Destiny 3/3
You're my everything.
Song : 'Fantastic Baby' by BIGBANG or 'Glimmering Love' by Elva Hsiao
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001 : A kiss.
_______People will tell you–when they're in couple– that a kiss is the best thing ever. That is what Yoseob thought when he started going out with Doojoon. He thought Doojoon's kisses were lovely, sweet, incredibly good, it was their union, it was telling to everyone that he was Doojoon's. If you asked Yoseob, a kiss is medecine and Doojoon is the gorgeous–and ing y– doctor.
A kiss is the best thing ever–or that was what he thought.
_______A week of chaos, screams , of tears and even sometimes of fits. An important week, but now a wasted week. A week without hugs, kisses, love without each other–even if they were living in the same apartment. A week of a couple on the verge of abyss, on the verge of breaking– breaking which finally comes on this night before a departure.
_______The last evening, the last hours–and even the last torture, but the worst. A petite figure was sitting on a couch, frowned as his tears dried on his cheeks. And a tall and large figure made his package reluctanly–or rather half forced, broken, divided. Yoon Doojoon always hated choese, since he was a child–choose between his teddybear and his ball, choose between the chocolat one and the vanilla one, choose between his mother and his father, choose between being a bully or being bullied, choose between dance and football, and now choose between his passion and his boyfriend : choose between football and Yoseob. He hated choose and above everything, this choice was the hardest. But he couldn't refuse, you couldn't refuse to the president of the Manchester United Club, he couldn't–so when he was offered to come in England, to play with them, Doojoon couldn't refuse. But he hated seeing Yoseob hurt, he always punched those who made his baby cry, and this time he was the creator of his pain, and all he could do was watching and waiting–the only solution, but the worst.
" - Yah, egghead. Yah, Yang Yoseob ! Stop crying. It is the best solution, you knows that, the best for me, you and for us. "
" No, you flee, you always flee. " The blond managed to say. " We can hide it, we hide it during those months, we can continue but you flee ! "
" Yoseob, you can't. You are about to start your career, hiding it when you were a trainee was easy but now.. Medias won't leave you. My idea is a way better than yours. Listen, I am leaving, and you'll become a singer–I mean a normal singer !
" Liar ! I'm suer, there is another reason, stop saying bull, I am not dumb. Who's normal ?! Stop saying non-sense ! What's normal ? Love someone, yes, so our love is normal, hyung ! Stop talking like the rest of society, stop lying to yourself, and me !
" I am trying to be rational, because Korea can't accept us, society don't accept people like us. "
" You think others countrys are different ? Then I come–"
" No. " Doojoon cut Yoseob off. " You stay here, your life is here. "
" No, you flee, you always flee. " The blond managed to say. " We can hide it, we hide it during those months, we can continue but you flee ! "
" Yoseob, you can't. You are about to start your career, hiding it when you were a trainee was easy but now.. Medias won't leave you. My idea is a way better than yours. Listen, I am leaving, and you'll become a singer–I mean a normal singer !
" Liar ! I'm suer, there is another reason, stop saying bull, I am not dumb. Who's normal ?! Stop saying non-sense ! What's normal ? Love someone, yes, so our love is normal, hyung ! Stop talking like the rest of society, stop lying to yourself, and me !
" I am trying to be rational, because Korea can't accept us, society don't accept people like us. "
" You think others countrys are different ? Then I come–"
" No. " Doojoon cut Yoseob off. " You stay here, your life is here. "
_______Torture and suicide. That is what Yoseob thought it was. He was divided, he did not know if he regretted the beginning of their relationship or if it was fear. To be true, he was pratically sure it was fear, but admit it was like taking a man's pride–his pride– in front of someone, in front of Doojoon. And it was probably the most humiliating thing ever, he can't take it, not anymore.
" I am scared, Doojoon-ah. " He said, they were looking at each other, and before Doojoon asked Yoseob continued. " I am not scared about you being in England without me –wait no! I am, but I know you can protect yourself, but I can't. I am scared about what I am going to be without you. We always faced them, together, we always faced problems together since those months. Now, I am going to be alone against an army of fans– if I success. And who is going to wake up me ? Who is going to make me laugh ? No one. And I am scared of.. I don't even know, I am just scared to live without you, ing scared, Yoon Doojoon, don't leave ! "
And silence. The whole room without noises, without moves, just two hearts beating into two persons' chest. Then, the older moved towards the younger placing himself just in front of the blond, on his knees.
