*picture not mine.credits to the owner

"mw~~uhhhhh?" I looked up, stared at the person standing beside me.

"I said, let's go somewhere after work..." my ever always-on-the-go officemate tugged the sleeve of my blouse.

"later? tonight?" I asked somewhat still doubtful of what she just said.

"c'mon don't be such a pabo!!!" she giggled until I slapped her back, "YAH! so you're challenging me eh?! okay! then! first i'll go and ask permission from teuk first arasso?" I replied as I threw her a sharp look.

she nodded her head from side to side "tsk,tsk,tsk why'd need to get his permission? it's not as if your a baby or something..."

"true! I am his baby..." I smiled and got my phone on top of my keyboard.

oh...some notifications...weird eh? what could this be about now? I asked myself and without much further ado, opened it straight and the app that notification was nonetheless, twitter!

I immediately scrolled the timeline, and what first popped infront of me was from a fan account regarding SJ's 7th photobook.

Okay, this is great, but...aigo, my budget...aishhh...anything for the love of our oppas! I shall buy one and support SJ..kkkk! this'll be my last splurge I thought...or so...kkkk, on second thought Teuk promised that he'll just give me a copy..aigo my mind is going crazy right now!

Still on being my sadistic self, I checked for more updates and knew that his last schedule will be on the 25th (Strong Heart taping) TT.TT TT.TT

I felt bad seeing him feel bad too since he loved his work so much and his passion towards it. I can't take this anymore and called him:

Teuk: Yah love? what's wrong (after hearing me silently weeping on the other line)

Me/You: I don't think I can do this. (I said as tears continuously fell down my cheeks)

T: What is?

M: This....this...this whole you..enlisting...army...leaving... (I said and pulled a handful of tissue from the tissue box across me)

T: Oh no..not this again love! (Teuk's voice now shaking) c'mon be strong! I need you more specially now..(silence)...uh, how about i'll come over after your work, i'll fetch you, let's talk about this (he said in a stern voice)

M: but...(my voice now trembling, still crying)

T: ah ah ah...no if's or but's...just say yes juseyo...

M: *sighs. alright then. i'll wait for you...

T: alright then...please love, don't give up on us okay? I love you...

M: ne..I love you too...i'll see you later. bye...

End of Call.

Aissshhh...what was I thinking???? I banged my head to the side of the wall. OUCH! shhh......that seriously hurt! I cried more now in the physical pain. Honestly, I don't think I can see him tonight. I don't have enough courage to face him after what i've said seconds ago. I still am in denial.

Hmmm....eottakhaji????? I searched for a possible answer to my problem. I grabbed some more tissue and wiped my now drenched in tears face and stood up only to see the beaming face of my officemate staring blankly at me.

"what happened?" she said and rushed towards my side and placed an arm around me.

I couldn't answer since properly since I was still busy wiping my face and hiding my puffy eyes on her.

"I get it. Teuk again right?" she asked. I nodded.

"okay okay, I don't want to be the one to look bad here so... whatever you guys are currently having, okay, let's just cancel the plan tonight." she said and grabbed me for a hug.

"yeah..thank you for understanding and jeongmal mianhe for this..." I replied as she calmed me down with a tight hug.

"arasso..gwenchanayo chingu..." she replied and helped wipe my tears.

"oh, by the way, why not write him a letter? that might help you speak out your feelings for him more eh?" she blurted as she turned back and walked towards her desk.

I managed to put on a smile after she said that. RIGHT! that might be just the perfect idea! I thought to myself and sat down on my chair. I'll write him now so that we don't need to meet tonight!

*readers! on this part, the letter shall be posted on the next chapter...waiteu! :)

I immediately grabbed my green metallic pen and my favorite notebook and wrote all my worries and concerns away.

It was a good thing I raised my head and saw the time, oopsss!!! must've been writing that much, I can't miss this! it's way past 4pm. I re-checked the letter.... texted Donghae since he will be meeting Teuk tonight after also for their gym session.

I texted him if he could drop over right now at the office since he doesn't have schedule today, he complied and said that he'll arrive in 15mins since he was just somwhere near our office.

oh dongsaeng, i'll forever be grateful to you...

Fortunately, it took him less than 15 mins. he called and told me he was already downstairs. I jumped from my seat and hurriedly rushed for the elevator.

"noona! you freaked me out when you texted me of an emergency situation...." Donghae rushed the moment he saw me and grabbed hold of my hand.

"gomawo Hae! i know your one of the few I can trust with regards to Teuk..." I said as I gasped for air.

"Ne noona! anything for you and hyung...but what is it? do you want me to call him now?"

"Aniyooo!!! that's the last thing you will do but for now, please hand this to him discreetly now okay?" I said as I handed him a small yellow envelope with a duck sticker to cover as a seal.

"mwuhhh??? I don't understand..." Hae replied and scratched his head in confusion.

"you will after tonight." I said and gave him a half-smile.

"but noona, please enlighten me of the situation..." he insisted.

"alright, supposedly he will pick me up here tonight but since we have some emotional thingamajig going on, I opted to just write him a letter cos I don't think I have enough guts to show myself to him after the conversation we had this afternoon on the phone." I said in a monotone voice.

"jinjja? noona...okay I'll give this to him right then but you have to promise me that after he reads this you guys fix this up arasso?" he surprisingly replied.

"uh...that I can't assure you, it'll depend on your hyung now..." I said and looked down.

"aissshhh...whatever. I don't want to see this happening to the both of you, I love you both, your a part of our family already noona?" Hae said as he grabbed my chin and held my face so that I looked directly at him.

"yah...I know that, alright, let's just hope for the best then. I gotta get going, tell your hyung that i'm sorry for not having the courage to meet him tonight. and...don't let him get out of your sight okay?"

"NE! noona, be strong okay?" Hae said before he turned his back to leave.

"ne dongsaeng, I will...thanks again..." I said as I turned my back to and head back to the office.

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