Hello

Here we go again. It’s been so long since the last time I wrote to you but I felt like I owe myself this letter before you go. Well, honestly, I’m writing this not for you, but for myself, for my peace of mind. Haha.

I wasn’t able to keep a promise to myself: to send you off. One, I don’t have the means yet. I just got regularized from my job and turning a year in January. Got some savings, yes, but travelling isn’t on the priority list yet. Two, even if I decide to see you, you chose to enter quietly without updates on when and where exactly it will be. That’s why I chose to send you off through this letter.

A lot of people who read these letters will understand why it would be hard for me to send you off. I started feeling emotionally numb again that everytime I remember you’re leaving, it stabs my heart, then I forget about it, and then I remember that you’ll be gone in almost two years and it stabs me again. The cycle goes on and on that I don’t know when this reality will sink in. Even now, as I write this, I know you’re leaving tomorrow but it feels surreal. Is this really happening? Yes, this is, Eloi. Wake up.

So I’d like to say thank you for giving us “VOICE”. For granting us that one wish we had for so many years just before you go and leave us in vain for more than two years. I know I’m getting unnecessarily emotional because you’ll come back anyway, but still, I’m not used on not having you around. Well, yeah, you were never literally around me but you know, it’s just like that. Haha. Thank you for giving us seven songs filled with your voice alone. Thank you for giving us songs that best represents you as an artist and as a person. I know I’m biased so my review on your songs will never do justice but really, I just love them all. I’ll listen to them first thing in the morning and last thing before I go to sleep. That’s how much I love, and that’s how much I can do in order not to miss you so much. It will be just less than two years without any activities. You’re just away from the stage, away from the cameras, but you’ll be just fine. You’ll return to us. You’ll return more handsome, a lot manlier, and ier? Haha Just the weird me is thinking that when you return, you’ll be a lot bulkier than you are now, my goodness, what am I saying?

And while you are away I’ll be focusing on myself more. I’d start creating the best version of myself. I’d make myself more beautiful, and I’d start saving up to be richer, so when you return, I’d have the means to see you on your first comeback. I definitely will. I’m not sure what will happen to me in 2 years. Will I finally get myself a boyfriend since you’re out of my sight? Or will your voice just always remind me that you’re the only one for now. I don’t know, but right now, all I’m sure of, is that I’ll still be here when you return. I’ll love you still when that day comes.

I am not going to look forward to tomorrow. Instead, I’ll look forward to the day that you’re returning to us, all smiles, proud that you finished your military duty – like a man.

I love you, Lee Jinki, my sunshine! I’ll see you when you’re back!

- Eloisa