Dara’s POV

“Doc. Kim what are my chances if I go through the operations?” I asked Doc. Kim

“Honestly Dara, it wouldn’t be a good idea to go through that, you’re body is too weak and for some reason I can’t see determination in your eyes…and your chances of surviving it is very low,it seems like you just want to go through with it just for the sake of doing it…” Doc. Kim said

“I know it seems like I’ve lost the will to live but at least I gained the courage to go through this operations, I have nothing to fear anymore, my existence doesn’t matter anymore, and just in case I died at least I have been strong even once in my life, to tell you the truth Doctor, it would be more complicated if I survive this, because I have to live a life with no reason to be alive.” I frankly told him

“ I think you’re doing it for the wrong reason, but let me give you a deal…I will operate on you only if I see improvement in you, I want to see a better Dara after one month, only then I will do it…” Doc. Kim suggested

“Ok Doctor Kim don’t worry I’ll be a good patient from now on?” I assured Doctor Kim

“I’ll be looking forward to it Dara, I’ll be leaving now, do you want me to tell Donghae to come back inside?” Doctor Kim asked

“Yes please…give my regards to your family too, I haven’t seen them in ages” I said cheerfully to him

“Don’t worry I will, my wife’s been asking about you.” Doctor Kim said as he opened the door and let Donghae in

“Is everything ok Doctor Kim?” Donghae asked

“”Yes, she’s lucky it was a mild heart attack be she promised to be a good patient from now on, I have to go now I have to attend to another patient.” Doctor Kim said as he leaves

“What is it that you wanted to tell Doctor Kim Dara?” Donghae asked me curiously

“I want to have an operation Donghae.” I determinedly said to Donghae

“What are the chances to surviving it?” Donghae asked while looking at the floor

“Given my condition right now, Doctor Kim said it’s very low.” I answered him

“Why are you doing this now Dara…you had a better chance before and yet you declined it, and now that it’s more risky you want to do it? Is it because of Jiyong? You want to take your chance to live longer for Jiyong?” Donghae said with pain in his tone

“It’s the opposite Donghae, I w