Finding Him

How Could You Do This?

The headline exploded all over the internet. All over the world, K-pop fans went onto their favorite websites only to be greeted with the words:

BIGBANG’s Daesung Commits Suicide

Almost immediately, comments and replies started popping up on every website.

“Nooo! Daesung-oppa wouldn’t have done that!”

"Whaaaat?? What are they saying??"

"Damn that stupid accident!"

“It’s because of that accident. They charged him and they’d better regret it!”

Back in South Korea, the remaining members of Big Bang were sitting in their dorm silently, not caring about the outburst going on online. Each of them had a cup of tea in front of them compliments of their dorm mother.

GD was slouched in his seat, staring at the floor, occasionally sipping his tea. Seungri held his mug in both hands, eyes closed, as if to use it as some means of comfort. Top was sitting on the floor, his mug tipped over, it’s contents seeping into the floor, unnoticed by anyone.

And Taeyang was slumped on the couch, ignoring his tea. It had been him who had found Daesung. He glanced down the hall at the closed door of Daesung’s room, which was now criss-crossed by yellow tape. He closed his eyes, recalling the long afternoon. . .

Daesung hadn’t been participating in the groups’ activities since his accident in May; he’d been staying in the dorm, pretty much shut up by himself most of the time. Taeyang, who shared a room with him, was the only one who really saw him. Otherwise, he almost never left his room. They almost never even saw him eat. He hadn’t been talking much or acting at all like his usual self, but the others figured he just felt guilty and it would pass eventually.

Only it hadn’t. It had gotten worse, to the point where they barely heard him speak.

That afternoon, the members had come in for a quick break in their schedules.

“Young-bae, you want to check in with Daesung? He seemed really depressed this morning.” GD called over his shoulder.

Taeyang stood up from his chair. “Yeah.” he walked towards the room he and Daesung shared, noting as he did how quiet it was inside. He turned the handle, saying “Daesung-ah?” he pulled the door open and walked inside.

Daesung was lying on his bed, back to Taeyang. He appeared to be asleep. Taeyang turned, intending to walk out quietly when something caught his attention.

If Daesung was asleep, wouldn’t he be breathing? He took a closer look. The lack of movement from Daesung was unnerving, as was the dark stain on the pillow.

Taeynag swallowed hard. He crept forward towards the bed. “D-Daesung-ah? Daesung?” he reached out and shook him slightly. Daesungs head rolled a little off the pillow, and Taeyang removed his hand in shock. The pillow was soaked in blood. Daesungs arm dangled over the other side of the bed and Taeyang glanced down at it. His whole body went cold.

Lying on the floor, inches from Daesung’s fingers, was a small handgun.

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Sorry it's so short. More to come later.

Do you like it though? Well, you people like me who like to read sad, depressing things probably do.

=) Aiko

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Thekoreanreader #1
Chapter 19: WHY MUST U MAKE ME CRY AND LISTENING TO LAST DANCE AT THE SAME TIME!!! WAHHHHH
Rapidrules #2
Chapter 19: Omg I'm crying and IV only know bigbang for a few months. Ahhhh tears keep coming :'( one of the most saddest things IV ever read
akioryuu
#3
I found this story in wattpadd... Is Gira_Noona already ask your permission to re-write your story??? Thank you...
bella_nabila01
#4
Chapter 19: You know.This is the best Big Bang fanfic i ever read.You make me cry so hard when they read Daesung last letter.I'm such a stupid to find this wonderful fanfic in 2015 when you wrote it in 2013.Until now when i am writing this comment my tears keep falling.Yes i can't stop when it comes to the song they made and the last conversation between Young Bae and Daesung.After reading this,you don't know how much i feel grateful that Daesung manage to handle his feelings after the accident.I can't imagine what will happen if this happen.There will be no MADE album.No Daesung playing drum while laughing.No laugh and joy anymore in Big Bang.Kamsahamnida authornim.For making me appreciate BigBang more and more.Love them more and i think,this is the best kpop group forever.And if you mind,i want to post this fanfic in Wattpad.I will give credit to you and promote your Account here.Thanks
NMInspirit987
#5
Chapter 19: It's been 3 years since you wrote this? how could i just find this story now? in 2015?
......... i dont know how much i cried for this story. to be honest i was feeling sad and i was looking for the story to read. and then i found this story. when i read the first chapter, i could feel my eyes were teary, and then i read the next chapters....... and guess what? I AM CRYING HARD HERE. I FEEL MORE SAD. Daesung is my bias and...... i cant imagine if this things will be happened to them.
But in the same time, i feel happy cuz it's been a long time since i read this kind of story.

well thank you so much for make me chokes and sobbing hard. i feel more calm right now.

THANKS FOR THIS BEAUTIFUL STORY <33
red_knight #6
Chapter 19: OMG i'm crying!! I loved it , Authornim!!!
DzaifiyaChoHee
#7
Chapter 19: I was looking for something to make me cry.. this is the answer. . thanks author-nim for writing this story.. it's so beautiful. .
Pikachau #8
Chapter 19: I loved this. It's sooo good! You had me in tears over how sad and amazing this was!
missbeehave
#9
Chapter 19: I love and hate this story. I still cant make up my mind.
I refuse to re read wat I wrote b4. Prob dun even make sense I dun give a shyt.
What I do love is your writing.
I bow at ur feet for making me sob so hard I shoulda choked.
For breaking my heart and still making me give u props for ur writing.

And.that.song. omg I cried so loud I freaked out my own damn self. That.song.is.wow.
Imagine if bigbangb really sang that song..bigbang as 5 of course.
Lol I still hate u.
Hahaha no I think I love u.
Hahah yes im bipolar. So wat?
Youre a freak-breaking peoples hearts n crushing their souls then making them thank u.
Well thank u ok thank u.
Please write more bigbang.
U can make it up with bigbang fics.
I love what u wrote abt thanking dae for not giving up. I feel u..I wrote everywhere online wanting him to muster through. Hwaiting indeed.
All I wanna say is that u r strangely wonderful, addictive and an absolute freak. Stop breaking my heart n making ppl cry all over the world lol

Now where can I find more bigbang fics uve written?
Hahahahahah

In all seriousness. I pledge my adoration to u.

Bipolarlike fan
~Bee
missbeehave
#10
Chapter 19: Omg I cant see myveyes are pouring and my nose is crying tooo so snotty I dun even care rn. Eww.
I cant see but I can feel. Tgis is sooo paifnul my heart is breakin gbroken gone my chest is really tight w grief. Damn u. Damn u. Why do u hurt me..ill cone bacj when I can see again but..damn u