I was in a dark, lamp-lit hallway, with identical doors at my side, stretching infinitely, until who knows where. I started walking, the sound of my footsteps against the cold hard-wood floor, echoing back to me. It felt weird, like someone was watching me. After walking for a while, I saw a tall figure in front of me. He had his hands in his pockets, a mannerism that I know all too well. I wasn't surprised to see him for some reason. I was walking towards him, footsteps still resounding in my ears.

Changsun.

I said his name in my head. As if hearing it, the figure walked towards the door. I walked faster, to catch up to him, but the distance between us didn't seem to shorten at all. He turned the knob and before he went inside, he turned to me, giving me a sad smile, a smile where the eyes aren't smiling at all, where all you can see in rem is pain and suffering.

Changsun! 

I started running, and before I could reach the knob, the door closes shut, leaving me alone in the desolate hallway. I figured that I could still try, so I placed my hands on the door knob, and twisted it. I took a deep breath and before .i could open it...

"Yah, Park Sanghyun!! You are going to Seoul today, aren't you?! Get your to breakfast right now!" a scream from my mom that woke me up from my dream. A dream that I couldn't remember. But I always had a feeling that I have dreamt that same dream more than a few times already. But I gave up on knowing what it was because it was just not worth my time.

"PARK SANG-" my mom started, but I immediately cut her off. 

"I'M COMING DOWN NOW MOTHER DEAR." I screamed back sarcastically.

***

After eating breakfast, my mother sat down and I knew I had to reassure her again, of my reasons for coming to Seoul.

"Are you really sure you want to become an idol, just like your sister?" she asked, her tone serious. My mother was never a serious person, so seeing her like this kind of worried me.

"Yes, I want to mom." I said, as confident as possible, confident enough to fool her as I can't fool myself. "I can handle this mom, don't worry about it. The producers said that they loved my audition tape and said I could go there whenever I'm ready. So I guess this is the right time." 

"Are you going to find Changsun there?" I froze when I heard his name.

"Mom, we talked about this already right? I'll find him if I'll find him." I replied a little too quickly. My mom's eyes narrowed slightly. She's a sharp woman.

"Well if you do, say hello to her mom for me. We haven't talked since she went here to say her goodbyes and leaving for Seoul with Changsun." 

That's right. He didn't tell me he was leaving. Were those smiles fake? That day, at the park, he was smiling at me, telling me we have lots of opportunities to talk and suddenly leaving. What the hell was that?! Those memories still fresh in my mind after so many years.

***

"Bye mom. Take care of yourself for me." I said, kissing her on the forehead. I was ready to go stepping outside our patio, signs of early spring in the air. I walked out, feeling a strong conviction in me, that I want to become an idol like my sister.

At the back of my mind, there was another agenda: a need for an explanation, on why things turned out that way. I accepted the fact that this was all in the past, and I was really furious when he left without a word, but for some reason, my thoughts of Changsun didn't really die. It was... inexplicable. What were we to think that way?

I remembered again how he smiled at me, that kind smile of his, and  thought that I'd like to see that again.

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Chapter 2 is finished guys!! Lots of monologues from our Doongie to set the theme. No joondoong yet, I'm sorry. But maybe in the next chapter?? Kekekeke...

If you'd notice guys, this was years after our Joonie left for Seoul. :3 

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