The filming in Beijing has come to the final stage throughout the rest of the filming I didn’t talk much to Victoria. She was probably still hurt by my rejection and needed time so I didn’t bother other than the time we had to be around each other.

         “CUT!” The director shouted before jumping on his feet letting a big smile. The last filming day, everyone was extremely happy now that they don’t need to stand out in the colds. I quickly gave every staffs and actors, actresses a bow of gratitude for taking care of a new actress like me at a place I’m not familiar with. After all the bowing and thanking I went to my resting seat and take a sip of water.

         “Krystal.” I heard from behind. Her cute Chinese accent is something I will never forget. I turn around facing the older actress.

         “Yes Victoria?” She was giving me a look then her eyes travel to the assistant, Hana who is busily packing my items in the bag. Understood that she wants to talk privately I grab her wrist and pull her away from the crew.

         “…I’m sorry how I acted for the past filming days but I just needed time for myself to get away from you so I can stop thinking about you.” She was having a hard time spiting out the words and I can see how hard it must have felt for her being with me for the pass filming days.

         I grab her hand and gave it a light squeeze. “I hope we can still be friends.” I said knowing that if it weren’t for the alcohol we would be laughing right now from some stupid things.

         She smiled and breaks free from our touch. “Of course.” I can feel a slight sadden look in her eyes but I decide not to think too much, it’ll just make things complicate.

         “So the person you like is called Amber?” She asked and I was shock by the sudden name mentioning. How did she know?

         “You don’t have to be so shock, I heard you mumbling her name when we had… you know. You don’t have to answer me if you don’t want to.” Victoria quickly added not wanting to pressure me.

         Since she already knows I didn’t waste any energy to make up any excuses or lies. “Yeah, we’re back together.”

         “I’m happy for you. But… just be careful. Eyes are everywhere.” She gave me a pat on the shoulder before joining back the crew. I stood alone having a thought to myself – I’ll make sure I’ll have both, my career and Amber.

         I walk back to join the crew and the director suggested we should have dinner together as some sort of farewell. I went along with everyone else enjoying the last moment with the people I spent for the past three months.

Back in Korea, it was the same usual cycle again. I would rest for a while focusing back on studying, training and enjoying life like a normal girl with my friends and family until the promotion period begins. I still have a tight schedule but it can still consider as a holiday or break.

         I had spent the remaining time in Beijing with Amber everyday until the day I had to leave. Amber still has some unfinished business back in Beijing with her dance tour so we have to part again. But this time the parting was not painful because we both know we’ll see each other again.

I was walking to the company from school and as usual of course I was wearing my school uniform. Outside the company I saw a few fangirls and fanboys standing there. When they saw me walking pass they screamed and waved. Hearing the noise I avert my attention to them and kindly waved at them before entering the door. I went straight to see Junho at his office desk and like always he lead me to the empty conference room.

         “So Soojung how was your holiday with your parents?” He asked.

         I took a vacation to the States with my parents; it was refreshing that I didn’t need to worry about anything but enjoying the nice weather and food, walking on the street without standing out. I wished Amber could come but she was busy with her own dance crew.

         “Thanks Junho, it was really fun.” I gave him a smile.

         “Great. So let’s start off with some light schedule. There’s an offer for you as a music program MC. So what do you think?”

         “Sounds great!”

         I have done a radio show MC before but never have I done music or TV shows MC before. It would be different talking in front of a mic and in front of a camera.

         “Great! I knew you would do it. You will be starting as the new MC next week. I know it’s tight but you just need to prepare a two or three minutes performance for a MC special stage. You can choose either singing or dancing, it’s all up to you. I know it’s not a problem for you since you have done so many trainings previously.”

         I was glad to hear that I can do whatever performance I want. I’ve been continuously working on my singing and dancing and now it’s a chance to show it to the audiences what Krystal Jung is also capable of doing.

