Conversing

How Could You Do This?

Words that are like this are taking place in Taeyang's head. It might get confusing, but I'll do my best.

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GD stopped struggling. He shrugged off the restraining hands and marched off in the direction of the parking lot with the eyes of dozens on his back. The rest of them hurried to catch up.

Taeyang lagged behind the others, replaying the fight in his mind.

Daesung-ah. He thought. Did you know that would happen? You had to, knowing your father.

He heard a sigh in his mind, then, "I know. I was expecting it."

Taeyang jumped so hard that the watching people looked at him strangely. He bowed in apology.

D - Daesung? He thought again.

"Hi hyung!" Daesung's voice echoed in his mind, a laugh hidden in his words.

They made it to the car around a crowd of hysterical fangirls and each slid in. As the door closed, Taeyang squeezed his eyes shut.

I'm going nuts. I'm hearing Daesung in my head. That's it. I've cracked.

A snort. "Sorry hyung, but you're just as sane as before. I'm not really here."

"Young-bae?" Taeyang opened his eyes and found three sets of eyes peering into his own.

"I'm fine. Will you stop looking at me like that?" he snapped at them. They looked away quickly.

"Y'know, you never used to snap at people before, hyung." Daesung said. "What happened?"

Do you really not know, Daesung-ah? You happened, or rather, you unhappened. Taeyang thought bitterly. Daesung was silent for a minute.

"I know. I'm sorry."

You should be. Taeyang thought stubbornly. Daesung chuckled.

"Yes hyung." then he was gone, and Taeyang felt more lonely then ever, surrounded though by friends. One friend was missing.

As they entered the dorm, Taeyang made a beeline for his room, then stopped, staring at the yellow tape across the door. He turned abruptly and flopped down on the couch. A cup of tea was placed in front of him but he ignored it. He just stared at the yellow tape, thinking that this time yesterday, Daesung was still alive.

Siwon joined them. "We need to figure out what we're doing now." he said quietly. He'd already cancelled all their schedules for the coming weeks, but what he wanted to talk about was more long-term.

"Can't it wait until tomorrow?" Top asked tiredly. The rest agreed with him.

"I just want to go to bed." Seungri said, standing up. Siwon nodded reluctantly.

"Okay. You get some rest, we'll talk in the morning." he made to leave, but stopped at GD's voice.

"Wait." Siwon turned. "Where's Young-bae going to sleep?"

"In his room of -" Siwon cut himself off. There was an awkward silence.

"It's fine, I'll sleep on the couch." Taeyang muttered. He went to the linen closet and grabbed a blanket before anyone could say a word.

"Okay, if you're sure." Siwon left, closing the door silently behind him.

Big Bang was left alone.

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Okay, just to clear up any confusion. Taeyang is not going crazy, nor is there any supernatural aspect to this story. He's not really talking to Daesung, nor is Daesung communicating with him.

All that's happening is that Taeyang is dealing with his grief by talking to Daesung in his mind, imagining what Daesung would say back. He hears Daesung's voice in his head as his imagined reponses to his thoughts.

Hope that cleared up any confusion and I hope you're enjoying!

=) Aiko

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Thekoreanreader #1
Chapter 19: WHY MUST U MAKE ME CRY AND LISTENING TO LAST DANCE AT THE SAME TIME!!! WAHHHHH
Rapidrules #2
Chapter 19: Omg I'm crying and IV only know bigbang for a few months. Ahhhh tears keep coming :'( one of the most saddest things IV ever read
akioryuu
#3
I found this story in wattpadd... Is Gira_Noona already ask your permission to re-write your story??? Thank you...
bella_nabila01
#4
Chapter 19: You know.This is the best Big Bang fanfic i ever read.You make me cry so hard when they read Daesung last letter.I'm such a stupid to find this wonderful fanfic in 2015 when you wrote it in 2013.Until now when i am writing this comment my tears keep falling.Yes i can't stop when it comes to the song they made and the last conversation between Young Bae and Daesung.After reading this,you don't know how much i feel grateful that Daesung manage to handle his feelings after the accident.I can't imagine what will happen if this happen.There will be no MADE album.No Daesung playing drum while laughing.No laugh and joy anymore in Big Bang.Kamsahamnida authornim.For making me appreciate BigBang more and more.Love them more and i think,this is the best kpop group forever.And if you mind,i want to post this fanfic in Wattpad.I will give credit to you and promote your Account here.Thanks
NMInspirit987
#5
Chapter 19: It's been 3 years since you wrote this? how could i just find this story now? in 2015?
......... i dont know how much i cried for this story. to be honest i was feeling sad and i was looking for the story to read. and then i found this story. when i read the first chapter, i could feel my eyes were teary, and then i read the next chapters....... and guess what? I AM CRYING HARD HERE. I FEEL MORE SAD. Daesung is my bias and...... i cant imagine if this things will be happened to them.
But in the same time, i feel happy cuz it's been a long time since i read this kind of story.

well thank you so much for make me chokes and sobbing hard. i feel more calm right now.

THANKS FOR THIS BEAUTIFUL STORY <33
red_knight #6
Chapter 19: OMG i'm crying!! I loved it , Authornim!!!
DzaifiyaChoHee
#7
Chapter 19: I was looking for something to make me cry.. this is the answer. . thanks author-nim for writing this story.. it's so beautiful. .
Pikachau #8
Chapter 19: I loved this. It's sooo good! You had me in tears over how sad and amazing this was!
missbeehave
#9
Chapter 19: I love and hate this story. I still cant make up my mind.
I refuse to re read wat I wrote b4. Prob dun even make sense I dun give a shyt.
What I do love is your writing.
I bow at ur feet for making me sob so hard I shoulda choked.
For breaking my heart and still making me give u props for ur writing.

And.that.song. omg I cried so loud I freaked out my own damn self. That.song.is.wow.
Imagine if bigbangb really sang that song..bigbang as 5 of course.
Lol I still hate u.
Hahaha no I think I love u.
Hahah yes im bipolar. So wat?
Youre a freak-breaking peoples hearts n crushing their souls then making them thank u.
Well thank u ok thank u.
Please write more bigbang.
U can make it up with bigbang fics.
I love what u wrote abt thanking dae for not giving up. I feel u..I wrote everywhere online wanting him to muster through. Hwaiting indeed.
All I wanna say is that u r strangely wonderful, addictive and an absolute freak. Stop breaking my heart n making ppl cry all over the world lol

Now where can I find more bigbang fics uve written?
Hahahahahah

In all seriousness. I pledge my adoration to u.

Bipolarlike fan
~Bee
missbeehave
#10
Chapter 19: Omg I cant see myveyes are pouring and my nose is crying tooo so snotty I dun even care rn. Eww.
I cant see but I can feel. Tgis is sooo paifnul my heart is breakin gbroken gone my chest is really tight w grief. Damn u. Damn u. Why do u hurt me..ill cone bacj when I can see again but..damn u