Stupid Me....

Do You Ever Love Me?

I knocked the door. Three times. I could here some noise comes from inside his house. It seems so fun and lively. Maybe I can meet his twins cousin today! Excited...excited!

Someone unlocked the door. 

"Its okay, I will open the door.....just sit there," this voice....sounds familiar. It sounds so delighted.
"Hyunhee?" 

"Yeseul?????" both of us look at each other with shock expression.

Why Yeseul is inside Myungsoo's house? What is happening now???

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Yeseul? Why Yeseul is here? Myungsoo never brought any friends other than me and Eunhae. I tried to take a slight peek into Myungsoo's house. From the noise I could tell that they are more people in there and I think I heard voices of INFINITE. Did INFINITE and Yeseul come to Myungsoo's house today? He never mentioned it to me before. Or they just come here abruptly as a surprise for Myungsoo? Ohhh Im so curious right now ==

"Yeseul.....who's there at the front door," I heard Myungsoo's voice. From the step, I know he is coming to the front door, where both of us stand. 

Myungsoo opened the door slightly, so that he could see me outside his house. He looked at me.....and he looked shocked too like us. 

"Hyunhee~ah....wasseo??" Myungsoo asked me. I nodded my head a little. He took my hand and lead me to the living room while Yeseul closed the door and then followed us to the living room too.

 

Ohhh...this is the first time I saw many people in Myungsoo's living room. It is packed with INFINITE members, but of course there are still more spaces here and there. Sunggyu and Woohyun were reading a newspaper together, while Sungjong was looking through his smartphone, Hoya, Sungyeol and Dongwoo just chit chat with one another. From the noise Dongwoo's and Sungyeol's voice were the noisiest. They looked so happy. But then.....

"NOONA! Noona, you are here," Sungjong looked at me with twinkling eyes. He came to me and hugged me. Haha his expression just too cute that unconsciously I also hugged him back. I really really cannot hate this boy. 

While Sungjong and Woohyun looked happy with my existence, the other 4 guys looked bothered with my existence. Instantly, their expression looked cold and annoyed. Seriously I dunno why they hate me so much....am I doing something hateful to them. Not only that, I also dunno why Sungjong really really like me to the extend that I cant understand it. 

 

I looked at Myungsoo, and he knows I need some explaination from him. He just squeezed my hand and nod his head means he will explain later. Suddenly Mrs. Kim came to us from the kitchen.

"Good morning kids. I'm sorry because I made all of you wait so long. Breakfast is done, do serve yourselves ok. Myungsoo never brought his friends home so Im quite surprise because he is indeed got many friends, right Myungsoo. Come, come...follow me to the kitchen," Mrs. Kim looked so happy with the amount of visitor that come to her house. Of course she will be happy because she always complain whenever i came to her house that Myungsoo seems like a loner, did other students bullying him thats why he never had any friends. What Mrs, Kim dunno was, Myungsoo is very popular and he is not loner just he is not that friendly except for this year....maybe?

"Its really kind of you Mrs. Kim, we told you we already had our breakfast this morning," Sunggyu said with his cute smile.

 

"Yeah. But because you insist all of us to have breakfast now....we will just eat it," then Sungyeol said with his bright smile too. They seems like an angel in front of Mrs. Kim.

Actually all of them are indeed angels......exept in front me. *Sigh*. I dunno why they treated me like this =.=

All of them stand up and walking towards the kitchen. Yeseul looked at Myungsoo, then she also followed them to the kitchen. Mrs. Kim also wanna go to the kitchen then she noticed my presence. 

"Oh..my lovely Hyunhee, when are you coming?" I bowed a bit at Mrs. Kim and smile at her.

"Just now ommonim," I answered her.

"Come lets have breakfast with them together, I think I cooked enough for all of us," 

"Its ok ommonim, I already had my breakfast just now. Im still full actually, you know right how much I eat for breakfast," I shook my head a bit.

 

Mrs. Kim just smile a bit and said, "Ok my dear, just come anytime if you are hungry ok....you know right this house is also like your house," I nodded my head, then Mrs. Kim went to the kitchen to check on INFINITE and Yeseul. 

Then I looked at Myungsoo. My expression seems blur and like nothing happen but I know Myungsoo already knows me inside out and knows what my feeling already. He took my hand and asked me to sit beside him. He looked at me, not with shocked expression like just now but now he looked at me with tiny smile. Without releasing my hand, he looked at me and opened his mouth.

