After months of learning to walk properly, Siwon and I decided to go the doctor. A new

hope had enlightened our lives, that was to have a baby. Everyone in the family was

expecting a baby from us now, someone who would carry forward our name. But then we

faced the toughest and the worst truth of my life.

Flashback

Siwon took me to the hospital and then I entered for the CT scan. It hardly took any time for it

to be over. And now the real wait began. I nerevously held Siwon’s hand. What would the test

results be? Everything was normal and good till now. It took half an hour for the test results to

come out. They were the most painstaking half an hour in my life.

The doctor called us inside.

“Well, everything is fine in your body. You have recovered well and fast. But…”

“But what doctor?” Siwon asked. The look on the doctor’s face also changed.

He put up some scans in front of the light. They were mine.

“You can see here. There has been a cyst type formation.” The doctor said pointing down at my

uterus.

“There has been a major blood clot there. It must have occurred during the accident, due to

internal injuries. It went undetected because your menstrual cycle has been normal. But now

that we have seen it, you cannot become pregnant. Being pregnant can actually take your life

away. Or you may have to remove your uterus forever.”

My hands turned cold. It was the worst fear in my life. All my hopes, our families hopes had

shattered into pieces.

Siwon understood that I had once again, mentally broken down.

“Doctor, can’t this be removed? I mean. Cysts can be removed right?”

“Hmm..you are correct, that cysts can be removed. But in her case, it is going to be a very

difficult process, once again, it becomes a matter of survival. If we perform it, there will be only

20% chance that she will be alive.”

“So..nothing can be done doctor?”

“We can only wait and watch. If the clot naturally fades away, then it is good. But we can’t take

a chance.”

Tears had already welled up in my eyes, it was just that I wasn’t crying yet.

Thanking the doctor, Siwon took me outside. And then I simply slumped to the ground. My legs

went numb again. I started crying.

“Why did this happen to us Siwon? Don’t we deserve a happy and normal life? What mistakes

did we do?”

“God is testing us Shreya, he must have something better planned for us. Let’s go home Shreya,

it’s getting late.”

I did not speak a word after that. Looking outside, I continuously cried. I wanted a baby of

our own so badly. But God was not with us. Once again, I gave up on life. 

sad chapter so happy pictures of Siwon.