We stared at each other and I still do not believe what we just did. Oh my god! We kissed! I can still feel my face burning from the kiss. We stayed in that position looking at each other’s eyes until another batch of moving feet stepping close to the locker room. The marching sounds knock us back to reality and Amber removes herself away digging her hands in her pockets. I straighten myself and quickly turn around facing my locker trying to hide my still flushing face. I open my locker door and quickly grab my school bag. I really need to get out of here. Before turning over I heard Amber’s phone ringing. And at the same time the people came in the locker room. Eavesdropping, I stood still trying to listen to Amber.

“Hello?... Ah yes, I’m sorry. I’ll be back quick. I’m sorry.” Amber kept apologizing. I wonder if she was in the middle of something important? The thought of that she just ran out from something important because of a stupid prank I played makes me wonder her feelings she has for me. And I remember the words she said. “It’s going to be hard not to fall for you.”My heart was beating so fast as I stood back facing her waiting for her next move.

“Soojung… I have to go… I’ll give you a call tonight.” She hesitantly said before abruptly leaving the locker room. When I didn’t feel her presence anymore I finally drop my tense up shoulders feeling relief but also a little disappointed that she had to leave so quickly. Turning around seeing no sight of the boyish girl, I swing my school bag over my shoulders and left the locker room.

I got home earlier than usual because there was no trainings just the dance review. My lovely mother greeted me once I came back asking me about my dance review. I told her I did great and the smile widen on her face but I didn’t sound all too enthusiastic about it. I guess my mum just took that I was too tired. But in fact the entire time my mind was occupied by the kiss. I step in my room throwing the school bag on the bed. I jump onto the bed staring at the white ceiling. Unconsciously I trace my lips with my finger recalling the kissing scene once again. Why can’t I get the kissing image off my head? I look over at my clock – 6:20pm. Pushing myself up I just remember I didn’t bother showering and left the company. I went and grab a new set of clothing in my wardrobe then head off to the bathroom.

After I finish showering dad came back from work and just like what mum asked he asks me the same question. And I answer him exactly what I did to mum. We all ate dinner together silently with a few chatter mainly just my parents talking random things like what’s been happening in the world. I kept glancing over at my phone that is place on the dinning table.

“Soojung are you waiting for an important call?” Mum asks probably caught me looking at my phone every minute or so.  I shook my head as I avert my attention back on the food. Actually I’m waiting for Amber’s call. I didn’t look at my phone anymore during dinner.

After dinner I helped mum to wash the dishes and when I’m done I spent a little time watching TV with dad. This is what I usually do since they’re busy with work and I’m busy with school and training I promise myself I that everyday I should at least spend an hour with my parents. Whether it’ll be talking or just simply sitting side by side on the couch watching TV together.

I left the living room after the variety show ends that dad always watch. Like I just remember I quickly pull out my phone to see if I got any missed calls from Amber. I press the button lighting up the screen and unlock the phone. My heart thumped as I saw the little missed call icon. Oh my god! How did I not hear it ringing!? Not even knowing if it’s Amber called I began regretting not paying attention to my phone. I quickly check the calling log to see who called and to my dismay it really was Amber. She called half an hour ago where I was sitting on the couch laughing with dad as we watch that variety show together. I stared at my phone debating whether I should call her back or wait for her to call me again. But I wouldn’t wait any longer so I press the call button calling the boyish girl who made me so confused.

The phone ringing and with every ring I was hoping she answer the call. Disappointingly the phone kept ringing until it reached her voice mail.

“Wassup this is Amber, leave a message and I’ll call you…”

I hang up before reaching the end of her voice message. Why isn’t she answering her phone? I feel frustrated. I was about to ring her again and if I she doesn’t pick up again I would continuously ring her until she picks up. My phone blinked and I receive a new message. I open the message to see it’s from Amber.

Sorry didn’t mean to not answer your call. Can you come to the bus station at your place? I want to see you.

I read the message silently. Knowing that she’s there waiting for me I quickly grab my hoodie jacket putting it on before leaving my room.

“Soojung where are you going?” Mum asks and dad was just looking away from the TV at me.

“I’m meeting a friend at the bus station. I’ll be back shortly.” I quickly explain while putting on my flip-flops.

“But it’s late. Why don’t I walk with you?” Mum had a concerning face.

“No mum it’s okay.” No way I would let mum to walk there with me. It would be awkward for Amber and I.

“Alright but be careful. Come back quickly.” Dad said and mum finally drops the idea of coming along. Once I left home I ran as quick as I could to the bus station. A usual five minutes walk shorten into a two minutes run. I got there puffing and not far I saw a figure leaning against the bus stop post. When she saw me she immediately straighten herself.

“Were you that eager to see me?” She had a sly smirk on her face. I didn’t answer her and continue to catch my breath.

“You wish. It’s just getting late and I need to quickly go back and finish my homework.” I made an excuse not trying to sound like I ran the life out just to see her sooner.

She chuckled and reaching two hands out she held onto my hands pulling a little closer to her. My heart starts thumping again.

“Sorry I had to leave earlier after you know… because I ran out from a meeting with the other instructors.” She apologized which was not needed because I wasn’t mad. I knew she was in the middle of something important.

“It’s okay I’m not even mad.” I softly said lowering my head staring at the concrete ground. Hearing that she immediately pull me into a tight hug. Her hand gently caresses my hair and inhaling my scent.

“I love you.”

My heart raced feeling butterflies in my stomach. She loves... me? I couldn’t believe what I just heard and I was just too shy that I buried my face in her chest.

“Awe is my Soojung shy?” She manages to push my head away from her chest making me to face her.

