Minho's POV

Raina followed Taemin into Taemin & I's room, that we share, and locked the door behind themselves. I stood there, hands sweating, not knowing what to do. Just staring at the white door. 

What are they doing in there?

Why does she like him?

Why not me?

Key noticed me staring at the door and put his arm around me. I looked at my feet, embarassed. "Dongsaeng-ah, you're only making yourself more upset by doing this." He told me.

I shook my head, and felt my eyes begin to become teary. I let my bangs fall in front of my eyes.

"You need to take your mind off of her for a little bit... Waiting out here for her to come out isn't going to do anything..." He continued.

"You know... That's my room too... They just went in... and where am I gonna sleep now..." I said, trying not to sound to upset. I sat down on a couch and the TV. The video of Raina and Taemin kissing that the surveillance camera recorded was playing. But it wasn't only kissing. They were all over each other. I gasped, dropping the remote. I felt my tears start to fall. Key grabbed the remote off of the ground and turned the TV off. 

"Minho..." He said, gently.

I looked at him, madly this time. So he could see how much this really hurt me. None of them really truly understand how much I love her. She's the best and worst thing that has ever happened to me. Taemin doesn't love her as much as I do. There is no way.

So, I stood up and stomped over to the room where they were. For a second, I listened to see if they were talking, but I heard nothing. That made me even more mad. So I knocked on the door, hard, only to get no answer. 

"Minho! What are you doing?!" Key said, coming to me. I jiggled the doorknob and he tried to get my hands off of it.

"Key. Leave me alone." I growled, looking at him straight in the eyes. He sighed and walked away to his room. I felt hot tears rolling down my cheeks as I jiggled the doorknob with more and more strength. 

"Who is it~?" I heard Taemin say, slightly annoyed, from the inside.

"Let me in." I growled at him.

"No. Why?"

"THIS IS MY ING ROOM TOO, OKAY." I said, raging with anger. He was such a little brat, claiming the room like this.

He unlocked the door and opened it, looking at me, annoyed. I grabbed him by the collar of his shirt, "You little-"

"Oppa, don't~" Raina said to me, looking at me with a scared puppy look. I sighed, releasing Taemin's shirt. He smirked at me, and I pushed him out of the room, locking me in with Raina.

"Oppa what are you doing?!!" She said. Taemin was pounding on the door, yelling.

I looked at her, and when I say looked at her, I mean really looked at her. Like, in the most loving way possible. Her eyes widened.

"Oppa...?" She said again. I liked when she called me that. It made me feel warm inside.

She was sitting on the bed, her legs crossed. She looked messy. Her hair was knotty and she looked dizzy- surely Taemin and her had been doing something. 

I sat next to her, quietely. I could hear all of SHINee now pounding on the door and screaming at me. What did they think I was doing? her? I only wanted to talk to her.

"I just wanted to talk to you... This was the only way... I'm sorry if I'm making you uncomfortable..." I said, suddenly becoming shy. I looked at her in the eyes and I felt my cheeks get super red. She nodded, still wide-eyed.

"I don't think you understand how much I love you." I paused. "I know Taemin probably says the same things to you, but really, I've liked you before he did. I appreciated you before he did. Don't you remember how horrible he was? How is it that you can just forgive him?... I know you love him, and not me.... But I don't think you fully understand how much I love you, and how much this is hurting me to see." I started crying, covering my eyes with my bangs like I did before. "Of course, I only want you to be happy. So, be with Taemin. But if he ever hurts you..." I couldn't speak any longer. My sobs were choking up my words. She reached out and with her little soft hand, she wiped away a tear, touching my cheek. Then she tucked my bangs back out of my eyes, but I looked down to avoid her gaze. 

"Don't cry, oppa." She whispered. I didn't have to look at her to know that she was a bit teary-eyed too. I couldn't help but feel some sort of victory.

"Why... Why shouldn't I..." I managed to say.

RAINA'S POV

What am I doing? Wiping his tears, touching his face, and touching his hair....

Is it possible that I have feelings for him too?

Seeing him cry like this, for me... I think I finally understand how he feels. If his intention was to tell me this so I would fall for him... I think it might be working. 

If Taemin didn't exist, I would not hesitate to date Minho. I mean, he's perfect. His lips, his eyes, his hair, his smile, his laugh, the way he treats me. But then there is Taemin...

But what does Taemin have that Minho doesn't?

I can't think of a valid answer.

"Don't cry, oppa." I said, starting to cry along with him. I didn't know what to do. They're both perfect, but I can only have one...

"Why... Why shouldn't I..." He whispered. I couldn't say why, because Taemin had to be listening from outside the door. The knocking and yelling stopped, so surely they were listening.

So instead of saying anything, I gently planted a soft but meaningful kiss on his cheek. When he looked at me, his eyes wide and his mouth wide open, I put a finger to my lips so he knew to not say anything and to keep it a secret. He nodded, biting his lip. I tried to give him my most happy smile, but I was far from happy. How was I supposed to choose between them now?

