~*~Chapter 2~*~

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Luhan and Sehun grew closer and closer as the time passed by. They did everything together, except going to school. Luhan didn’t know why but he had never seen Sehun in his school, but he just assumed that Sehun was attending to another school.

Luhan never told his friends or parents about Sehun. It was like Sehun was being his secret friend and he liked it so much.

As him and Sehun got closer, Luhan would also develop another kind of feeling for Sehun.

He started to fall in love.

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“So, Luhan. How have you been lately?” the psychologist, who introduced himself as Kim Joonmyeon, asked Luhan.

Luhan dislike things that always are being the same; like him going to the psychologist and the psychologist always begins their meeting with the same question. ‘How have you been lately?’

During their whole meeting would the psychologist record and take notes on what Luhan was telling him. He would also tell Luhan that he was his friend.

Like a friend would record every single conversation you have.

“Bored, otherwise, fine” Luhan said, while playing with the pink pencil Joonmyeon had given to him.

“You’re taking your medicine as you should? You don’t have any bad dreams or anything else?” Joonmyeon didn’t look at Luhan once; he was all stuck up with whatever he was writing.

“Everything is fine. I’m taking my medicine and I haven’t had any bad dreams since I changed the medication” Luhan talked like a robot.

“And I don’t want to add anything”

Joonmyeon was still taking notes. What would he write that could possibly have a medical meaning?

“Minseok told me that you are still writing letters” Joonmyeon said, his voice was deep and serious.

Luhan made a mental note to kill Minseok for telling Joonmyeon about the letters.

“Is something wrong with that?” Luhan asked and Joonmyeon didn’t move a muscle in his face. It was still being in the same expressionless expression.

“There’s nothing wrong with that. I just want to make sure that you know that Sehun isn’t real” Joonmyeon explained.

“Correction; he was being real to me” Luhan said and looked at Joonmyeon with a serious look. Joonmyeon wrote something down, Luhan couldn’t help but wondering what exactly was being written inside the white notebook with the five letters written in black that formed his name “Lu Han”.

“He never existed on another place than inside your head.” Joonmyeon made eyecontact with Luhan for the first time.

“Luhan, you are mentally instable”

Luhan didn’t want to speak about what was being wrong inside his head. His whole life was already being circulated around that stupid illness of his.

“But I don’t know if you find it wrong with me writing letters or not” Luhan did his best to change subject.

“If it’s your way to handle with everything that has happened then continue to write. I don’t want you to live in the past, you have to move on sooner or later” Joonmyeon placed down his notebook and pencil.

Move on, that’s easier said than done.

“Maybe open your heart again and fall in love with someone else” Joonmyeon suggested.

Luhan nodded, he had never thought about it in that way. But there is one thing he never would tell Joonmyeon or Minseok.

He was being scared of everything. His mind was constantly playing games with him.

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Luhan got out from Joonmyeon’s room thirty minutes later. He was met by Minseok, who was sitting in the waiting room like always and waiting for their meeting to finish so they could have a lunch together.

“How did it go?” Minseok asked.

Luhan shrugged. “Okay, he wants me to move on from Sehun”

Minseok pattered on Luhan's shoulder. He didn’t have to say anything to make Luhan understand that Minseok also wished for Luhan to move on.

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They headed to their favorite-restaurant. Luhan ordered chicken with French fries and curry-sauce. And a coke of course. And Minseok ordered the same thing as Luhan.

“I have thought of getting a hobby” Luhan said and picked up one French fry with his fork.

Minseok only nodded but didn’t answer, instead was something behind Minseok’s head catching Luhan’s attention.

“Minseok, turn around. Look at the dark guy in the back of the line” Luhan said.

Minseok turned around and spotted the dark haired and tanned guy.

“Yeah, he was pretty hot” Minseok simply said.

Luhan bit his lip in disappointment when he realized that this was the first and probably last time he ever would see that boy.

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‘Dear Sehun,

I got a new psychologist today, Kim Joonmyeon.

He told me to move on from you.

But I don’t want to.

I don’t know how but, I loved you.

I still love you.

I was being so happy when I was with you, how come it all had to end?

How can be so stupid and love someone that only exists inside my head?

By the way, I saw a hot guy on the restaurant today with Minseok. But I will probably never see him again.

Love, Luhan’

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