What Siwon never thinks before…

Chapter: 9/10

Pairing: Sichul

Genre: romance

Rating: PG-13

Warning: bxb, unbeta, random, using translator, sometimes the title, summary and the story are contradictory to each other, mianhae...

Summary: Siwon always think he always knew what he want and do something he think he will do, but sometimes he only needed someone and some moment to make him do something he never think he will do before, want something he never think he want before. To love someone he never thinks he will love before.

Note: I enjoying make the conversation type story. Like question and answer type, hehehe. So, I’m so sorry if some of you not really fond with this type. And because this is fanfiction, just pretending that boy x boy love had become something common in society and not something weird or frown upon ^_^;

Another Warning : Nonsense chapter..Mianhae..T-T

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"I miss him, Kangin."

"You said you hate him."

"Did I?"

"Yes, when you come to my place while crying."

"Well, I'm not serious about that...I mean, it's really hurts when a person you care calling you with bad name."

"Seriously, how long you had known him?"

"Before we become roommate? Hum...A month. He becomes a model in my painting club before I quit. And I start to feel more comfortable with him since we become roommate. I don't know. Siwon's body seems like emitting distinctive auras that make me want to always touch him."

“Or that just you who always love touching person with nice body.” Kangin snickered, dodged a pillow that Heechul hurling to his direction.

“At least I never want to touch you although you has nice body.”

“Thank you. Finally you admitted I have y body.” Kangin laughed before fled from the room when Heechul lifting a heavy vase and threatened to throw that thing at him.

“I said nice body, not y.” Heechul huffed.

-==-

Henry looked around, scanning every number stamped on the apartment door in that floor. He stopped in front of the door with number matching with number on his paper. He ring the bell. A woman opened the door for him.

“Hello, ma’am. This flower for Kim.” He said cheerfully.

“Which Kim and from who?” asked the woman confusedly while receiving the flower from him.

“Kim Heechul and I can’t tell from whom. Have a nice day. Bye.” Henry literally fled before the woman could ask any further. She eyeing the flower in her hand, looking for card or something else that could stated the sender identity but after she didn't found anything, she retreated back to her room and put the flower on vase.

-===-

“Ah, I miss him and this isn’t funny at all. I acted like a love-struck teenager.” Heechul sighed.

“Seriously, if you saying that for the 50th times, I’ll kick your .” Kangin threatened. He could feel his ear will burst in no time if Heechul still whined about Siwon. “Stop playing with your food! that's disgusting.” Kangin scold again when Heechul just playing with his spaghetti. “I can’t believe a wild diva could turn into a clinging brat diva like this.”

“What do you mean?” Heechul snapped.

“Nothing.”

“Youngwoon.” Heechul narrowed his eyes, trying to look more serious.

“Your high school and university freshman lifestyle. I just was remembering that.”

“Oh.” Heechul’s expression softened. “I’m indeed so foolish back then.”

“Yeah and now you become more idiot because of love.” Kangin laughed.

“Youngwoon!”

And in the afternoon when they back to Kangin’s apartment, he indeed kicked Heechul’s because he mentioned about he missed Siwon for the 50th time. “I’ll throw out all of your manicure stuff if you still saying that. Stop saying that!” Heechul decided to follow Kangin’s order and instead of saying he missed Siwon, he sent text to Kangin every few minutes. He wrote that he missed Siwon in his text to Kangin. He grinned inside his room when he heard Kangin frustrated groan from inside the room next to his. “Kim Heechul, stop the ing text message right now or I’ll kill your cat!”

“My cat is in Seoul now you moron! You can’t kill him from here.” Heechul shouted back.

“I’ll send voodoo for your cat from here. He’ll die tomorrow.” Kangin retaliated.

“Idiot, voodoo couldn’t kill a cat!”

“Stupid, I’ll send the strongest voodoo!”

“Moron!”

“Empty brain!”

“Shut up boys! I want to sleep and I’m sure you don’t want to deal with me in deprived sleep mood.” Kangin's mother shouted while banged their door and in instant, their word's fights ended. Both of them understand how cranky the older Kim could be when she’s deprived sleep.

“Much better.” She suffled back to her room.

The next morning, Heechul found purple hyacinth on tall vase. A bit withered but still beautiful.

“Someone send that for you.” Kangin’s mother informed Heechul amidst talking on the phone with her husband.

“Who?”

“I don’t know.”

Heechul reached out, touching the purple petals softly. “Who sent you pretty flower?”

Today the same thing happened. When going to kitchen that night he found another flower inside the vase, Kangin’s mother leaves short notice that said the flower was for him. This time was Asphodel. “Did Kangin buy this?” thought him, but until late of night, Kangin didn’t back and when he texted him, Kangin didn’t replied.

“Maybe Siwon.” Said Kangin after Heechul got different flower for the third time and he come to him to get some explanation, “He want to apologize, but maybe he's too shy to say directly.”

“How can you so sure about that?”

“I talk to him yesterday.”

“How…you…”

“Listen this carefully, Chul and be thankful.”

-Flashback-

“Siwon, right?”

Siwon look up from his book when someone called his name and the caller is none other than Kangin. He nodded.

“Can we talk? I’m Kangin erm…Youngwoon.”

He nodded again.

