to be honest, hot. But his disbelief didn’t last long. As he watched himself move on the screen Yoseob felt something in his head working. Something was trying to be remembered. He could feel it.

Kikwang noticed, that, even after the chorus ended and Junhyung had started rapping, Yoseob couldn’t stop watching, and the raven haired boy grinned even wider. He turned to Junhyung, “Do you think he could be remembering something??”

The rapper shrugged, “Who knows.” He looked over at the brunet on Kikwang’s other side.

Yoseob looked like he was staring at the computer screen with a large amount of concentration. His eyes looked straight ahead without blinking, his eye brows were tightly scrunched up, and his mouth had a slight frown. But Junhyung got the feeling that his focus wasn’t on what was happening on the screen, but what was happening in his mind.

Junhyung couldn’t help but wonder what Yoseob was going through at that moment. What did it feel like to regain a memory? A memory that your brain thought was lost. Was it frustrating? Did it hurt?  Did you have to actually look for the memory? Or did it just come? These sorts of questions swam around in Junhyung’s head, causing the older worry about the band’s pseudo maknae. And although he knew he really couldn’t do anything about it, he hoped that whatever Yoseob had to go through, it wasn’t harmful.

Turning his gaze away from the brunet, and back to the music video, Junhyung couldn’t help but notice that Hyunseung was on the screen, singing his part of the bridge. The video – or should I say Hyunseung – now had Junhyung’s full attention. The rapper had always had a soft spot for the dancer; although he would never admit it. And if you were to ask him about it, he would play dumb and claim he had know idea what you were talking about. Soon the bridge ended and the chorus came up again.

As the chorus played, Yoseob started to come back to reality, and he began to recognize the song. He was able to pick up a few words here and there, and he realized he could hum out some of the tune. But all too soon, the music video ended, and before Kikwang could even take in a breath, Yoseob demanded the younger to play the video again.

“Play it again; I think…I think I remember it.”

Kikwang did as he was commanded and replayed the music video.

Yoseob closed his eyes to concentrate and remember more of the song.

Both Junhyung and Kikwang watched their friend closely.

As the song played, Yoseob urged his brain to remember more – more of the lyrics, the tune, Anything!

He closed his eyes tighter and focused on the music.

There was a short flash in his mind. He saw fire and a smile; heard an explosion and “Every day I shock; Every night I shock…”  But only darkness afterwards. No lyrics appeared in his mind either.

He kept his eyes closed till the end of the song, but still nothing else came. Slowly he opened his eyes, then turned to his left, where Kikwang and Junhyung were anticipating his words.

Kikwang was the first to ask. “Well…Do you remember?”

Yoseob shook his head with a frown, “No…I couldn’t remember anything else. All I got was a fire, the sound of an explosion, a smile, and heard ‘Every day I shock; Every night I shock’ but that’s it.”

Kikwang comfortingly patted his friend’s back, “That’s okay; we don’t expect you to remember everything all at once. Just take your time. No need to rush.”

“On the bright side, at least you remembered something,” Junhyung added.

“Yeah, I guess so…” Yoseob admitted.

“So, Kikwang,” Junhyung continued to speak, “What other videos did you plan on watching?”

Kikwang looked at his laptop and minimized the Shock music video, then, after clicking around, he opened a folder. “Well, I was thinking about showing him some clips of the Cube parties we’ve. That way, he could see some of our live performances and see some of the other Cube ‘family’ members.” He double clicked on one of the items in the folder, and a video window popped up; ready to be played.

“Wow Kikwang, you thought about this a lot, huh.” Junhyung sounded pretty astonished.

“Why do you sound so surprised? Do you really think I’m an air-head?” Kikwang scowled.

“At times – yes,” Junhyung replied blatantly.

“Junnieee,” Kikwang whined, “you’re so mean!”  He pouted, jutting out his bottom lip in an upset manner.

“Yah, stop whining and play the video already.” Junhyung nudged the younger with his elbow.

Kikwang huffed. “I’m telling on you to Hyunseungie,” he muttered as he clicked play.