"I should go... Sleep well..." He said, acting as if I had rejected him. Maybe I should've. He got out of the room and Taemin came in, looking panicked.

"WHAT HAPPENED!?... wait no... tell me, I won't get mad I promise, babe." He said, sitting next to me, where Minho had just been sitting.

I just stared at him. He was sitting exactly where Minho had been and I couldn't help but think of Minho. Tears started to fall out of my eyes and I hid my face in my hands.

"W...what is it?" He said, putting his arm around me. He sounded nervous.

"I.... d-don't... know... whooo..." I sobbed out, but I couldn't manage to say anymore.

He was quiet this time, and I knew he understood. He knew that I had feelings for Minho from the start.

"It's Minho again... right? You still like him?" He said. I looked up at him and he looked away, hurt.

"Taemin..." I said, trying to hug him, but he got up off of the bed, clenching his fists. 

"Oppa?" I said, and he looked at me madly.

"So now you call us both oppa? Are you dating both of us?!!?!?!" He yelled.

"Taemin..." I said, starting to cry again. I got up, but he walked a couple steps away from me.

"Maybe you should just be alone to think about it-" He said.

"No! No!!!! Taemin please don't do this...." I said, walking towards him again. This time he didn't move away, but when I tried to grab his hand, he flinched and pushed me away. He was biting his lip and crying, but I could tell he was trying to supress it.

"How can I just forgive you so easily? You know how much this hurts?! It's like someone ripping out my heart, over and over!!! WHY CAN"T YOU UNDERSTAND THAT? Please, don't do THIS to me! I can't take it any longer!" He said, grabbing my shoulders and shaking me. He started to cry really hard. I regretted kissing Minho. Seeing Taemin like this made me understand why I liked him more. But now I ruined it, like everything else.

I sighed quietely, trying to stop sobbing. My sobs were finally reduced to sniffles.

"I'm so sorry... I didn't mean to hurt you. I'm really stupid." I said, bowing my head in shame.

He was crying harder by the second, and he just shook his head. He walked over to the bed, sat down, and started crying into his hands. His sobs and words were muffled by his hands.

How could I do this to the one I love? I fought so hard for him and now I'm the cause of all of his pain? In that instant, seeing how upset he was, I really wished I could just drop dead. I got up and got the box of tissues from my desk, handing one to Taemin. He looked up at it, at first reluctant to take it, but then he did, wiping his eyes.

I sat back down next to him. "I really want to die right now.... I'm so sorry I hurt you so much Taemin.... Maybe it's better if you do leave me... I don't deserve you after all of this." I sighed. I really didn't deserve him.

He looked at me and said, "I'm sorry too, but I think I just need some time to think."

I took a deep breath. That felt like a sharp knife piercing through my heart. Now, I understand how it must've felt to him. "I need some time to think" is basically a nice way of saying, "we're done". I looked at the floor, my palms shaking. I felt myself starting to cry again. 

Before I started to cry again, I ran out of the room, not looking behind myself. I grabbed my coat and ran out of the dorm, into the streets, ignoring the calls from the rest of SHINee. I looked up at the sky and felt water showering down on me, but I couldn't tell if it was rain, or just my tears. I didn't know where I was or how to get home, but I ran in a certain direction like I knew exactly where I was going. I got tired, and sat on a bench, waiting for something, anything.

But nothing came.

In the movies, the girl runs out into the rain after getting into a fight with her boyfriend and he comes to get her, and they make up, sharing a beautiful kiss under the rain. I knew I hoped that would happen, but another part of me knew it wouldn't. And it never did.

I woke up the next morning on the same bench, somewhat dry. I checked my pockets for any money or for my phone, but I had nothing, realizing I left it all at SHINee's dorm. I sighed, closing my eyes, trying not to scream of frustration. What was I supposed to do now?

I got up, my shoes squeaking from the water inside. I approached an old man and asked him for directions, but he said he didn't think it was possible to get there walking. Neither did I.

And that's when I saw Key. He was soaked and looked insanely tired, but when he saw me, his face lit up. I thanked the man I had spoken to and ran over to Key, happy someone had come for me.

"Oh my god, I was worried sick! What happened to you?! I asked both Taemin and Minho but they wouldn't speak!" He said, pulling me into a big, wet hug.

I laughed a little, despite my horrible situation. "It's a long story... Are you the only one looking for me? I thought no one would come..." 

"Minho tried, but Taemin and him started fighting and left the dorm as well. Jonghyun and Onew were asleep even before Minho talked to you, so I didn't want to wake them. So yeah, I'm alone."

"T-taemin left?! Where is he?!" I panicked.

"Shhhh, calm down. I'm sure they'll come back soon. Don't worry. I'll call him, okay? Let's just get home first." 

I nodded, following him back to the dorm.