The eighty episodes of my first ever sitcom has come to an end. You can say it’s long or short but in this amount of time I have already developed a great relationship with all the staffs and seniors. On the last day of the filming I really have the urge to cry. I will miss the crew so much. After the end of my first acting debut drama my schedule began to get tight. I guess just like what Junho said this sitcom would be my stepping-stone to my future career.

After school I went to the company to meet with Junho. I dragged my tired body to the company and like usual the security guard greeted me.

“Oh Soojung? I watched your drama you were great!” He complimented. Although I have heard a lot after I start filming my drama but I never get sick of hearing the same thing.

I gave him a smile and said thanks to him before swiping my card opening the gate to enter. I haven’t been to the company for a long time as I was busy with my own schedule that Junho canceled all my training classes. Walking down the corridor, nothing was changed and I was glad to see back some of the familiar faces.

“Krystal Jung, our big star is back.” I heard the familiar voice of my friend, Sulli.

“Ssul!” I missed her. We gave each other a longing hug before parting away.

“So I heard you finished filming your drama so how does it feel to officially debut as an actress? From now on I’m your senior.” She jokingly said.

“Yes senior, I still don’t feel like I’ve debuted. I’m just like the usual me.” I told her, although I debuted but there are still a lot of people who don’t know who I am or don’t even know my name. And if I walk on the street wearing my uniform I’m just one of the ordinary schoolgirl.

“Well you will feel it soon. I’ve got to meet Changsu now. Bye.” The tall girl waved goodbye walking to see her manager. I chuckled at the words from Sulli. I wonder if this was what Sulli felt when she first debuted as a child actress. I walk to the office to meet with Junho. And it seem like every time I had to meet him I would see him head buried in the pile of documents or close up to the monitor screen. Then he would lead me to the conference room for a private talk.

“So are my training classes back?” I asked as I sat down on the chair. Even though I’ve debuted but I still think I lack in many things and there are many things I need to learn.

“Not just yet, since now the sitcom for MBC has ended they are preparing for a new sitcom. They are planning to film High Kick season three and the Director Kim was very impress by your debut performance.”

I didn’t know how to react and I never thought my second drama will come this fast.

“Really?” I still couldn’t believe this.

“Yes Soojung and not only this drama but there are also magazines wanting you to feature you in their issue.” I was still trying to register that I’m going to film another drama and now I’m going to be featuring in magazines? This is too good to be true.

The meeting with Junho end and I was mindlessly walking out of the conference room. When I’m back to reality I quickly text message to Amber letting her know the news and I got a reply back straight away. She was really happy for me but somehow the more fame I’m getting I began to worry whether this relationship with Amber will be able to keep as a secret.

News of the new casts of the new sitcom drama High Kick season three was spread widely over the Internet. Somehow the news was leaked and like lighting it was spread. It became a hot heated topic in forums. News articles came out and it seem a lot of people are looking forward to the new debut actress Krystal Jung that seem to be garnering the attention.

I was reading the news article over the Internet and even reading the comments from the netizens. I was glad that many left positive comments but also there are always some negatives one. I was so immersed with the comments that I didn’t realize the person behind had crept up hugging my wait from the back.

“What are you reading?” She asks and kisses my cheek. It was no other than my girlfriend, my lover, Amber. The night before I once again stayed at her place. We cook together, cuddle and make out like usual. I really like the feeling of living with her. I even once had a thought of moving over to her place but our relationship will definitely be discovered.

“Nothing just reading what netizens thinks of me.” I said and turn around wrapping my arms around her neck planting a soft kiss on her lips.

“They all love you. Boys falling deep in your beautiful charms and girls going gay over your figure.” She smirked and carried me over to her bed. We lay there side by side staring at each other. I reach a hand out caressing her handsome face. She places a hand over mines and we just stared at each other again both with a smile on our face. I hope we can be together forever.

“I’m going to be really busy soon. Are you going to be okay with that?” I broke the peaceful silence between us.

“Hmmm… like how busy?” She flips over hovering her body on top of mine.

“I don’t know but you might not able to see me often after I start my filming. Junho said my schedule would be pack.” I raise my hands cupping her cheeks and massaging her it with my thumbs.

“Well… I’ll just find another girl in the mean time.” Even though I know she was only joking but still I don’t like hearing this kind of joke from her. I pinched her cheeks hard earning her a loud grunt.

“OUCH!” She pulls away from my hands and flips herself back beside me. She gently massages her sore cheeks with her two hands while pouting like a child. I chuckled at her cuteness and this time I hover on top of her. I pull away her two hands massaging her sore cheeks and on both sides planting a soft kiss hoping to heal her soreness.

“If you’re going to kiss me just kiss me on the lips.” The second she finish her sentence she lift her head up crashing her lips on mine. A smile formed as I kiss her back deepening it, letting her tongue reaching in. A soft moan escaped when she gently on my lower lip.

“Amber… will you be tired of this kind of relationship?” It was no longer the playful attitude I had earlier instead I was kind of worry that she might get tired and eventually break up with me.

“No and I never will.” Her expression was sincere and somehow it calmed my nerves down.

I was going to school like usual since my filming has not begun. Walking to my class I got the attention of my classmates. They all knew I’m a trainee from the beginning and was proud to have a classmate that is an actress knowing that I debuted. But their expressions and the looks they gave me was definitely not because they are proud to have an actress classmate. It was different from the usual look they give.

“EunMi what’s happening? Why is everyone looking at me like that?” I went over to my desk and pulled my friend over whispering to her.

