The Boy to my Right, The Girl to my Left
Apples and Butterflies
Stealing glances
For a few brief seconds
I dare to look to my right
To catch a glimpse of him
Blonde hair
Furrowed brows
Dark brown eyes
Pouted lips
Boyish smile
For the last 2 years
I’ve been stealing glances
At a boy sitting across the aisle from me
Across the aisle
Lately I find myself
Studying the girl sitting to my left
Across the aisle from me
Dark brown locks
Doe eyes
Flushed cheeks
Pink lips
Angelic smile
Wondering why nobody noticed she was pretty.
Along the Corridors
In the morning
I would pass him by
As he hung out with his friends
Along the corridors
In the short-lived moment
That he was within arms reach
I would feel butterflies in my stomach.
A feeling I would carry the whole day
And in my sleep.
Pass me by
I thought I was popular with the girls
But she seems to be an exception
She would pass me by along the corridors
Without even a smile nor an awkward hi
I’m not an attention seeker
But really, is she ignoring me?
Somehow I felt this as a blow to my ego.
And I don’t know why it bothers me.
Invisible
I dare not speak to him nor even smile at him.
Why would I?
I don’t think he even notices me
Who would?
I’m a nerd. He’s a jock.
He’s popular. I’m not.
I look okay. He’s hot.
I hang out in the library
and my friends are the librarian, the lunch lady
and the janitor who locks up after class.
I fly below radar in stealth-mode.
My status: Invisible
Waiting
I think she’s oblivious to my presence.
But then why would she take interest in me?
I’m just a jock.
I’m just good at shooting hoops.
I fool around and get detention.
While she’s smart.
She’s always the top in every test.
Teachers like her.
Everyday I would throw glances at her
Waiting for her to notice me.
And it still beats me why I want her to.
A girl’s dream
Everyday I steal a glance at him
And my heart would skip a beat
His dark eyes
Seem to reach my soul
His smile
Makes my knees go weak
I am like moth to his fire
Like an apple falling for gravity
But in reality he is just a dream
A boy’s dream
Everyday she passes me by
Leaving me with a trail of butterflies
Her hair sways
As if carried by a breeze
Her pretty face
Matches her beautiful heart
She’s a goddess, an angel
while I am just a boy
And to me she’s like a dream
Just my luck
I was coming out from the library
Carrying a pile of books
But I was such a klutz
So I tripped
I was silently cursing my luck
As I tried to gather the scattered books
I was surprised when someone helped me
Serendipity
It was an accident of fate
When I saw her trip
I came forward to help her
And she looked surprise when she saw me
As we finished stacking the books again
She stood up to leave but before she walked away
She smiled at me shyly.
“Thanks, Jiyong.”
I felt my heart skip a beat.
She knew my name.
Across the aisle
Omo! I talked to him today.
My heart has been racing since then.
Will he find it weird
That I knew his name?
Oh dear! I said his name.
I felt my cheeks blush.
I slowly turned to look
Across the aisle to my right
And saw him staring at me
With a smile on his face
Stealing glances
I’ve been stealing glances
To my left at her
Waiting for her to throw me a glance
The happy feeling of her knowing my name
hasn’t left me yet
and I’m like an idiot smiling.
So she knows me
Slowly she turned to look at me
Her pink cheeks blushed further
To my right
I look to my right and smile
Knowing he’s just across from me
Staring at me with a smile on his face
I could look at him now
If only I could speak up
And tell him how I feel
To my left
Watching the girl to my left
has become addicting
because everytime she’ll look my way
she’d smile
if only I could get to know her more
Surprise
After classes
I hurried to gather my stuff
So I could go home
I was surprised when I found him
by the schoolgate
Soon he was walking beside me
As he took my books to carry
I turned to look at him
And he was smiling at me.
I smiled back.
Start
I felt the need to get to know her
So I decided to walk her home
And start from there
But I don’t know what to say to her
So I just smiled at her
Thankfully she smiled back.
I was hoping it was a good sign.
Because I am getting used to her smiles.
Visible
The walk home was silent
But I was getting deaf
with the loud beating of my heart
Standing outside my house
He turned to me before he left
“See you tomorrow Dara.”
He knew my name.
As if suddenly I wasn’t invisible.
Realize
We walked in silence
But somehow I felt
It was the most meaningful conversation
I have ever had.
Weird, but her nearness is comforting
Yet exhilarating at the same time.
I felt a stirring in my heart I haven’t felt before.
And realized what it just might be.
Walking in silence
Walking home with him has become a habit
A habit which I do not wish to break
It starts with a smile and ends with a smile
The gaps filled by a long silence,
Where we both struggle for something to say
But couldn’t
But really, walking in silence is not so bad
When walking beside the boy I secretly love.
The silence is actually comforting,
To balance out the loud pounding of my heart.
Because breaking the silence
Is something I am too cowardly to do
Silent conversation
Everyday I’d walk her home
The silence lingering around us
In my head, I struggle for words
to say how I feel
Afraid that if I speak incorrectly
She would disappear
Everyday, we’d exchange smiles
Hoping that for the meantime it was enough
And that meaningful silence
would pass for conversation
Musings
I wish I knew what’s on your mind
If you think of me
The way I think of you
Your silence scares me
But when you smile
I feel reassured
Patience seems to escape from me
As I wait to hear your words so sweet
But I must wait
And pray that my lips remain sealed
Uncertain of what to expect from you
I fear of love unreturned
Hurt me not for my heart is frail
And I may never recover
(with much faith I hope otherwise)
But for now, it’s enough for me
that everytime I turn to look
you are there
and even in obscurity
I’m happy
Breaking the silence
The silence has been hanging around us for a while
And it’s about time I break it
I’ve found the words I have wanted to say
Hoping they were enough
to say how I feel about her
Hoping they mean to her
how much they mean to me
3 words
I Love You
Dara
I was much too happy to speak
My heart felt like bursting
I was tearing up even as I smile
I did not know 3 words could move me as much
4 words
I love you too
Jiyong
I didn’t know happiness could be found
In her 4 words
The boy to my right
I was smiling at the boy
From whom I’ve been stealing glances to my right
And whom I passed by along the corridors
The boy who walked with me in silence
Whose 3 words were enough for me
I reached for his hand
Entwining mine
They fit perfectly
The girl to my left
I was smiling at the girl
Who sat to my left across the aisle from me
Who has been passing me by
The girl who walked with me in silence
And made me happy with 4 words
I leaned in
And our lips
Fit perfectly
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