Hi Jinki...

Maybe it's just the medicine kicking in that is making me so dramatic and emotional, but yeah, I've been like this for the past couple of days. Not too sad, thought, but I can't seem to get over the fact that soon, you'll be entering the army. 

It's not too soon, though. I just saw you'll be entering next year. No month yet. Surely after a huge SHINee concert. I'm guessing you'll go 2nd half of 2018 the earliest, which means I still have more or less a year to prepare for it. But still, the fact that it's going to happen is making me feel sad. I know I shouldn't. I can't help it. 

I'm not in good shape for the past few days. Let me tell you what. I feel like I stopped being in good shape after graduating from college. I've done so many stuff way back in college and I didn't even get sick, but right now, I keep getting weak. I keep wanting to rest. You don't have anything to do with it though, just thought about sharing it. 

I hope I could be there once you enter the army. I want to go, although I know I will just be very sad. I'm going to Korea next year. I don't have the money yet, hahaha but I promise you I will go there - be it a SHINee concert or the day you'll enter the army. I haven't decided yet, but I'll certainly be there next year. I promised myself I'll see you before you go. I definitely will. 

And then while you're away, I'll sort myself out.