I'm sorry that this is a really short chapter but that's mainly due to the fact that it's a lead-over to the next one I'm not yet ready to post and I wanted to share another set of memories that I believe are important. Maybe you can at least enjoy the references. I love these:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=stxqo0cW7Iw  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xyvF4mWazP0

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That night I make a decision. Since Taemin bravely started to master his fate it’s about time for me to face my own ghosts.

So I open Youtube and intentionally look for old stuff we did as SHINee. When I stumble over “Hello Baby” I end up watching the entire season. Ah Gods, we were really close then. Minho and Key had mostly overcome their resentment towards each other although it did flare up now and then.

The show was heavily scripted but we did a lot of adlibs and it was really funny. We didn’t need to act towards Yoogeun and especially Minho and Key were really fond of him. It’s hard to catch if you don’t know us well but actually all of us cried when we had to end the series prematurely and say Good-Bye to “our” child.

Then there was the time-capsule. I can hardly hold my tears when I think about Yoogeun opening it in ten years and watching the recording with one of his appas missing. Of course they didn’t show the whole thing on TV, there’s a lot more we told him, each one of us separately. We believed we’d find out at our reunion with Yoogeun. I make a mental note to check on the little chap. I haven’t seen him for a long time.

There’s another thing I want to re-watch. I scan through the enormous amount of entries looking for “High Society”. I think this was the only series I did entirely with Kibum alone.

It was originally scheduled for Minho and me, but he had to cancel because of yet another drama-shoot so Key stood in for him. Actually I was quite content with the change. I love Minho but even in 2013 he was still a bit uncomfortable with the kind of programs with which he could embarrass himself. Therefore I’d always preferred to appear on variety shows with Kibum. He was fun and I could rely on him mastering the most awkward situations with a witty or whining comment depending on his daily condition. Jonghyun could do the same but his approach usually was to fake a choleric fit and make us hold him back. He did that a lot on “Weekly Idol”.

So I was unusually relaxed during the shooting of “High Society” and it definitely shows. Having Shindong and Infinite’s Sunggyu there also helped. Still I know I wouldn’t have gotten through the “War of Flowers” game decently if Kibum hadn’t been so funny. I don’t know how many times he had to strip out of the ing Hanbok and then take it back on again until we finally made it through the whole thing.

I’m not ready yet to watch a recording of our last stage, the one before the world turned upside down and I lost one of my dearest friends, but I guess I can handle the MV. Talking about “September” with Taemin re-awakened my curiosity. I haven’t seen that clip for years.

I plug the notebook into my TV set and sit down with a drink.