"I'm sorry. I know I promised you to teach you Maths today right. But all of them also needs my help in Maths, so I asked them to come here today so that I can teach all of you in once. You are not mad at me right, Hyunhee~ah?" Myungsoo looked at me with worried face.

"Its ok for you to bring your friends home but why you never tell me about this. You can at least told me that they will be coming here today Myungsoo,"

"Im sorry, we decided about this last night, after midnight. And I also think that you will be ok with this eventhough Im not telling you," Myungsoo looked sad.

 

I looked at his sad face. Am I acting weird today? Am I acting like a clingy girlfriend today? Oh no, I should not act like that! If I act like that, Myungsoo will hate me. I took his hand and smiled at him. "No Myungsoo, its ok. Because I think, the more the merrier, dun worry ok," then Myungsoo gave me such a sweet smile. 

As we ended our conversation, they already finished their breakfast and came out from the kitchen one by one. Myungsoo looked at them with a smile and said, "Lets do our homework inside my room, I think it is more convenient to do it there. Right Hyunhee?" I just nodded my head to him. 

Myungsoo walked to them and led them to his room. I waited until all of them vanished from my sight after climbing up the stairs. I sighed. I thought today will be a good day to be alone but i think Im wrong for today. Its ok. Both Myungsoo and Mrs. Kim looked very happy with their presence. I guess I should be happy too, after all they are still Myungsoo's friends right. 

I carried my backpack and climbed the stairs to join them. 

 

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Emmmm....emmmm......emmmmm. I tapped my chin with the pen that I hold. Why this question seems so difficult. My mind become so blank. What kind of equation I should use for this question? I already stucked with this question for past 15 minutes. I patted Myungsoo's shoulder lightly, then he looked at me expressionless. I gave him such a stupid grin and tapped my paper, pointing at question number 1. 

"Myung, I cannot do this question...can you help me?"

"Sure Hyunhee. Lets see. You should do it like this, ok?" Myungsoo teached me patiently.

"Oh like that, now I got it! Thanks Myung," then I took back my paper and continue to solve question number two. 

All of them looked so absorbed with all the Maths thing. And from the way their pens scribbled, I could see that the question not that difficult for them. No wonder all of them are in Class 1. Myungsoo also concentrated to his paper. Because I know about Myungsoo's ability, so this kind of scene not a surprise to me. He always done his work 1 hour earlier than me then after that he will teached me how to answer the question. If Myungsoo not there for me, I think I will never finish the homework. 

I read the second question. Emmmm.....emmmmm...I know this question. I know, Madam Shim taught us about this in the last class. But I just cannot understand it. How to solve this question? I'm ready to call out for Myungsoo now but.....

"Myungsoo...how to do this question. I cannot understand the problem in question number 15," Yeseul showed her paper to Myungsoo. Myungsoo looked at it and teached her. She already at question 15...wahhh she is sooo fast. No wonder people called her all around goddess. Good in appearance and also in study.

 

I waited for them to finish the question then I will asked Myungsoo. 

"Myung.........,"

"L! Teach me how to do this....I think my head gonna burst anytime because of this question," Sungyeol cut the line! It should be me that needs to ask him now.

Ok, after Sungyeol, it will be me. But even after Sungyeol, other INFINITE members also asked Myungsoo for other questions. To avoid this awkward feeling, I tried to scribble useless words or drawing on my paper, wait for my chance to asked him. They already did almost half of the paper as the paper got 25 questions. I could tell that almost all of them already at question number 20. I felt so restless now. Im still at question 2. I still got 24 questions to solve by today but all of them almost finish it.

I tried to call or ask Myungsoo to look at me but he will look at me and said, "Wait ok Hyunhee, I will solve Hoya's question first," I nodded weakly at him.

 

Suddenly, Woohyun who sits beside me took my paper and looked at it. Woohyun smiled at me, "Come I will teach you how to solve this question," I looked at him with twinkling eyes while nodding my head nonstop. 

Maybe Woohyun noticed how restless I am since before and maybe he could not stand it, thats why he is willing to help me. At least now I can move to the next question. I bowed my head a bit and thanked Woohyun. Ok now lets solve question number 3. Lalalala....

Suddenly......" I'm done, YEAH!!!"

"I also done my work. This is so difficult,"
"I also done ok, this is just a piece of cake," Hoya, Sungyeol, and Sunggyu said.

