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Letter to Lee Jinki

Hi. Here I am again. Writing you another letter that I know you won't be able to read – ever. Sigh. On the background now, Selene 6.23 is playing. Truthfully, I want to slap Jonghyun. Why? Because he writes songs which slap all the fangirls with the reality. Damn. SHINee singing about a love that can never be reciprocated. Are you kidding me? You are the one who actually won't ever reciprocate our love – no, spare me the other members. I am just talking about you, Lee Jinki. I hope you know that all the words you and your members utter on that song, are actually what I want to say to you, and the exact same thoughts I have – and my feelings as well.

I went back to my first letter to you and I realized I wrote it there that I think it is really impossible to see you in real life. Well, guess what? Exactly 11 days from now, I will finally see you on stage. You and the rest of the members in flesh. Are you excited? LOL. But I am so excited – and nervous – and everything.

All my friends are excited for me as well. They say things like I should do this and that. Be like this and that, and have like this and that. But, do you know what is the only thing I want to do? It's to just stare at you and remember your face in through my memory. I just want to see you standing there, smiling, and performing cooly. In short, I just really want to see you – and appreciate how beautiful you are up close – in personal.

There was this part on my letter when I told you I just want you to look at me for 3 seconds. Scratch that. Right now, as opportunity is given to really see you in person, I won't ask for that anymore. I mean, it's fine not to look at me. There are lots of fans so I know you won't be able to do it – and of course, I don't want to expect that would happen.. coz disappointments do hurt a lot, okay? So there – as plain as seeing you smile in front of everyone. I think that isn't so hard to achieve.

Wow. I am suddenly speechless. I keep listeningon Selene that I just have to stop and appreciate everything – all the time. I don't know.. AH. I guess I should just end it here – immediately. LOL

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Fakihin #1
Chapter 8: That is what i'm hoping too for next year. To see him before he go. Your letter is making me sad..i'm sure you're going to make it happen. All the best:)
bao-baek #2
Chapter 8: your letters are like all i ever wanted to say to my bias ugh it made me cry. this is such a beautiful letter. HOPE SOMEDAY JINKI READS THIS AND REALISED HOW IMPORTANT HIS EXISTANCE IS TO HIS FANS WHEN HE FEELS DOWN
Einjhel #3
Chapter 6: Saeng, I'm reading this one again. It reminds me of ALL the feelings I had for Jinki... , for Taemin and Jonghyun that I really like..., for SHINee that had been my strength when I was at my saddest moments. It brings all the memories back. Memories that were sooooo wonderful. I was becoming busy these years that I almost forgot that I was once a Shawol. Thank you so much Eloi. :)
sparkbunny #4
Chapter 5: God, your letters are beautiful author-nim (can I call you eonnie?). I can feel your love for Jinki in every sentence.

I know how you feel since I'm Onew-biased and I love him too.okay, this is gonna sounds so weird, The thought of him dating another artist kinda upsets me, bit I find myself feeling okay if he dates you since I can feel your love for him.

Sorry for my rambling, you really are a good writers ;w;
Onewyeobo #5
Chapter 5: SM is overworking shinee for money so that they can make up the lost that SuJu will make since almost half of them are going for military service... As much as I appreciate seeing my oppas on stage a lot, this is just too much. They haven't had a rest since dream girl. They're commuting from Korea to Japan almost everyday. They'll be promoting everybody for the rest of the year with JAT still going on and there will be another J-comeback in December. It is the time for shinee to rest. SM should stop. Like seriously, stop. They're putting their health at stake.
silentlydreaming1209 #6
Chapter 4: I think I should go grab Onew as soon as he lands in the airport and bring him to you. Nevermind being jailed.
silentlydreaming1209 #7
Chapter 3: i'm crying too much with these saeng... aigoo.. you are making me cry... i know you love him so much.. how i really wish he would know about your love for him...
suicidal-smiles #8
Chapter 1: Hey.
I'm crying and hiccuping like crazy at the 4 at this dark night. (Its almost morning). It made me mess, I don't even know why. But thank you, I felt like somebody finally understands me.
I love you.
noona4minho #9
Chapter 3: Dear Eloi...This is the 4th time I'm reading this, seriously! Maybe I should've DMed you, but...I have no idea what to say anyway..there are just too many words to say, so better NOT hahaha Wth is wrong with me??? Just wanna say that somehow, we have something in common [not about Jinki, I swear XD...Eloi=Jinki, Me=Minho :p] I've been writing letters too, so many, to my dearest Choi Minho ^^
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