*This story is 3 years old and Idk what's gotten into me tonight, but for now I'll try. If there's any of you, that still reading/subs to this, I really appreciate that. And I apologize if this feels funny cos it's hard to fill the gap from the very last chap.*

*(The last chapter : Jiyong was unconcious and Seunghyun was there near his hospital bed - Seunghyun had realized about his feeling towards Jiyong and he doesn't want to mess it up)

Jiyong might actually never woke up, the doctor said. He went thru a lot of tests , x-ray etcetera and the doctor teams that had been taking care of Jiyong found out that eventhough his body is physically fine, but something is fishy - also his doctor said that even if he woke up, it'll be different, something will be off cos he knocked his head real hard when the accident happened - like he is physically fine but why does he isn't waking up??

That night  when Seunghyun stays there he felt that Jiyong was moving but when he look at his face, he's still sleeping, calm and peaceful. He looks beautiful like this. Seunghyun knew that Jiyong always look tired and he thought maybe Jiyong is taking quite some time to sleep, that's why he won't wake up - yet.

Seunghyun doesn't know how many days he'd been here, how much tears he'd shed, how many Jiyong's family member that he met, despite the tiredness he is still here, tonight, sitting near Jiyong's hospital bed and holding his hands just to make sure if, if he woke up, Seunghyun's face would be the first thing he see. 

The team of doctors that come to check up on Jiyong was different tonight, and Seunghyun wonder why. There's another doctor in red heels and carrying a red macbook and she's been checking on Jiyong for almost 20 minutes now and Seunghyun can't help but panic. He's afraid that actually happening inside Jiyong's body now.

And then he heard someone approaching him. The red doctor wanted to talked to him, so the rest of the team leave them and it was just him and that doctor. Turns out she ain't a doctor. She's a reowned psychiatrist. 

"I am sure there are only 2 reason why he isn't waking up until now - it's been months and I've seen this kind of pattern and it's not pleasing but the first is that his mind is actually under shock after the accident and surgery and it still haven't recover and the latter is that his brain tell his body to not wake up."

"What do you mean? By that, are you saying that he actually doesn't want to wake up?"

"Correct."

Seunghyun got even more confused and as if reading his confused face, the psychiatrist continue.

"I went thru his medical history and I found that he was under a severe depression and stress. I recognize the pattern, Jiyong is one of them. His brain told his body to be idle because he, himself think that it's better this way." She kept explaining, and all Seunghyun can get was that Jiyong was suffering so much to the point he doesn't even want to go back to life, anymore. What kind of hell was he living thru that make him like that?

He doesn't know what to do. His mind goes blank so he sit and stare at the ceiling of the hospital cos he is not sure if he can't look at Jiyong's face right now without crying. And he doesn't want to cry cos Jiyong is not dead. He is still alive for sake.

The psychiatrist said that the only thing that can help is to talk to Jiyong about that, that there are people out there that care and waiting for him to come back. There is no other way beside continuing his IV supplies and keep talking to him. It's not like the red psychiatrist could treat him while he's unconscious.

Seunghyun can't help but let the silent tears flow to his cheeks and just like that his mind goes blank and he cries himself to sleep.