“So I guess you know that Heechul stay with me now.” Kangin opened up the conversation the moment they sat down at campus cafeteria. “Because you sent flower for him to my flat.”

Siwon blushed, he thought he’ll remain a nameless flower sender but it seem he's wrong.

“Maybe you wondered, how can I know? it’s easy though, all of flower you send for him had similar meaning ‘I’m sorry.’ And the only person who fought with Heechul recently is only you, so of course I’ll know the sender is you, who else.” Kangin said nonchalantly, answering Siwon's unspoken question.

“Ah is that so. I’m sorry if I make you uncomfortable.”

“It’s okay. Besides, I indeed want to talk to you.” Kangin paused, silences surfaced. Siwon fiddled with his fingers, waiting Kangin to speak up again. “Do you know the reason why Heechul leave?”

Siwon nodded. “I think because I called him .”

“Exactly. Do you know why he dislikes that's word?”

Siwon shook his head.

“Well, I’ll tell you a bit about Heechul’s background because I assume you’re a good person, judging from Heechul’s story and your act to him, so you’ll understand the reason of his anger.” Kangin took a sip of his coffee first before started his story, “Heechul you know now isn’t Heechul that I know before.  He actually came from broken home family. His parents, his future stepmother and my mother are best friend. I know him since both of us still wearing diaper. When he 13 years old, big thing happened, his father found out that, his mother is cheating behind his back. They had big fight. Heechul ran to my house while crying. They divorced not long after. That thing is like a big punch for Heechul, he start being a rebel. His father married again and despite his stepmother really loves Heechul but the scar from his parent's divorces is too deep for him. 16 years old, he already was drinking alcohol and smoking. Nightclub is his playground; don’t ask about why he could entering that place although he’s underage. Money could solve every problem you know. Different boyfriend everyday isn’t new thing for him but the funny thing is, he never kissed his boyfriend moreover have with them.” Kangin paused again.

“So, how can he change?” Siwon asked impatiently. He never knew, behind Heechul’s cheerful and sometimes too optimistic attitude lies dark past like that.

“Patient, I’ll explain later.” Kangin chuckled, “He knew his boyfriend only want his money so he give what they want as long as they keep their hands off of his body. Until we entering university, he still maintaining his bad habit and the other people already judging him as a just because he changing boyfriend as often as changing clothes, but another big blow happened. Do you had heard about a suicide that done by freshman year student in west hall?”

Siwon nodded, that news was spreading around like a wildfire in university.

“Well, that man actually likes Heechul but in psychotic way. He had stalked Heechul since high school, he entering this university because of Heechul. He had confessed his feeling but being rejected. He kidnapping Heechul. Fortunately, a group of soccer player seen that and chase him, he ended suicide by jumping from the rooftop and we found Heechul inside a room at attic which full with anything related to Heechul, from his picture until his used chewing gum. Heechul a bit depressed after that. His roommate said he never comes out from his room if not needed but maybe the constant attention his stepmother gives to him could ease the trauma he had and he become Heechul you know now.” Kangin took another sip, “It’s unbelievable, right? Don’t worry; I still couldn’t believe that until now.” He commented after Siwon seem couldn’t give any comment.

“H-How…But how you guys can be engaged?”

“Nah, it’s just our parent's silly games, they say, maybe if Heechul engaged with me, he’ll stop his bad habit. Trust me, Heechul loves you and not me.”

Siwon blushed again after hearing Kangin’s word, but one particular thing kept bugging him and make him couldn’t help but ask, “Do you love Heechul, Kangin?”

Kangin smiled, he had expected that kind of question from Siwon, “Yes I love him but not in romantic way. My love for him is platonic. Brotherly loves. But I’m sure your loves for him is in romantic way. Am I right, Siwon?”

“How you could be so sure that I love Heechul?”

“I just know and I usually right. Don’t worry; He’ll back, not only to your apartment but also back to you.”

-End of Flashback-

Heechul gaped, he still couldn’t believe his ears, and did Kangin just tell his past story to Siwon and implicative saying that Siwon also loves him? He looks at his grinning friend with incredulous look.

“Go ahead. Say, thank you Kangin, you’re the best person in whole world.”

“Do you know that right now I want to kiss and kill you in same time?” Heechul asked tonelessly.

“I know.” Kangin still grinned. “I had told my mother that I don’t want to continue this engagement and you know what she say, she actually came here to give us news that we could decide the future of our engagement, whether we’ll continue or stop. Your stepmother whom gave that idea.”

“But why auntie didn’t say that earlier?”

“You know my mother, Chul. She don’t want to lose you. She loves you more than she loves me, his biological son.” Kangin took of the ring from his finger motioning Heechul to take off his own ring. “We’re free. And now you better back to your old apartment before I kicked you out.”

“What will I say to Siwon?” Asked Heechul confusedly.

“Anything you want to say to him or you can hug him, kiss him and tadaa, you’re live happily ever after with him.”

“You make that sounds less happy.” Heechul's deadpanned.

“Because I indeed not serious. Now leave!”

“Can I stay a day longer? I still need to compose my feeling.”

“No. Sungmin will come so you better leave.”

“Lee Sungmin? But you say you’re not close with him.”

“Do you really believing everything that comes out from my mouth, Chul?” with a strong shoved, Heechul found himself standing on outside of Kangin’s apartment.

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TBC

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