They already done this paper? This 25 killer questions?

"Haha I also done with this work. Thanks Myungsoo for teaching me," Yeseul said with her sweet voice.

"Come on Dongwoo, Sungjong, and Woohyun.....we should arrive early at the cinema, otherwise we cant watch the full movie," Sungyeol urged three of them to finished it by now. 

Cinema? Movie? Are they wanna going out again for today? I looked at Myungsoo, he already packed his things. 

"We already at the last question, wait for a minute ok," Dongwoo answered them while his hand cannot stop from writing. 

"Done!" 'Done!" "Done!" all three of them said in unison. Arghhh!! They already finished the paper while I still stucked at question number 3. I looked at Myungsoo, he also seems like he is getting ready to go out with them. Whats actually going on here? Are they going out for today again? Like last time?

 

"Myungsoo......where are you going? Im not done with this paper yet," Myungsoo looked at me with....emmmmm, I cant tell about his expression.

Sunggyu looked at Myungsoo and said, "Come on Myungsoo, lets go. That movie gonna start soon," Myungsoo looked at both of us. INFINITE looked annoyed, while I looked so sad. 

"All of you wait for me at the living room first ok, then I will join all of you soon," Myungsoo said to them. All of them nodded their head and started to exit his room. 

Myungsoo sit beside me again and asked for my paper. He looked at it and teach me step by step. But from his tone I know he is not excited and seems like he is forced to teach me. After he done teached me the question, I asked him, "Cinema? You never told me that all of you will going out today," 

"We decided to watch movie after we finish with our homework," he answered me with low voice. Then i took back my paper and read question 4. 

Of course and surely I cannot do this question, without further much of waiting like before i asked him the question. I shoved the paper to him.

He took it and looked at it, "Hyunhee.....seriously? This is question number 4 and it is so easy. Why you cannot solve it, you just need to do this and this and its done," Then he continue, " I told you right, dont sleep in the class, listen to what the teachers said so that you will be not lost right now, understand? And lets do this quickly, I cannot let them wait for me any longer," his words not sound that harsh but why it seems like it pierced through my heart.

I know and he knows that I will not sleeping in the class except for History subject. He knew that I like Maths, its just i cannot understand the problem. He knew it! He always teach me....nope! Not always but he is the only one that teach me since we are in kindergarten and he never sounds like he pissed off like this. 

Eventhough he always teach me but he never said like this. He never.

I took my paper from him harshly. "I'm really really sorry if you think I'm too stupid which even for the first 4 questions i cannot solve it. And I'm sorry because I always sleep in the class that lead me to stupidity. If you dont wanna teach me today, just say it you cannot teach me today. You can just simply tell me you are busy today, you got plan with INFINITE and Yeseul and you dont have time for me today. Stop wasting your time on me and go to them....they will be more annoyed if we still sitting here to solve this question that just a piece of cake for all of you," I'm not saying it with sad tone but more with hurt feeling. I packed my things quickly because i cannot wait any longer. I think I cannot breath if I still stay here. 

I sling my backpack and quickly exited the door.

"Hyunhee......wait!" I could sense that Myungsoo was chasing after me. 

At the living room, all of them look at me with weird expression. Because even from my face plus with Myungsoo's word they know something happen between us. I looked at them, but the longer I looked at them, I felt more hurt. My tears are already threatening to burst out from my eyes. Before they see me cried like a stupid girlfriend of Myungsoo, I better get out now.

"Hyunhee~ah, going home already?" Mrs. Kim asked me from nowhere.

I nodded a bit and said with so much difficulty, trying to hide the tears, "Yeah ommonim. Thank you and goodbye," I dashed towards the door and went outside. I'm not even stop my steps eventhough I already out from his house. 

I just go straight to my house while my tears slowly flow out from my eyes. I dunno, whether I'm too sensitive today or Myungsoo too carefree today. Why I'm crying? I also dunno why, I just know that Myungsoo seems like a different people just now.

"Noona you already home?" Hyunsoo greeted me with his cute voice. 

I ran to him and hugged him tightly. "Yeah, noona already home because noona misses you too much," I cried silently while hugging Hyunsoo tightly. At least Hyunsoo still care for me.

 

*Annyeonghaseyo......
sorry for such a late update.....seriosuly i could only update this fanfic when im quite free or i feel like i wanna run away from my assignments...kekeke
Thanx for new subbies, new readers, and all of you that read this fanfic ^^ *

 

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