Leaving the ones you love behind is like someone burning you from the inside out. 

"Chanyeol do you know how much I love you?" He wasn't here with me today. Though his scent lingered in the room. So far not so good. Chest pains, headaches and much more pain to endure more and more as days drew nearer. I couldn't let myself die and leave him. My choice.... well my choice is to make him happy, never shed a tear to anyone. Why is fate so cruel? I thought it was suppose to be all happy and cheerful at the end like Sleeping Beauty or something. Two weeks left and wow time does go by fast. Four months, three months, two months, one month and now two weeks. Don't waste time in life. Enjoy it as much as possible...... 

Second write off... See you later journal. 

After writing in my journal the skies grew clear and the blue skies lit up. Making my way towards the window to look at the view one last time. It was like just yesterday it was a good day for me, now it all disappeared into darkness and despair. Everyday as each star was folded and each day the jar filled up. My world was closing in on me faster and faster. Dreams came often.

"Jiyeon-ah you have to hurry and decided, time is not with you." 

"Jiyeon-ah hurry!" 

"Jiyeon-ah I'm sorry." 

I think I'm going crazy. What have I done in my past life to deserve this? Looking down the busy streets. I spotted someone. Chanyeol. 

After 5 minutes he came rushing in.

"Hi Jiyeon." 

"Hi." My voice was dead and the sadness of his eyes trying to hide behind that smile. Feeling his warm embrace and the smile near my neck. I'm sorry Chanyeol. I'm sorry. 

" I know I'm always asking you but can you sing for me again." 

"Sure." Hearing his beautiful yet powerful voice, made me think about our past event