And as if it was the only solution to their problem, the only thing to do, Doojoon kissed Yoseob. The kind of kiss they shared for the first time, the kind of kiss which is used like a bandage on someon's wound. The kind of kiss Doojoon used to use to treat Yoseob's wound, but here it was rather a heart's problem than a wound, or maybe a heart's wound. Yoseob's heart's wound and Doojoon's bandage.
But as fast as they fall in love, as fast as the bandage worked, the kiss took all their relationship away, the kiss broke the bandage, it breaks everything when Doojoon broke away, it breaks everything leaving only Yoseob alone and painful memories, it breaks everything when Doojoon broke away and added before leaving : " I am so sorry, I will still love you, I am so sorry, please be fine, be strong, Seob. "
_______People will tell you–when they're single– that a kiss is the worst thing ever. That is what Yoseob think. It hurts, it broke, it lies and it was only futile. He think that God created kisses to torture those who weren't good enough to be happy. If you asked Yoseob, a kiss is the weapon and Doojoon is the killer.
A kiss is the worst thing ever–that is what Yoseob think.
002 : Catch love before it catch you !
_______At home, at work, in the supermarket, at every park, at the restaurant, even at the dance studio, everywhere. His name kept being called as if he was chased, as if a hunter wanted to kill him, like an animal who is chased. And he had those weird feelings and those weird visions of her. Hara. How he hated her since the day Junhyung introduced her as a friend. ' A friend, my ! " HyunSeung thought, and he was right.
_______Today was his last day before going to America, and he expected everything but that. Being forced to buy another suitcase because he had too much clothes. He needed everything but that. " I told you, you bought too much, you never listen me ! That is all your fault, go buy it yourself !" said his mom. But he kept being called and when he turned, he did not see anyone who called him. He hated being called for nothing–but above all, he hated being called pretty. Being pretty is for girls, no, HyunSeung was y, handsome, but not pretty. And as HyunSeung thought, his mind remembered a deep and now hurtful memorie. He remembered how Junhyung called him just after they looked at each other, just after Junhyung caught HyunSeung looking at him. He remembered how he smirked–his gorgeous smirk. " What's wrong, pretty ? Ya'never saw someone y ? C'mon you–". HyunSeung remembered that he instantly punched his saviour, his fist automatically punched Junhyung's face. And because HyunSeung had always been lucky, the police arrested them and that wasz at the police station they had their real and first conversation. HyunSeung smiled with bitterness as he remembered.
Suddenly, he bumped against someone, they both fall on the ground. The ginger realized it was a girl, and she was pregnant, he felt guilty, he hurried to stand up, helped her and asked her if she was okay. HyunSeung smiled when he heard a tiny " Yes, don't worry HyunSeung-ssi. " but his smiled fainted when he recognized the voice. Hara.
" You're not easy to catch, HyunSeung-ssi ! I ran after you the whole week, and I kept calling but you did not stop and, y'know, run with a baby is–"
" Shut up." HyunSeung cut her off. " If you are here to tell me that you are happy, you will make Junhyung happy, just go to hell, okay ? I don't ing care about you and your baby ! "
" Oh.. HyunSeung-ssi, maybe you should listen to me, huh ? "
" No. "
" HyunSeung-ssi, we both know that Junhyung Oppa isn't happy without you. "
" That the reason he made you pregnant ? Please. "
" Huh, what ? Wait, HyunSeung-ssi, Junhyung Oppa is not the father of my child ! "
" Oh, yeah..? Then where's the father ?! "
" I am only 19, HyunSeung-ssi..He left me. "
" Who can tell me you're not lying ?You're just–"
" HyunSeung-ssi ! " Hara sighed, she looked at HyunSeung angry. " Listen me carefuly. Junhyung and I are friends since a while, he is like a brother to me, nothing more. Can't you stop being selfish ? I saw the light in his eyes when he looked at you, you're more to him than I am, and when he speak about you, he's like..I never saw him like that ! But he is the brother I never had, and as brother he helped with the baby, he thought you and him can help me because he knew you like kids, and , you're just being a stupid idiot, with all my respect HyunSeung-ssi ! You're about to go miles away from Korea, without even listen what he wanted to say, without even think of him ! Listen, you're doing a big right now, your life is here, there are so good dancers here, why don't try with us ? Now, stop being selfish and childish, get your away from there, go, catch him and don't leave hin, otherwise, I'll have to punch you ! "
Hara took a last breath, before smiling. " Whoah, I am feeling better now. " HyunSeung was dumbfounded, he smiled at her last sentence. Yeah she sure have the strengh to punch him. When she saw his smile, she frowned. " What are you doing here ?! Hurry up ! "
HyunSeung's smile widened, again. " Thank you, Hara. " And he ran as fast as he could, hurrying himself up, taking all risks, running as if someone chased him. But not this time, neither Hare, neither someone else, it was only love whom made him run, because love gives you wings. Right now, he did not care about cars, dance, about America, about traffic light and horns.