I return home, well not exactly home, but to Amber’s place since that’s my second home. I’ve been staying there while Amber has left Korea doing her dance tour thing with her crew. Sometimes when I feel extremely tired or my schedule finish late and I didn’t want to wake up my parents in the middle of the night I would just stay at Amber’s place. But also because I miss the girl, inhaling her scent was something that could boost my energy up after a tiring day.

         I punch in the four digits pin to open the door. How I wish Amber came back but she’s probably still out of Korea. I threw my bag down and stretch my tired body. But all of a sudden I felt a pair of arms wrap around my waist, I squealed, and was spun around in circles. When my feet were back on the floor the person at the back flip me over and crash her lips on mine. That was when I realize it was no one other than my lover, Amber Liu. I kissed her back, wrapping my arms around her waist deepening the kiss as our tongue collide each other.

         “Surprise!” She grinned and pecks me on the lips.

         “You scared me!” I smack her chest lightly pretending that I’m angry but failed, as I cannot contain the smile from spreading wide across my face. I stare at the face that I missed so much and pull her in for another kiss. We stood there kissing each other until we ran out of breath. When our lips parted Amber drag me to the couch and we both cuddled.

         “When did you come back?” I comfortably let myself snuggle in her embrace.

         “This morning.”

         “So are there anymore dance tour?” I look up and asked. Amber has been flight here and there for the dance tour with her crew. And its sad to know that she only get to stay in Korea for a week or so before flying again.

         “The dance tour is finished. I’ll be staying here as long as you need me to.” She pecks my forehead. A smile instantly formed hearing that we don’t need to be parted.

         I stared at that pretty, handsome face and thought everything is so perfect right now. Our secret relationship has been going on for over a year ever since we made up in Beijing. Nobody has discovers or suspect anything of us other than good friends. I really want us to stay like this forever.

         “So anything new that you need to update me, Miss Krystal Jung?”

         Even if we parted from different countries we made sure that we update each other what has happening in our life so that there’s no distance between us to break us apart.

         I suddenly remember what Junho said to me earlier.

         “You need to help me.” I straighten my back and said.

         “On what?”

         “Choreograph a dance for me please?” I put my hands together in a begging pose and gave her my puppy eyes.

         “What kind of dance? And what’s its for?”

         “It’s for a music show, I’m going to be a MC and they want all the new MCs to perform something.” I explained.

         “So my Soojung is going to show off her y dances?” She held me tight and plant a kiss on my lips.

         “Well it doesn’t have to be something y just something appealing.”

         “Good because I can’t bare to see you dancing ily. I might get a nosebleed.” She joked before kissing me again.

         I chuckled at her joke, I stood up and all of a sudden I feel like seeing her get a nosebleed. I took off my cardigan as I twirl my body showing off my assets. I twisted the cardigan so that it’s like a rope and throw it over Amber’s neck. I pull her forward while I straddle on her lap.

         “How about a couple dance? You can be my partner and we can dance on stage together.” I suggested. I can image how perfect we look dancing together on stage.

         “You know that’s not a good idea? I mean us performing on stage.”

         “Fine. Choreograph a couple dance for me and I’ll just find another partner.” I pouted, looking like a sulking child.

         “Hey although we can’t dance together on stage but we can dance together… in my room.” She whispered the last few words in my ear and I somehow sense a hint of iness. The next moment she lifts me up carrying me to her bedroom.

So Amber really took my suggestion seriously and choreograph me a couple dance, not that I don’t want it but it’s troublesome to find a male partner. I took a deep thought thinking who can I ask for help and the only male came to my mind was Suho. We were pretty close during the training years together and he always looks after me like a big brother. I guess dancing with him wouldn’t be as awkward as dancing with someone that I don’t even know.

         I quickly dial his number. Lucky that he still hasn’t changed his number.

         “Soojung?” He was a little surprise that I called him.

         “Suho, I have a favor to ask. Would you like to be my partner performing a couple dance with me next week?” I quickly ask him hoping he would agree.

