“Revenge? Ji…do you think I am capable of that? Just in case I survive this I don’t want to spend my second life for revenge…I want to spend it with Donghae.” Dara faintly said

It hurts so much to hear her say that…

This must be how she felt when I broke up with her…

But I understand her, Donghae is the better man…

“I want to apologize for hurting you, I never wanted this to happen.”  I said

I’m trying so hard not to hug her…

And not to beg her to give me another chance…

I still want to be the guy that Dara loves,

I want to be able to show her that I love her,

I would spend each day making her happy…

“It’s not your fault that I was born with a weak heart…Besides I am the one who should apologize for holding you back from all the things you wanted to do…I understand you Ji, and instead of being angry at you I am thankful because you gave me the best two years of my life…I was happy the whole time Ji, well except for the time when you broke up with me, but I am ok now...” Dara explained

I am looking intently at Dara

She really is the nicest person you’ll ever meet…

I never seen her angry…he always see the good side even at worst situation

I was so dumb pushing her away…

“I’ll be waiting till your operation is done…I know you’ll survive it.” I assured her

“No need Ji,  you need to move forward now…we broke up remember? What ever happen in the operation should not affect you anymore, I want you to live a happy life, that’s the least you can do for me…and I want to be fair to Donghae…I may not love him the way I loved you but I will try…I also need to move forward.” Dara said to me

Then I saw tears in her eyes…

I made her cry again…

Im really useless

Is this what I am good at…hurting the one I love?

I will stay until I’m sure that she is out of danger…

Then after that I will not bother her anymore….

“I understand Dara…I know that will survive this operation Dara.” I told her

Was that the best I could say?

Are those the words you have to say to a person you love?

To a person that you might not be able to see again…?

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