“I’m not.” My face flushed and I slap away her hand that was forcing me to face her.

“So?” She held onto my hands again waiting for an answer.

I stared at her before I wrap my arms around her neck and tiptoed to peck her lips. I quickly pull away smiling mischievously at the boyish girl before whispering “I love you too” back. A big grin grew on her face as she once held me tight spinning me around happily where my legs were dangling. She stops the spinning when both of us got a little dizzy. Our forehead press against each other and our eyes connected. The smiles on our face cannot be hidden. She closes the gap and once again our lips touched. But this time going deeper than we ever had. Since I have no experience in kissing Amber lead the way, nibbling on my lower lip and guiding our tongue to meet. Running out of breath I pull away from her lips and just fixed my eyes on hers. We stayed like that until my phone rang and it was from my parents. I then realize I was out longer than what I told my parents. We held hand while Amber walk me home, this time I actually slow down my pace taking a longer than five minute walk back.

Once I was back I happily skips back to my room. My parents were giving me a weird look but they didn’t bother to ask why I was so happy. I was just lying on my bed for a minute and my phone rang. Seeing it’s Amber I immediately answer it.

“Miss me already?” I said flipping myself over and hugging onto the pillow.

“Yeah I want to hug you and kiss you more.” She chuckled and I felt my face flushed.

“You know Soojung, we can’t tell anyone about our relationship.” She sound a little disappointed. For a moment I didn’t understand why we had to keep it a secret.

“You’re a trainee and you’re going to debut as a celebrity one day.” With her saying the reason I suddenly remember my own status. Junho will definitely not approve of this.Although they are no rules forbidding trainees to have a relationship with someone but most of the manager would suggest a no because you never know one day you might just debut. But many of the trainees dated secretly as I’ve heard of. Usually to avoid netizen digging up their past.

“You’re right Amber. I’m sorry.” My voice drops and I apologized that Amber needs to hide her relationship with me.

“Hey you don’t have to apologize. Just able to be with you is good enough.” She tries cheering me and it works because her words have touched my heart.I don’t care I just want to be with you.

We kept talking moving away from the saddening topic and moving onto the food topic that we both can non-stop talk about.

“You bake?” Sounding a little surprise at the new piece of fact.

“Yes I do and if you don’t believe me we can bake together and I’ll show you my skills.”

“I believe you but I would love to see you baking.”

“You can come over to my place this Sunday and I’ll bake for you.” I suggested and she quickly agrees to it. We kept talking about everything and anything that I forgot to do my homework. By the time we hang up it was already eleven, I pull the blanket over my body and try to falls asleep leaving the homework to do tomorrow morning before school. As I was closing my eyes trying to drift off to sleep I couldn’t help but to dream about Amber and everything that happened tonight.

The weekend came faster than usual as days spent at school and training but also with Amber. Like we said, in the company we tried our best to keep our distance only keeping our actions as friends. It was difficult but I guess my hard working effort in the acting classes had paid off.

Amber is really popular in the company. Wherever she goes there will always be people greeting and chatting to her. But I can’t blame her; her personality is just so loveable. Sometimes I get a bit jealous at how natural the staffs and even celebrities can touch and hug her. While I have to think every time I want to make a move to her.

It was Friday, the last day before weekends come. I was at the locker room ready to leave the company as I have finished my acting class. I open my locker door grabbing my school bag out and closing the door. Suddenly I was attacked from behind as I felt a sudden pair of arms hugging my waist. I yelp at the sudden shock.

“Baby it’s me.” She whispered with light laughter. She quickly plants a kiss on my cheek knowing that we’re alone. I turn myself over facing her handsome face and quickly wrap my arms around her neck. I really do miss her touches. I pull her in and we shared a passionate kiss. The door of the locker room suddenly open and we quickly separate from our intimate position. Some female trainees came walking inside and they immediately greeted Amber. We want to wait until everyone leave to continue our moment but it seem like the girls are just standing there and chatting. Amber gave me a look and mouth me “call me tonight” before leaving the locker room with a sly smile.

I came back home and did my usual things before making a call to Amber. It’s like she was waiting for my call as she picks up on the second ring.

“So are we going to practice again tomorrow?” I ask. It has become a routine for both of us that Amber and I would have private dance lesson on Saturday.

“Do you like practicing that much?” She questioned. No I don’t but if it’s with you, yes. I didn’t say that to her, I don’t want her to feel I’m already that attached to her.

“Let’s skip practice this weekend and go on a date together. It’s the first weekend we will spend as a couple.” A date? I couldn’t help but to grin that she asked me out on a date. I didn’t say anything and just nod my head as if she can see it.

“So is that a yes or no? Or do you prefer practicing?” She playfully asks after not hearing a proper answer.

“Yes!” I quickly shouted.

“Yes for a date or yes for practice?” She chuckled and continues to tease me.

“Yes for a date.” I shyly reply back in a soft tone.

“Great. Let’s go to Lotte World and have some fun together. I still haven’t been there yet.” Amber suggested and I couldn’t wait till tomorrow arrives since I haven’t been to Lotte World for a long time.

“I can’t wait to see you tomorrow and I can’t wait to taste the cake you’re going to bake.” I heard the excitement in her voice. I can’t wait too. I can’t wait to spend our very first weekend together as a couple. We kept talking over on the phone until it was late and I had to end the conversation to concentrate on my homework. I had to do them now because I’m going to be very busy during the weekend with Amber. We hang up and lazily I went over to my desk grabbing my book and textbook, turning to the correct I began doing my homework. And the thought of spending the weekend with Amber became my motivation.