=The next day after work=

I drive around trying to decide if I will go and check if Dara’s shop is open, I got curious with what Seungri told me last night…

Dara loves spending her time on her flower shop…

But as I reached her shop it is as what Seungri told me…Closed

I must have hurt Dara a lot to make her close her shop…

Or Donghae must have convinced her to close it and spend her time wit him.

I hate to admit it but I am jealous…

I will call Dara, and if she asked why I am calling I’ll tell her that a friend can always call another friend,

 I won’t be obvious that I am looking for her.

I dialed Dara’s number and listen to my phone…

The call was not connected, her phone is turned off.

She must have changed her mobile number to avoid me….

And it hurts me to realize that Dara is moving on…

I’m the one who wants this, now I have to bear with it.

I went home with a very heavy heart…

I lie down on my bed and closed my eyes…

I really messed up this time…

I’ve hurt the one person that I loved the most…I was blinded by my desires that I was willing to hurt her just to be able to do the things that I thought would make me happy.

And now that I did the things I have always wanted to do, it felt empty, Dara’s space in mylife will not be filled up by anything or anyone.

I remembered Dara’s face while I was breaking up with her….her falling tears.

I wanted to punch my self…

I made her cry,

I hurt her…

I left her…

I am so stupid!!!

Now that I’ve lost her, I seemed to have lost myself too…

Now that Donghae have her…. I know that he will never let her go the way I did.

=After one month=

Dara’s POV

“Ssantoki…are you ready for your operation tomorrow?” Donghae asked me<