I do not want this!

Behind the scene

The boys did their make up and dressed for the upcoming interview.

The interview was placed in a big balcony where they will do the interview and were seated in the next order: JR, Aron, Minhyun, Baekho and Ren. They were all in a good mood and the interview was going pretty well. They were all laughing and chatting happily.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HONMP6u6TxA

 

After they were done, the boys immediately went back to their rooms.

 

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Minhyun P.O.V.

 

Ahhh... The fangirls will probably have a time of their life when they see how stupid I behaved around Aron. But honestly I really don't think Aron has any flaws. He is charming, good-looking, has a good sense of humor and he is really cool with that english of his. I can't find any flaws in him.

y... he said my voice is y - I let a small giggle and a huge grin appeared on my face. I kept replaying that scene in my head and was now laughing like a little school girl and immediately pushed my head in the pillow not to let Aron hear it, but it was too late.

"Why are you laughing like that?" - Aron said laughing at me.

"Ahhh, nothing, nothing" - I was shaking my head.

"Common tell me! I wanna laugh too! Is it something funny from the interview?"

"Well..." - I didn't really know should I say it... but why wouldn't I? - "The time you said my voice is y."

"Well it is." - he said with a smile.

I was taken aback... my heart started beating like crazy, I could even hear it. What the hell is going on?

"You are making a weird face. Hey, are you ok?" - he sat on my bed, patting my back and was looking at me worrying.

The moment he placed his palm on my back my heart felt like it's about to burst. I felt sick. I felt sick in my stomach. I turned my head toward him and I looked at his eyes. My heart was hurting, it hurt so bad.

"Y-yes. I don't feel so good. Sorry... I'm gonna lay down." - he stood up from my bad and let me get under the covers.

"You gonna be ok? Do you need something? Should I call a manager?"

"No. It's ok. I'm going to sleep it away." - I said turning my back at him and facing the wall.

"You sure?"

"Yes."

"Ok. I feel sorry for you man. We have the rest of the day off and you don't feel good." - I heard him sit on his bed.

"You can go and have fun. You don't need to stay by my side." - I said in one breath, just wishing he will leave me alone and stop with this questions.

"Sorry, but I wasn't planing on staying." - as I heard this sentence it felt like I was stabbed in the stomach. - "So I'll go to JR now. If you feel even worse call me or the manager. For now try to sleep. I'll see you later. Bye!" - the door closed.

I started crying not believing what was happening. I was not stupid I knew what this feelings were, but I do not want them. I DO NOT WANT TO HAVE THIS FEELINGS. I felt like I betrayed him. I felt like I betrayed myself. I was never interested in opposite ... I thought a lot of time that I might be gay, but every time I just write off those thoughts. What to do now? Aron can't know about this. I have to write off this feelings too. I don't want to like him. I don't want to be gay. I don't want to fall in love now. I have my job. I have my friends. I'm doing good. I SHOULD WRITE THIS FEELINGS OFF! I was determent.

As I was saying all this to myself with a sniffy nose and eyes full of tears I fell asleep.

 

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I'm sorry it is such a short chapter, but I wanted to make this chapter just about Minhyun <3

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DaniRicee
#1
mooooooooooooooore.
Desutossu
#2
Chapter 18: Hwaiting ren and minhyun!!! Don't let your love escape! :D

Fighting authorinim too!! ^^
kijara #3
Chapter 18: You are doing great! I luv you're story.Hwaiting !
ShanghaiTiger
#4
Chapter 18: you always end with cliffhangers!
JRs one sided love is very sad lol. poor JR. he's always the victim in like every nu'est story I've ever read.
Anyways, I have a feeling none are going to end up togetherXD because realistically, I don't think it will happen. BUT still hopeful!
shinoside #5
Chapter 17: Can't wait for your update!
shinoside #6
Chapter 15: I love this chapter because Baekho can't just say no to Ren. And the kissing part is just so sweet even though Baekho seem reluctant in the beginning. Love it when Ren .
setsukayatouji #7
Chapter 17: Is he killing his feelings???

This was confusing!

Update Plz :)
ShanghaiTiger
#8
Chapter 17: you always stop at the most intense momentss /sigh/
Minhyun is killing his family? hmm is it because of his gayness? :P
I DONT KNOW I WANT TO KNOW.
Update!!
Desutossu
#9
Chapter 16: aaaah read the whole story so far and have to admit it's probaply one of the cutest baekren stories I have read. I like the way u have brought the pairs up and I'm eagerly lookig forward next chapters.(dont stop this yet its too good to end now,plz ^^)
Hopefully baekren will end up together soon(^_^)/
AlexandraLee19 #10
Chapter 16: whooaa I love this part (: JR is so cute haha /// and who is ittttt ~~~