HyunSeung arrived at the apartment, he ring the bell, again and again before the door opened. A pretty tall-figure appeared, growling. " I don't care bout who you– HyunSeung what the–" Junhyung couldn't finish his sentence, he was being kissed and without he realized it, his hands were already around HyunSeung's waist. " ing gorgeous, Jun. "
" Oh, yeah..? Then where's the father ?! "
" I am only 19, HyunSeung-ssi..He left me. "
" Who can tell me you're not lying ?You're just–"
" HyunSeung-ssi ! " Hara sighed, she looked at HyunSeung angry. " Listen me carefuly. Junhyung and I are friends since a while, he is like a brother to me, nothing more. Can't you stop being selfish ? I saw the light in his eyes when he looked at you, you're more to him than I am, and when he speak about you, he's like..I never saw him like that ! But he is the brother I never had, and as brother he helped with the baby, he thought you and him can help me because he knew you like kids, and , you're just being a stupid idiot, with all my respect HyunSeung-ssi ! You're about to go miles away from Korea, without even listen what he wanted to say, without even think of him ! Listen, you're doing a big right now, your life is here, there are so good dancers here, why don't try with us ? Now, stop being selfish and childish, get your away from there, go, catch him and don't leave hin, otherwise, I'll have to punch you ! "
Hara took a last breath, before smiling. " Whoah, I am feeling better now. " HyunSeung was dumbfounded, he smiled at her last sentence. Yeah she sure have the strengh to punch him. When she saw his smile, she frowned. " What are you doing here ?! Hurry up ! "
HyunSeung's smile widened, again. " Thank you, Hara. " And he ran as fast as he could, hurrying himself up, taking all risks, running as if someone chased him. But not this time, neither Hare, neither someone else, it was only love whom made him run, because love gives you wings. Right now, he did not care about cars, dance, about America, about traffic light and horns.
HyunSeung arrived at the apartment, he ring the bell, again and again before the door opened. A pretty tall-figure appeared, growling. " I don't care bout who you– HyunSeung what the–" Junhyung couldn't finish his sentence, he was being kissed and without he realized it, his hands were already around HyunSeung's waist. " ing gorgeous, Jun. "
" You're not leaving, aren't you ? " HyunSeung shoked his head. " Hara caught you, right ? This girl.. "
" Shut up. " HyunSeung pushed Junhyung in the apartment, and closed the door.
" Shut up. " HyunSeung pushed Junhyung in the apartment, and closed the door.
_______In planes, at home, in the toilets, at work, everywhere. He kept being kissed, being hugged as if he was about to disappear, as if he was ill, as if he was about to die, like a patient. But, this time, HyunSeung had this amazing feeling, those sensations of love. Junhyung. How he loved him, for ever.
003 : Inspiration.
_______Hole.Black.Night. The black hole at night used to scare people, especially kids. But it can scare adults, especially when you're alone. Kikwang used to be scared of dark, of night and he was still afraid of it. When he met DongWoon, he first felt ashamed of his fear, because DongWoon wasn't scared, he was a man, the man that every women want, the man who isn't afraid of anything. It was only after he found out DongWoon's secret weakness that he felt better. It was on a hot afternoon of July, they decided to have a walk in a park, but DongWoon suddenly screamed like a little girl. It was on this hot day that Kikwang discovered that DongWoon was scared of bugs. And Kikwang couldn't help but feel better since that day.
But DongWoon was gone and he was now alone in this huge appartment. Appartment which was DongWoon's choice because he was much more weathly than him. The Son family was pretty well-known in the classical music business– and DongWoon's talent brought more money in one concert that Kikwang in 3 months. But he did not care.
But DongWoon was still gone, and he was still alone in this black hole, without lights and he was scared. But he did not care because even lights couldn't pacify him, because lights would prove him the truth : DongWoon was gone.
_______Silence, no noises, no words, no speech, no complains, nothing but him and his piano. Finish his sonata was the only thing he wanted and he did not care about the rest. He was about to finish it but the last part, the last box on his sheet was still empty and this for several months– and it annoyed him a lot. He moved away from everything, even the love of his life. But nothing helps. The box was empty as his head. Suddenly, a slight knock on the door which opened several seconds after.
