JK, 

One of my favorite hobbies is to look at you. Nothing special, but your own existence. Whenever I don't have anything to do, I just find myself longing for your face, so I spend my time looking at your pictures. 

I would have different reactions from time to time: You look chubby in one picture. You look y on the other pictures. I like it when you style your hair up. I also like it when you have your fringe down. I like it when you smile so bright your eyes almost disappear. I also like it when you stare straight at the camera as if you're sending in message only someone special would understand. 

But after all those things going in my head, I go down to one thought: How did I end up liking you this much? I don't even know how much I like you but yeah, why you, of all people? 

It's been almost 8 years, and everytime I think about it, I just know nothing has changed. If there is, then it's that I like you more than before. I feel like I like you even more and more each other. There was never a day that I don't stop just to think of you. In my prayers, I would always include that I hope I dream of you. I've never liked anyone else - not even someone I have around me for rea.. Why, you, of all people, the one I can't even touch? 

Well, maybe, it would really be good if you could get to see these letters, so you would know that I like you, although I would prefer that you don't know who I am. I just want you to know how you touch someone's like as big as you touched mine. My dreams have formed with so much influence coming from you. You are the person I look up to. You are the person I want to be. I really don't know how much a like you, and I don't want to ask myself anymore on when I'm going to stop liking you. I don't think I can. I don't think I ever will. 

I would have ended this letter already but I remember reminding you of something: Not that I'm not satisfied with your performance in DOTS, but I hope you do even better on this drama! I know I know... I know you probably will have lots of skinship in this drama but fine I can take it. I just want you to potray it sooo very well. I know you will do great, and I hope, above anyone else, you won't disappoint yourself. Don't forget to have fun while doing it, although I know you already know it. I can't wait to watch you on drama again. Aug 25 is supposedly my last day at work. I haven't passed my resignation but if I do within this week, then Aug 25 will be my last day. I don't know if you're suggesting that I go or if you're actually stopping me. But anyways, good luck!

143.

- your fangirl