"why does it always feel so gloomy whenever it rains?" thoughts started popping through my mind .. the past .. those words .. and the song..

"tae i wanted you to know that i've always loved you since then... not just as my best firend but as a girl.. as kim taeyeon. i wanted to keep your heart the way that you should keep mine" he pleaded with his eyes "tae.. can you be my girl?"

"o-oppa... mianhae.. chungmal mianhae." i stood up then faced him " you're a great guy oppa.. but i can't.."

"tae.."

"i'm sorry oppa but i can't be with you .. i can't love you the way you love me .. and also i can't keep your heart." he didn't say a single word and i started to walk my path through the door but then i suddenly felt his warm embrace.. i faced him ..

" i will wait for you tae no matter what.."

"oppa ~ you know my situation right now.. it's impossible for us to be together.."

"tae~ don't say that please.. " tears started streaming down his cheeks.

i cupped his faced for him to look at me .. " oppa~ i'm leaving tomorrow.."

"m-mwoh?!"

i removed my hands on his cheeks and looked at him intently .. trying to hide my tears .. i smiled at him fakely like i always do whenever he's down.

"tae~ don't do this to me please" he begged. i just continued smiling at him, looking at his face and cherishing this moment .

"keep in touch with me okay oppa." i then continued to walk through the door .

"tae" he called at me helplessly. i know that oppa doesn't know what to do in this kind of situations .

before i step out of the door i turned to him.. " i can't keep your heart oppa but .. i wanted to treasure the song you played for me."

"and also .. i hope that you can find a great woman okay oppa.. ? if you meet a ty woman i'm really going to kill you !" i tried to joke but oppa is still standing there looking at me helplessly .. this situation really brought a great pang through my heart ..

one last time i looked at him and then smiled.. my footsteps was already outside the door when i heard him yell.

"i really am going to wait for you kim taeyeon!! no matter how long it is! i'm really going to wait for you!!" those words caused my tears to fell uncontrolably. i didn't hesitate to look back at him but just decided to walk ...

i didn't realize that tears are falling with my eyes still shut.. i wiped it hurriedly. then just played the song i wanted to hear whenever i feel down ..

i started browsing through my phone then .. "found it!" i whispered quietly.

it will always be my most treasured song ...

"KISS THE RAIN"