*this chapter will be back to EunMi's pov.

 

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I look at the brown door and bit my bottom lips. I took a step towards the door hesitantly, not sure if I should go in. I let out a sigh and went towards the side of the door, punching in the number code to unlock the door.

 

 A click sound was heard, signalling that the door is unlock. I grab the door handle, took in a deep breath and push it open.

 

 Memories started flooding into my mind once the messy apartment came into my sight. I felt tears forming in my eyes as I close the door behind me and lean against it. Jonghyun's scent was everywhere.

 

 I took in a deep breath and smiled bitterly. The apartment... Felt so.. Lonely. I look at the couch in the living room and memories started pouring in. 

 

* flashback *

 

" Eunmiiiiiiiiii ! " Jonghyun whined as he put is arms around my waist. " what ? " I mumbled, munching on a popcorn and concentrating on the movie that was showing. " nothing. I just felt like calling you. " he said and buried his head at the crook of my neck.

 

 " what are you doing ? " I ask, irritated that he is distracting me from my show. " there's only two of us here. " he said and tighten his arms around me. " yeah and ? " I ask munching on another popcorn. " do you want to..... " he said and look at me with a smug face. 

 

" want to what ? " I look at him and raise my eyebrow. " do you want to.... " he said again and smirk at me. " Kim Jonghyun. Don't you dare think of it. " I said and push his head away from me. 

 

" come on !! Pleaseeeee. " he said and pouted. " no no no " I said and shook my head. " pleaseeeeeeee ? " he tried again and showed me his puppy eyes. " FINE FINE. I swear your puppy eyes are going to be the death of me. " I said and shook my head. " YAY ! " he shouted and stood up with a fist pump.

 

 " really though. Why do you like baking cake that much ? " I sigh and stood up. " IT'S FUN ! Come on ! " he said and pulled me to the kitchen. " but you're such a lousy baker ! " I said and pouted. 

 

" LALALALALALALA ! WE ARE BAKING !!! " he shouted and took out all the ingredients from the fridge. " REALLY ?! You're even prepared for it ? " I look at him bewildered. " obviously ! " he flash me a smile and grab my hand, pulling me into the kitchen. I shook my head at his cute character and felt my lips twitch up into a smile. 

 

* end of flashback *

 

I smiled at the memory and walk into Jonghyun's room. Every single thing in this room brings memories.. Memories of me and Jonghyun.

 

 I walk over to seat down on Jonghyun's messy bed and took the photo that is being framed at the bedside table. I touched Jonghyun's face on the picture and tears started rolling down my cheeks and onto the picture.

 

 I smiled bitterly and sigh " why must you go ? It hurts you know.. " I mumbled and another tear hit the photo. " hah.. Look.. Im even talking to myself.. I don't even know why I came here... " I shook my head and look back down the picture. 

 

This time, I noticed something is inside the photo frame. I took out the picture and out came a note.  I unfold it and recognised the handwriting immidietly. There are song lyrics on the top and a note below. I buy my lips and started reading the lyrics.

 

Shinee- One ( 하나 )

 

[온유] 아침 햇살이 그대와 같아요 조금 유치하겠죠

그래도 난 이런 게 좋은 걸

[태민] 나를 깨워준 그대 옆에 라면 더 바랄게 없겠죠

이렇게 그댈 보고 싶은 걸

 

[Key] 사랑이 어리다고 못할 거라 생각하지 말아요

[종현] 나를 더 늦기 전에

나 더 크기 전에 잡아줄 수 있죠?

 

[All] 사랑해요 그대만을 저 하늘만큼

정말 그대는 내가 사는 이유인 걸요

그대를 아주 많이 그댈 미치도록 안아주고 싶어

아직 많이 빠른거죠 그런거죠

 

[민호] 그녀의 눈이 마주칠 때마다

내 얼굴에 번지는 미소가

혹시나 그대 마음의 한켠에 닿을까

아스라한 너의 마음 그 속에 아름다운

귓가에 속삭여 널 사랑하는 나의 마음

 

[종현] I’ll be taking you

Girl, I know without you

[Key] Without you, I miss you

언제까지나 그대를 원하죠

[민호] 원하고 바라는 맘

또 깊어지는 사랑

더 이상 숨길 수 없어

그대는 나인 girl

 

[태민] 내 마음이 그댈 잡고 놓질 않죠

그대도 느껴지나요

[Key] 나를, oh 더 늦기 전에

나 더 크기 전에 잡아줄 수 있죠?