" DongWoonie, have you finished it ? I want you to show a bit tonight, just to please Mrs Kwon and her daughter, you know, Miss SoHyun ? "
" No. I haven't finished yet, and no, I do not know SoHyun, mother. "
" Oh come on, that's the young lady I had introduced you on your birthday party. Don't you remember ? "
" I think that's Kikwang who welcomed her, not me mother."
" Yeah, whatever. You don't see him again, right ? "
" No, mother."
" Yeah, whatever. You don't see him again, right ? "
" No, mother."
" Fine ! I don't like what he did to you, him and his aura, and his friends. I heard from a friend that the oldest child of Mrs Jang was also gay. That's really..disguting. And he was even in love with an offender ! What a pity, HyunSeung and you were such good friends. You don't see him either, right ?"
" No, mother. "
" Fine ! I'll let you alone now, don't forget to be ready at 6:00 pm for the party, okay ?"
" Fine ! I'll let you alone now, don't forget to be ready at 6:00 pm for the party, okay ?"
As he heard the door closing, DongWoon sighed and smiled bitterly. 'What he did to me.. He only loved me for who I am, not how I'm worth..'
Few hours passed and the rich-party started by DongWoon's piano's extract, which was opening the bal. Taking away by the sound of his instrument, DongWoon continued his sonata instinctively, although he did not finish it few hours before. Suddenly, realizing his thoughts and what he was doing, DongWoon stopped. Embarrassed, his mother whispered.
" DongWoon, is there something wrong ? All the guest are waiting for you still, why did you stop ? "
" Sorry, I just realized something. "
He stood up, looked at SoHyun who were smiling shyly, smiled back to her then turned to his mother. " Sorry, mother, I just found my real inspiration. "
_______When he finally stood up from the couch–the only memorie he had from Dongwoon–Kikwang realized it was late and so dark–it was night, the moon lights up Seoul and at the 17th floor, Kikwang realized how beautiful the city was. And he realized how terrify he was. The 17th floor. Enough high to die, enough high to make fear–and pain–disappear. Instinctively, as if he should have thought about this from the beginning, Kikwang opened the door of the large gay blazed and he took a step out. Just one, then he took a breath. Just one. But he heard a voice. Just the only one. " If you took another step, I'll kill you for being dead. Don't try to move. "
" DongWoon-ah." Kikwang closed his eyes, inspiring a deep breath. " It's dark, I hate dark. I am scared, so much scared. Do you think if I jumped I would no longer be afraid ? "
" You'll never know that because you'll be dead if you jump but–" Kikwang heard footsteps and he felt noises coming closer, he frowned.
" Is this a dream ? or a nightmare ? " Kikwang whispered but suddenly he felt a strong pair of arms around him and a breath behind his ear and a slight whisper which brought a big smile.
" This is not a dream, neither a nightmare. I won't leave you, not again, never again. "
" But you came back ? The question is why. " Kikwang asked and felt a smile behind his ear.
" Kwang. Let's just say I found my real inspiration. " DongWoon said as he turned Kikwang to make him face him. " And it took me a while to realize but, you can be sure about a thing : now it's only you and me and no one else. "
" You're ly–" Kikwang tried to say but he felt a pair of lips on his–and how much he missed his lips– he kissed him back.
"Remember one thing, Kwang : I found my real inspiration and guess who's my inspiration ? " DongWoon smirked as Kikwang smiled and kissed him again.
_______Hole. Black.Night. The black hole at night used to scare people, especially kids. But it can scare when you're adult, especially when you're alone. Kikwang used to be scared of night, dark. But finally he realized that night could be as scaring as she wanted to be, she wasn't that scared until you found your moon. And Kikwang could be DongWoon's inspiration, he couldn't help but DongWoon was his moon. And as night and the moon were so closely related, him and DonWoon were so closely related too and nothing and nobody could change that. Because we don't change a winning team, we don't change the unchangeable.
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DOOOONE ! OMG ! I thought I could never update ! WOW ! Finally, I finished :O
Right ! So, I hope you guys are not so angry toward me, I'm soooo sorry for the last update, it took me a while. I hope you'll understand everything. Just in case : DooSeob are over, they broke (TT__________TT) and KiWoon and JunSeung are still together (in there).
Since I'm a DooSeob fan, I think of making a sequel of their story because it really hurt my hear to make them break up but I had to choos, so yeah.
And.. I think I said enough ? I make the story complete because I don't have the time to write stories because of school so I don't want you to wait me to update so yeah.
SORRY FOR GRAMMARS ERRORS. My english so badly... ><
Anyway, that's it ! Thanks for subscribing, commenting and all, you were really lovely ! THANKS ♥ Be aware of my future shots, 'kay ? :)
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