Conversing
How Could You Do This?Words that are like this are taking place in Taeyang's head. It might get confusing, but I'll do my best.
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GD stopped struggling. He shrugged off the restraining hands and marched off in the direction of the parking lot with the eyes of dozens on his back. The rest of them hurried to catch up.
Taeyang lagged behind the others, replaying the fight in his mind.
Daesung-ah. He thought. Did you know that would happen? You had to, knowing your father.
He heard a sigh in his mind, then, "I know. I was expecting it."
Taeyang jumped so hard that the watching people looked at him strangely. He bowed in apology.
D - Daesung? He thought again.
"Hi hyung!" Daesung's voice echoed in his mind, a laugh hidden in his words.
They made it to the car around a crowd of hysterical fangirls and each slid in. As the door closed, Taeyang squeezed his eyes shut.
I'm going nuts. I'm hearing Daesung in my head. That's it. I've cracked.
A snort. "Sorry hyung, but you're just as sane as before. I'm not really here."
"Young-bae?" Taeyang opened his eyes and found three sets of eyes peering into his own.
"I'm fine. Will you stop looking at me like that?" he snapped at them. They looked away quickly.
"Y'know, you never used to snap at people before, hyung." Daesung said. "What happened?"
Do you really not know, Daesung-ah? You happened, or rather, you unhappened. Taeyang thought bitterly. Daesung was silent for a minute.
"I know. I'm sorry."
You should be. Taeyang thought stubbornly. Daesung chuckled.
"Yes hyung." then he was gone, and Taeyang felt more lonely then ever, surrounded though by friends. One friend was missing.
As they entered the dorm, Taeyang made a beeline for his room, then stopped, staring at the yellow tape across the door. He turned abruptly and flopped down on the couch. A cup of tea was placed in front of him but he ignored it. He just stared at the yellow tape, thinking that this time yesterday, Daesung was still alive.
Siwon joined them. "We need to figure out what we're doing now." he said quietly. He'd already cancelled all their schedules for the coming weeks, but what he wanted to talk about was more long-term.
"Can't it wait until tomorrow?" Top asked tiredly. The rest agreed with him.
"I just want to go to bed." Seungri said, standing up. Siwon nodded reluctantly.
"Okay. You get some rest, we'll talk in the morning." he made to leave, but stopped at GD's voice.
"Wait." Siwon turned. "Where's Young-bae going to sleep?"
"In his room of -" Siwon cut himself off. There was an awkward silence.
"It's fine, I'll sleep on the couch." Taeyang muttered. He went to the linen closet and grabbed a blanket before anyone could say a word.
"Okay, if you're sure." Siwon left, closing the door silently behind him.
Big Bang was left alone.
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Okay, just to clear up any confusion. Taeyang is not going crazy, nor is there any supernatural aspect to this story. He's not really talking to Daesung, nor is Daesung communicating with him.
All that's happening is that Taeyang is dealing with his grief by talking to Daesung in his mind, imagining what Daesung would say back. He hears Daesung's voice in his head as his imagined reponses to his thoughts.
Hope that cleared up any confusion and I hope you're enjoying!
=) Aiko
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