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Siwon Centric

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Your silky hair
Your white t-shirt and sneakers
Your coy walk

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I still remember our first meeting as if that was happened yesterday and I have little secret about that, if not because of Leeteuk hyung pushed me for going into blind date with his friend maybe we’ll never ever meet, and the strange thing is, we supposedly not meet and not talk in the first place. You know, that day I almost cancelled my blind date with a guy named Ryeowook because I have a lot of things to do but Leeteuk hyung threatened if I’m not going to the blind date, he won’t let me entering our shared apartment, in the end, I agree to meet with Ryeowook whom I never met before. The bell's tinkling as sign someone entering the café and that is the first time I saw you. Standing at entrance with eyes traveled around the room, looking for someone. I glanced to other occupant inside the cafe and mostly came as couple only me whom sat alone. I glanced back at you, studying your feature secretly.

Smooth red hair, that’s the first thing from you that I’m notice. Who won’t? you practically the only person who have that hair color in this place and look so damn gorgeous despite that color wasn’t your natural color.  I had seen another person with same hair color with you yet only you who look perfect in that color as if since born you already have that color as your hair color. Your casual look, with simple white t-shirt and sneaker still make you look stunning, emphasize that you possessing natural beauty and outer appearance wasn't the factor that make you look beautiful or stunning and I think I’m smitten at you since first time I saw you standing at the cafe entrance. You suddenly look at me and my heart thumping louder. You smiled and walk to my direction but you failed to cover your nervousness and shyness, I can see it even on your walk. Unconsciously, I smoothen my hair, tried to look a bit neater and thought my blind date already coming,

“Kim...?” I asked, unsure because I suddenly forgot about everything after you sat across me, including my supposedly blind date name. “Yes.” You said and I’m glad I didn't cancel my blind date although now I regretting that. We talked about a lot of thing and often disagree with each other opinion but still and honestly I’m surprised we still have a lot of similarity. “So, are you Kim Ryeowook? Leeteuk hyung hoobae?” I finally realized all this time we keep talking without know each other's name except I know your family name was Kim, “No, I’m Kim Heechul. Are you Kim Jongwoon? Kyuhyun’s  friend?” You asked, “No. I’m Choi Siwon.” We burst in laughter after realize the mistake we made. We supposedly dating with someone else but yeah fate quite funny and we agreed to meet in another date and become lover. Later I heard from Leeteuk hyung that Ryeowook already got boyfriend and his name is Jongwoon. World is indeed small.

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I see you in my dreams but it doesn’t make my heart rush anymore girl
Just like how the strong coffee aroma disappears
You have faded as well, I’ve become indifferent
I was perfectly fine as I walked into this coffee shop
I’m used to it, the caramel scent that came from your body, right?

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Last night I dreamt about you, strangely, my heart didn’t thump as loud as usual every time I meet you. Was that mean my body had been adjusting with your absence in my life, Chullie? But once again I don’t think that's the exact reason, same like strong coffee aroma, although the scent no longer linger at air for my nose smelling it, but my mind and heart already recording the aroma. Same like you. My mouth kept saying you already faded from my life because my eyes no longer  seen you in front of me, my ears no longer hear your voice, my nose no longer smell you caramel body scent, my skin no longer touching your smooth skin, my lips no longer kissing you, but in my mind and heart, everything about you already imprinted. My senses still able to feel your presence even when I'm alone. You won't faded easily from my mind and heart, Chul, and that's the reason why I hate you because I’m sure only me who feel it but you weren't. I hate you Kim Heechul, finally my mouth saying it despite my heart and my mind protesting hard and both cried out I love you Kim Heechul repeatedly.

I’m not nervous anymore as I entering the coffee shop for nth time since you left me. I’m perfectly fine, even when the caramel scent inside the café fly entering my nostril. I already used to it.

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