So now, here I am back to my original place and far from where my rightful place is *beside Lee Sungmin*. I am now back again to fangirling, watching fan cams of Super Junior and reading fan accounts. But I still can’t forget the feeling of being with Super Junior. To have a remembrance of that miraculous event, I decided to write a fanfic about that. Many readers of the fanfic dreamt of them being in the fanfic that I have written. Some even asked me if that really happened to me because every events was very detailed. None of them knew that I already experienced the same event written in the fanfic. I just don’t have the courage to tell them because they might not believe me and might cause Super Junior a controversy.

     After 3 months,

 *Super Junior’s Dorm*

     “So are you over that Lee Sunhi?” Kyuhyun suddenly asked Sungmin while he was lying in his bed. Sungmin was busy playing in the computer.

     “No, not yet~” Sungmin answered.

     “Hyung~ three months have passed already and you don’t even have any communication yet you still have feelings for that girl?”

     Sungmin didn’t answer.

     “Yah~ hyung, what’s wrong with you? Answer me!” Kyuhyun ordered.

     Instead of answering Kyuhyun, Sungmin stood up and walked out from the room. He continued walking out of the dorm.

     “Something’s really wrong with him. He’s love sick…” Kyuhyun thought while shaking his head from left to right.

     Sungmin continued to walk outside not knowing where he is going. He was still stunned by Kyuhyun’s question a while ago. ‘You still have feelings for that girl?’

     “Do I still have feelings for that girl? Am I really crazy? Even I don’t know what I must do. I’m getting confused. Lee Sunhi, what have you done to me?”

*Sunhi’s Place*

     I was currently eating when I accidentally bit my tongue. It really hurts so much. “Yah~ someone must be thinking of you” my friend suddenly said.

     “If that’s true then, who might be the one thinking of Sunhi?” my other friend asked.

     “Give me a number”

     “Hmm~ 19”

     “19… A,  B, C, D, E, F, G, H, I, J, K, L, M, N, O, P, Q, R, S… S? Maybe it’s Sungmin!” she suddenly guessed

     “Sungmin? Why would he think of me? Maybe he already forgotten our encounter in their last concert here *and in their dorm*” I told them.

     “Yah~ don’t be sad. You’ll meet Sungmin again.” she assured me.

     “I hope so. I really hope so.”

     6 months have already passed after my meeting with Lee Sungmin in Seoul and I have nothing to do but spazz about Super Junior and other KPOP groups. I fell in love with B2st and Kara. Other biases arose just like Yoseob and Dongwoon from B2st and Seungyeon and Jiyoung from Kara. That two KPOP groups caught my attention and I’m slowly being a B2uty and a Kamilia. I’m currently searching for facts about them when an article about Lee Sungmin suddenly popped out in my news feed.

“Lee Sungmin from the group Super Junior is dating someone from his agency.”

     After reading the article, tears slowly fell from my eyes. I can’t do anything. My eyes were still glued to the screen looking at a picture of Sungmin and the girl. “Yah~ why are you crying Lee Sunhi? It’s just a picture Sungmin didn’t even confirmed it yet. Don’t cry. You’re not even in the position to be this affected. You’ve only met Sungmin twice and you’ve already felt that he loves you already. Wake up! That girl from his agency must have been close to him that he decided to date her. But~ but, why am I hurting? Why? I don’t understand. ”

     2 days passed, but I still didn’t have the guts to surf the net. I’m still afraid that I might break down and cry again once I see the article again. I know it’s not confirmed but still it hurts. Every fan girl knows the feeling and I might not just be able to accept this fact.

    My friends visited me to console my broken heart and we decided to watch Exploration of the Human Body again for the 10^th time. For the whole time we we’re all laughing but I can’t still say that I am totally okay. I’ll just enjoy this moment with my friends, no Sungmin in my mind today. Must erase him forcefully…

*Super Junior’s Dorm*

     “Yah~ Sungmin, you’re dating her?” Eunhyuk asked Sungmin.

     “Hell no” Sungmin answered irritably.

     “Then, why is there an article like this? There’s even a picture of both of you.”

     “Sungmin would never ever date that girl because he is madly in love with someone!” Kyuhyun retorted.

     “In love with someone? Who? Tell us…” Donghae and Eunhyuk asked at the same time.

     “He’s not ready to answer yet. Let him discover his true feelings” Kyuhyun explained. “And would you please stop entering our room without permission! Yah~ both out you get out!” Kyuhyun ordered and dragged Eunhyuk and Donghae outside.

     “Thank you Kyu~” Sungmin said.

    “Yah~ it’s nothing. Just figure out your own feelings. It would be hard for her not knowing how you feel for her.”

     “Yeah~ I’ll think of it…”

     “Well, think faster. Maybe she’s hurting now because of that stupid article that someone made. Go to her and explain everything to her.”

     “As if I can do it…”

     “Hyung~ you can do it. You’re not a kid anymore. You know what you must do. You are just not following what your heart tells you to do.”

     Sungmin was shocked. He didn’t even know that this magnae would have such amazing solutions to his problem. He didn’t think that this guy could help him. He thought that Kyuhyun was of no help at all but he was wrong. Kyuhyun helped him a lot. Kyuhyun made him realized what his true feelings are.

     “Kyu~ you’re right… thank you so much for the help. I really appreciate it.” Sungmin said and hugged Kyuhyun. Kyuhyun broke from the hug and…

     “Yah~ my advices are not for free. You must buy me pork chops because I am really hungry.” Kyuhyun amusingly commanded Sungmin.

     “Oh~ that’s the main reason for this. But still, thank you Kyu~”