 

[온유] 아직 그대 마음이 내 곁에

올 수 없는 걸 알아요 근데

[종현] 그대 하나만 나의 하나라고 불러도 되나요

 

[All] 우리 같이 one, two, three, oh 자 시작해요

그댄 나의 하나죠 나의 전부인걸요

그대를 아주 많이 그댈 미치도록 사랑하고 싶어

이제는 그래도 되죠 그런거죠

그대를 아주 많이 그댈 미치도록 사랑하고 싶어

이제는 그래도 되죠 그런거죠

 

( Translation )

 

[Onew] The morning sunlight is like you

It might be a little childish, but I like it

[Taemin] If I’m by your side when you wake me up

I have nothing more to wish for

I want to see you

 

[Key] Don’t think that we can’t love because we’re young

[Jonghyun] Before it’s too late

Before I grow older, can you hold onto me?

 

[All] I love you only, as much as the sky

You truly are the reason I live

I really, really, I want to hug you like crazy

We’re still going too fast, right?

 

[Minho] Whenever I meet eyes with her

I wonder if the smile that grows on my face

might reach a corner of your heart

I whisper into the beautiful ear

Inside of your uncertain heart

My feelings of love for you

 

[Jonghyun] I’ll be taking you

Girl, I know without you

[Key] Without you, I miss you

I’ll long for you forever

[Minho] My feelings of desire and hope

My love that grows deep again

I can no longer hide them

You are me, girl

 

[Taemin] My heart will catch you and not let you go

Can you feel it as well?

[Key] Before, oh, it’s too late

Before I grow older, can you hold onto me?

 

[Onew] I know that your heart

Cannot come by my side yet

[Jonghyun] Can I just call you my one?

 

[All] Let’s all together one, two, three, let’s begin

You are my one, my everything

I really, really, I want to love you like crazy

I can do that now, right?

I really, really, I want to love you like crazy

I can do that now, right? 

 

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 Holding my tears in, I took in a deep breath and bracing myself, I read the letter. 

 

If you are reading this letter, you are most probably EUNMI. I somehow knew you would look through my stuff and somehow spot this note in the picture. I know I know. I'm so good looking that you can't resist but look at my awesome face. Haha ! A good looking guy with the most beautiful and wonderful girlfriend ever in the world. Oh and you see the lyrics up there ? It's written for you. Remember when the first time you met me, you asked me to sing a song that I composed ? Well.. Honestly speaking, I didn't have much inspiration then. All my other songs that I wrote before I met you.. Was just songs without meanings. Before I met you, I wrote songs without feeling.. I just wrote.. For the sake of writing. And when I first laid my eyes on you, inspirations started to come to me naturally.. And this song, the song up there, is the song that I wrote when I first met you. At first, I thought my feelings for you were just affection.. But after sometime, I realised, I had never. And really.. Never felt this way for anyone before. The way you make my whole body tingle when you smile at me.. The way you make my heart beat when I see you. I just.. Felt blissful. I must have saved the world in my pass life to have such a wonderful girlfriend like you. I cannot imagine living without you anymore. Every single time I see you, I will go crazy on the inside.. Like.. I'm melting.. I could literally cry tears of joy. And... I just want you to know.. No matter what, I will always be there with you. Even if my life is taken away from me, I will still be there looking out for you. Because.. You are my only one. You are my everything. And I love you. So much. 

 

Your dino,

Kim Jonghyun. 

 

By the end of the letter, my whole face was wet with tears. I didn't know.. How is it possible ? Jonghyun... " KIM JONGHYUN ! " I shouted, tears flowing down my face rapidly. 

 

" DONT HIDE FROM ME. COME OUT ! " I shouted butting my lips. " IT HURTS SO BAD. COME OUT. " I wipe my tears away roughly and shouted again and again. " JONGHYUNNNNNN ! " " KIM JONGHYUN ! COME OUT ! " I felt as if my chest was ripping apart. 

 

It was as if... Things went back to how it was when I first heard the news that he died. " don't hide from me... " I murmured, feeling myself drained of energy. I collapse on the floor and look at the ceiling. My vision became blurry as another badge of tears flow. 

 

" please... Come back.. Please.. Don't go... " I whispered and squeeze my eyes shut and let out a shout before burying my face on Jonghyun's bed sheets. Why did you leave. Why can't you just be back.. Why did this happened... Why ? 

 

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Hey guys.

This is not really an update. 

I rewrote the note though. 

But expect a chapter soon !

It's either tomorrow or Friday ! 

:D