The video started out with Gina singing I’ll Back Off So You Can Live Better.

As it played, Kikwang and Junhyung introduced the rookie artist. Telling the brunet everything they could in three minutes. From how she got to Cube, to the different rappers she’s featured in her debut song.

After Gina’s song finished the video faded out. When it faded back in, it was a different stage, and on that stage were five girls.

As the girls began to sing Junhyung introduced each member of 4Minute as they appeared on the screen, while Kikwang inserted a random fact/comment here and there. After their song ended and the clip faded out, Beast was on screen. In this particular clip, they’re performing Special. They watch this clip without much talking, since there isn’t too much to explain to Yoseob about their performances. It’s when Junhyung starts to rap when Yoseob says something.

“I don’t get it. Of all the colors you could dye your hair, why blonde?” he asked Junhyung, turning to the older man with a quizzical expression. 

The rapper chuckled, “It’s funny you should ask that. And I don’t really blame you, since I thought blonde was a weird color too, but I changed my mind after you dyed your hair blonde.”

Kikwang giggled at Yoseob’s shocked facial expression.

Junhyung continued, “Yeah, it’s true. You used to be a blonde.”

“You were even blonder than Junhyung. You were almost bleach blonde!” Kikwang added.

Yoseob shook his head in disbelief. “No. No way. There’s no way I would’ve dyed my hair blonde. Especially not bleach blonde.”

“But it’s true! And you looked really cute!” Kikwang insisted. “Watch, I can prove it to you. I have a few videos of our Bad Girl performances. I was going to show these to you later, since some of them have a lot of fanservice in them, but since you don’t believe you had blonde hair I’ll show them to you now.” Kikwang had exited out of their Special performance and had opened another video file.

“This is us performing our debut song Bad Girl,” Kikwang explained as the video began to play. “I look awesome, huh.”

Junhyung rolled his eyes, “Whatever Kwangie.” Ignoring the younger boy, Junhyung tapped on Yoseob’s shoulder and pointed to a figure on the laptop screen. “Okay, see, look. That’s you, and you have blonde hair.”

Yoseob looked and almost couldn’t believe what he saw. It was him, and he was blonde. He was so shocked that he didn’t know what to say.

Junhyung chuckled at the younger’s reaction. “Surprised?”

Yoseob could only nod.

The rapper smirked, “But you gotta admit, you totally rocked the blonde hair. That’s part of the reason why you were given the cute label.”

Kikwang flashed a grin, “Yeah, but just wait. There’s more. Remember I told you there’s fanservice in these vids.”

Yoseob looked at Kikwang with a confused expression, “Fanservice? What’s that?”

Kikwang giggled, “You’ll see. You guys are so cute~” 

“Huh?”

Junhyug shook his head and smirked. “Just watch Seobie,” he reached behind Kikwang and patted Yoseob on the head.

Sighing, Yoseob stopped asking questions and watched the video.

On the screen, they were singing the pre-chorus when Kikwang turned to Yoseob excitedly. “Okay, you wanted to know what fanservice is right? Well watch this next part closely."

Not wanting to take his gaze off the computer, Yoseob just nodded.

In the video, Doojoon was finishing up his part of the chorus, and blonde-on-screen-Yoseob was starting his part. But instead of just going around Doojoon and singing his part like he did earlier, blonde-Yoseob got down on his knees to Doojoon as he sang his line. Then he got up to finished the chorus, while Doojoon went back to dance.

“And that Yoseob, is fanservice,” Kikwang concluded as the dance break started. But Yoseob wasn’t paying attention, and he had a spaced-out kind of look on his face. Kikwang waved a hand in front of the brunet’s face. “Helloooo, Yoseooobb?”

Junhyung pulled Kikwang’s hand away from Yoseob’s face. “Stop you idot. Maybe he’s trying to remember something.”

“Oh, yeah. Sorry.”

Junhyung rolled his eyes, “Babo.”

