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Siwon Centric

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By myself, I hum along to the song I like to listen to everyday
By myself, I walk in between these familiar buildings

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Hm…Let’s see, I think I still remember your favorite song although your favorite song always changed every day and I’m confused actually which one that really your favorites. “All of them,” you’ll replied shortly, eyes never leaving the iPod's screen on your hand. “In this little device I had created a playlist that consist of my favorite song, you can play it when you bored or have nothing to do, okay.” You said again. Your round eyes, the eyes that I love were look at me with high excitement. I nodded. The playlist still stay inside the device but you who wasn't stay beside me.

 I chose ‘Beautiful’ to be your favorite song today, a song from one member of your favorite boy group whom you claimed cute and childish like 5 years old kid with feature like a fish. Choosing in this case was quite wrong actually, because almost two weeks in a row I play this song every morning. We used to dance with this song as background music, we used to kiss with this song as background music, we used to… I stopped on my track, there’s a lot of thing we used to do with this song as background music, now I understand why you put this song on top of other song, this song is your favorite song. Obviously. This song even beat ‘Close your mouth’ song in your favorite list. "Stupid me," I scolding myself, "Why I just realized it now?"

Humming along the song as I walking downs the same street heading to same place, yet I never get bored. Passing a familiar flower shop, I couldn’t help but stop and bought your favorite flower. Do you still love white lily? I hope you still love that flower.  I continued my journey, passing the same familiar building, nothing changed and nothing different in physical appearance but I know, deep down of my heart, nothing is same anymore since you left. Do you ever realize, how big your impact for my life? I questioning after put down the lily’s bouquet and leave as fast as possible, I still couldn’t stay longer than few minutes in front of your new house. I can’t let you see my tears, I must strong. Not for you anymore, but I must strong for myself and for memories about us that I still keep close in my heart.

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Monday, Tuesday, Everyday
I get by and I am well
I meet up with a lot of friends
These days, a lot of things make me laugh

Summer,Winter,Spring & Fall
Time goes so fast
But why I am at the same place
Waiting for you?

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What day is it? Oh yeah, it’s Monday. You used to say that you hate Monday and I know that, because you refused to wake up early on Monday. I should lure you with good coffee, delicious breakfast and extra kiss to make you get up from that bed and prepared for go to work but now, the Monday morning ritual never happened anymore. If you ever think I’m drowning myself inside misery after you left, I suggesting for you to start think otherwise. I’m perfectly fine in Monday, Tuesday or in every day after you leave. Okay, I admit I was feels like a ship on stormy sea after you left, without direction without destination but I can pass it now and as you can see, I am doing well. I meet a lot of new friends and my old friends always make me laugh these days. Everything is fine. Maybe you’ll ask, “Why did you still reminiscing our memories if you had live well?”  And I'll answer, because that's the point of memory for us though. A memory was created so we could reminisce the past, the sweet or the bitter memories, and for me, our memories had the perfect combination of bitter and sweet memory.

One year has passed yet I still here, waiting for miracle to bring you back to me. I'm so pathetic, aren't I?. My body maybe already moves on, but my heart and my mind …I don’t think so. I smiled to myself when memories of our first meeting surfaced. The meeting that I’m more than gladly to cancel if I know I’ll become like this after you left. I don't mean to blame you but I'm already sick blaming myself though, so yeah, now you become the antagonist character in my mind. Will you forgive me?

-TBC-

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