         “Of course I love to but I have to ask my manager first. You know I’m going to debut soon.”

         “Yes I know and I’m so happy for you.”

         And then we continue to talk for a while getting both of us updated with the recent happening.

I went to the company to practice my couple dance with Suho. I was a little bit excited and nervous, excited because I get to perform a dance and nervous because it’s going to be my first dance performance for the viewers.

         I walk in to find the dance studio that Amber has booked. Not far from the door I already heard music playing, I recognize the song its Keep Bleeding by Leona Lewis. I really love this song and I can already imagine how cool the dance will be using this song.

         I push the door open and there was Amber, Suho and another girl that look familiar but can’t remember.

         “Oh Soojung you’re here.” Amber stops dancing when she saw me enter from the mirror reflection. She stops the music and jog up to me.

         “Hey Amber.” I greeted her casually and tried to contain my hands in my pocket from touching her. “Hey Suho.” I said afterward.

         “Soojung let me introduce you, this is Mia she’s a part of my dance crew. I asked her to help me to choreograph the dance.”

         I look at the girl in front, no wonder she looks familiar because I’ve seen her photo before when I was looking at Amber’s dance crew photos.

         After the short introduction we immediately start learning the couple dance.

         “Alright let me show you guys how the dance is like.” Amber said. Suho and I step aside and carefully watch the two. Amber was playing the guy while Mia was playing as the girl. They got into position facing back to back with each other. Then Amber presses the play button using the remote control. The two began dancing following the beat of the song. I was enjoying the dance and love the expressive moves by the two dancers. But I frown when the two starts to get intimate. They were swinging their body left and right as Amber hugged Mia from the back. I crossed my arms trying to control my feelings. It’s just a dance. I keep telling myself. There were quite a few intimate moves like hugging and touching, but I was calm down when the two separated. The ending was Amber walk away from Mia and Mia show off a hurt, sad expression.

         The clapping noise from Suho got me back to reality that the dance was over. I look over at the two panting heavily and sweaty.

         “So what do you think?” Amber asked.

         “It’s amazing. I don’t know if I can dance it with so much emotion.” Suho was a little worry but I know he can overcome it with practice.

         “Don’t worry Suho the spotlight is on Soojung.” Amber joked and Suho just laughed.

         We then began learning the dance – Amber teaching Suho and Mia teaching me individually.  The dance was only two minutes so we break it up into three parts. After learning one part of it, Suho and I would come together and practice the dance together.

         We kept practicing until I felt my stomach growling for food and that’s when Amber ends the practice.

         “Do you want to have grab something to eat before splitting?” Suho asked.

         I glance over at Amber and she just stood there like waiting for somehow to say yes.

         “I’m really tired. I’m going to go home. I see you guys tomorrow.” I put my water bottle in my bag and left the studio. I wasn’t in any mood eating dinner with everyone, especially seeing Amber being so close with Mia and I can’t do anything about it.

         Soon I reach home using the bus and somehow Amber was already there. I wonder how she gets here so fast?

         “Hey.” She said trying to get my attention.

         I ignore her and continue walking the pathway that will lead to my house.

         “You think I’m dumb enough not to see those burning jealousy eyes of yours whenever I’m close with Mia?”

         I stop my feet and turn to face her – so she does know it.

         “So what if I’m jealous. Can’t I?” I childishly respond.  She was laughing and it somehow annoyed me even more. So I smack her on her arm before marching off leaving her behind.

         “Hey I’m sorry. But it’s so cute to see your jealous face.” She playfully said.

         “Weren’t you be jealous if you see me dancing like that with Suho?” I questioned. I wonder if she would?

         “Of course, but I probably need to get used to it.” She said and there was a tint of sadness in her words. That’s right, I’m an actress after all. One day I might get a kissing scene in a drama.

         We didn’t say anything afterward and she just walked me home silently