“What? You mean you haven’t seen this?” EunMi looked surprise and went over to her desk grabbing her tablet. She scribble on the screen of the tablet and show me a website what seem to be a popular forum of entertainment gossips. I grab the tablet off EunMi and read what written on the website.

“At that time I just thought the girl looked really familiar like I’ve seen her on TV that was why she caught my attention. I didn’t think she was an actress or going to be one I just thought she was pretty and they both look like a cute couple so I took a photo secretly without letting them discover.”

I read one paragraph of it and when I scroll down I saw a paparazzi photo of Amber and I. I remember the photo was taken during the time when we went to the amusement park. I sweated seeing how we’ve been discovered. I continue to read on.

“I can tell they are a couple because they were wearing a couple shirt, they were holding hands and lastly they acted so lovey-dovey together. Her boyfriend was really sweet that he helped her buckle the seat belt on the ride and he was kind of handsome.”

The user posted a few more paparazzi photos; they were kind of blurry but still quite close up shots. I clench onto the tablet and I feel my heart beating rapidly. I began to panic, no knowing what to do.  Looking down more to the website there was even more.

“I work at a Western food restaurant, on a weekend day the two came in to have lunch together. I recognize Krystal straight away because her drama was airing at that time. She is very pretty. The guy who came with her was handsome. They order foods and afterward I got her autograph. When the food came the two shared the food together like a couple.”

I can still remember that day at the restaurant because it was the first autograph I had given out. Along to prove her words the girl even posted a photo of the autograph I signed which had the date. I regret giving her my autograph.

The rest of the posts were just netizens commenting on who might be that mysterious boyfriend be and I was glad Amber’s identity has not been discovered.

I shove the tablet back at EunMi and she just gave me a confuse look. My phone then ring and looking at the caller ID it was no one other than Junho. I guess he saw it too. I look around the classroom and all eyes were on me. I quicken my legs out the classroom to a quiet place to answer the ringing phone. Finding a corner I press the answer button.

“Soojung what’s your explanation?” He asked without bothering to ask if I know what is happening. A part of me want to play it dumb and answer him ‘what are you talking about?’ but I know playing dumb won’t get me out of this.

“There’s no explanation that was just a friend.” I lied but it was true that the time at the amusement park Amber and I were still friends even though I have feelings for her.

“Now tell me the truth who is that friend?”

I was glad that Junho probably doesn’t know Amber, after all it’s a big company with hundreds of staffs and trainees altogether. It’s impossible that someone will know every single person in the company.

“Soojung you better tell who this friend is so that I can help you. You know this might affect your career?” I can tell Junho was not happy hearing my dishonest answer but I cannot tell him otherwise he might be suspicious about my relationship with Amber.

“Junho I’m telling the truth it’s just a friend I know. Please don’t ask me anymore I don’t want that friend to get involve in this.”  I told him sounding like I don’t want to talk about this anymore. Hearing that I didn’t want to talk anymore Junho gave up finding the identity of that friend.

“Alright Soojung I won’t ask about that friend anymore but I hope you are telling me the truth.” He sighed, the weights on my shoulders drop and I felt a sudden relief.

“I will handle this if it gets any worse. For now we should just ignore it and not do any direct response to it.” He said and finally hangs up.  I lean my back against the wall feeling a little worn out just by talking on the phone with Junho. I closed my eyes and just breathing in and out to calm myself. After I felt my heart beating has slow down I pick up my phone again and send Amber a text message about the situation. Switching the phone onto silent I slips it back in my pocket and went back to the classroom since class is about to begin.

During class I wasn’t paying too much attention to my teacher. I was distracted to what I found out earlier. Distracted by the buzz from the phone in my pocket I snuck out my phone under the table to read the text message.

“Soojung please pay attention.”

Before I got to read my text message I got caught by the teacher giving me a disapproving look. I quickly slip the phone back in my pocket and face the white board paying attention to the teacher. Once the class finished I quickly ran out the classroom to a quiet place. When I’m in a place where no one is there I quickly dug my phone out reading the text message.

I read it. Did your manager say anything to you? Give me a call whenever you are free.

I quickly dial Amber’s number. While waiting for the call to pick up I tap my foot impatiently until I heard the unique husky voice over the phone.

“Soojung are you alright?”

“I’m fine just got weird looks from my classmates.” I lean against the wall and kick the air with my foot.

“Did your manager call you?”

“Yes but I told him it’s just a friend and there’s nothing between us. I didn’t tell him that it’s you or that everyone has mistaken you for a boy.” I told her letting her know her identity is still a mysterious.

“So… what’s going to happen between us?” I can hear she hesitate in asking.

I sighed, I don’t know what’s going to happen to us but I definitely don’t want to break up with Amber.

“I don’t know…” My voice fades off not knowing the future of our relationship. “Let’s talk about it after school. I’ll go to your place so wait for me there.” I told her before ending the phone call.

During the entire day I keep getting weird look and whispering. My friends that are close to me keeps questioning me about that ‘guy’ I’m with and trying to get some information from me if that is my boyfriend.  I ignore all the questions thrown at me and keep telling them that person is just a friend. At lunch I hide from everyone else not wanting to answer the same question again and again.

Like playing hide and seek I manage to hide from everyone except in class until school finishes. After school ends I quickly ran to travel to Amber’s place. Taking a bus ride there I arrive there shortly. I walk up to the familiar building and to the familiar door. Pressing the doorbell Amber shortly open the door letting me inside. When Amber closes the door I quickly turn back hugging her tightly. Amber didn’t say anything and just hug me back with the same tightness. We stayed in this position for quite a long moment until she gently pushes us apart.

“Let’s break up.”

I froze on the spot. I thought she’s not going to ever say this again.