There was small flash in Yoseob’s mind. It was filled with blurry images of interaction between two people, but it wasn’t clear enough to tell what was going on. Then his mind went blank, and Yoseob came back to reality.

Yoseob blinked before saying something, “Play another video like that. Maybe if you play a different one I’ll remember more. I don’t know what the memory is, but…I think it has something to do with these performances.”

Kikwang nodded, “Okay. This one is a remix, and one of my favorites. You made all the girls scream with this one.” He smirked as he opened up another file.

The boys had been watching the video for about two minutes and Yoseob hadn’t gotten another flashback. The brunet was beginning to worry. It wasn’t until after the second chorus that Yoseob finally felt something working in the back of his mind. In the video, blonde-Yoseob had just gotten his cheeks pinched by Doojoon and was now singing the rest of the chorus. It was during that moment that Yoseob spaced out, and memories began to flood.

It was a montage of scenes. Yoseob being hugged, slapped, and hand shaken. Then he was laughing and smiling with somebody, or he was crying and being comforted by somebody. He saw tackle hugs, being hand fed by someone, lying on somebody’s lap while that somebody messed with his hair. Then he saw glitter, heard a bird noise, and an imitating voice. But it didn’t stop there, in fact, it didn’t seem like it would stop at all, and Yoseob was getting a terrible migrane.

Kikwang and Junhyung saw the brunet bring his hands to his head and hold it tightly while his face made pained expressions. This worried both the rapper and vocalist.

“Yoseob! Yoseob!” Kikwang shouted frantically, as he took hold of his friend. “Can you hear me??”

Yoseob groaned. “H-head ache…”

Junhyung was on the younger boy’s other side in a flash. “C’mon, you need some fresh air or something. The doctor said to keep you away from drugs. Kikwang help me stand him up.”

The muscular boy nodded and put Yoseob’s arm around his shoulder, while Junhyung did the same and they stood up. When Yoseob became upright he wobbled a little on his feet and clung onto Kikwang and Junhyung tighter.

“Don’t worry Seob, we gotcha.” Junhyung assured the smaller boy as the made their way outside onto the deck.

Kikwang rubbed his friend’s back comfortingly. “There you go buddy, just put one foot in front of the other. Take your time. No rush.”

When the three of them finally made it onto the deck, Kikwang held Yoseob steady while Junhyung told him to put his hands together and rest them on top of his head. “It’ll open up your lungs more and make it easier to breathe,” he’d said.

But Yoseob didn’t hear the rapper talking, his head hurt like hell and he wasn’t able to concentrate on anything but the pain in his head. The brunet had become unsteady and looked as if he was about to collapse, Juhyung and Kikwang quickly grabbed onto their friend and kept him from falling. Yoseob groaned again.

“It’s okay Seob, it’s okay.” Junhyung soothed while rubbing the younger’s back. “Just relax, and breathe. Breathe in, breathe out.”

Yoseob did as he was told and breathed. He opened his eyes (he didn’t realize he had them closed until now) and looked out at the horizon. The view looked so familiar. A part of him knew he’d seen it before, while the other part didn’t recognize it at all. Suddenly, another wave of memories attacked his mind. He clutched onto Junhyung tighter. In his mind he saw a hand pulling him close, sincere eyes and a worried expression.

His head hurt even more. His brain couldn’t take in anymore information. He felt dizzy and light headed, he could faintly hear somebody shout “Yoseob!” but he couldn’t answer. And before he knew it, everything went black.

-xXx-

A/N: Hi everybody. Sorry for the late update =( School and injuries got in the way. I sprained my wrist about two weeks ago and it's finally starting not to bug me. For the first week or so I wasn't able to to type I had hurt it so bad. But it's better now ^.^

Sorry if I worried you guys. =( But thanks for reading~! Comment too, it makes me feel happy ^^ <3

And I'm sorry again: No replies today =/ It's really late right now and I gotta get up early tomorrow. But just know that I appreciate all of you guys for reading~!! <333 *throws cookies, hugs, and BEAST plushies* =D