Again, those pair of eyes radiate disappointment, fear, hurt, confusion all mixed together… Kyuhyun had always mesmerized by those glassy eyes yet he also hates its ability to radiate pain to his heart… 

"Ah, Kyuhyun-ah, I have something to return to you... I'll get it in my room... Wait a second, okay!" Sooyoung quickly said to dissolve the awkwardness between them.. "Hi Na-yah" she greeted her briefly before making a quick exit into her room...

The two people left in the living room were silent... They had many things to talk about, yet not a single word came out from their lips...

"You're not asleep yet?" Kyuhyun finally able to say something after a good 2-3 minutes

Silence....  

She didn't reply nor moved from her spot... Hand still gripping the door knob tightly... Eyes were still locked on Kyuhyun's with tears threaten to fall...

Is this real? Is that her Kyuhyun oppa standing over there about to kiss another girl? Or is it just a dream? Or maybe she actually hasn't woken up yet after the heart transplant? That everything that had happened these past few months was just her imagination... It's just a dream... In reality, she is still unconscious after the transplant… that Kyuhyun is sitting next to her bed in the hospital, hoping that she will wake up soon... She just doesn't recognize the person standing in front of her anymore...

"Na-yah... Are you okay?" He asked her again, now walking towards her

She still didn't mutter a word... Fixing her gaze to his every move...

"Yah! Cho Nana..." he said and touching her slightly shaking hand that was clenching the door knob for its dear life… he could see her knuckles turned white from the hard grip…

However, when they had the skin to skin contact, Nana let go of the door knob and avoiding his grip... Refused to be touch...

Kyuhyun was in shock... She never rejected him... She had always nice and patient towards him... No matter how many times he rejected her, she would be there, helping him and supported him all the way... But now? She suddenly doesn't want to be touched by him... Kyuhyun's gaze travel up to the pair of eyes that he’s been avoiding... To his surprise, he didn't find anger in her eyes... He found disappointment and sadness instead....

Kyuhyun never knew that Nana's feeling would affect him that much... That her being sad made him felt uneasy... uncertain... and hurt? He doesn't want her to feel that way...

Without even thinking twice, he pulled her close and hugged her... He could feel that she wanted to resist him at first... But Kyuhyun was hugging her tightly... Making no room for her to reject him... So she stayed quiet and not moving... She didn't hug him back... Both of her arms were dangling by her side freely, refusing to circle around his body... 

They didn't speak... Only trying to feel each other's heart beat... Kyuhyun could feel that his heart rate is speeding up... Something that he just noticed only happened whenever he was with her.... with his sister...

Even though Nana didn't say a word, he knew she was relaxing in his embrace... She was burying her face on his chest... Nana was inhaling and exhaling Kyuhyun's scent... She missed his scent... And that helped her to calm down... At least she knew that he is still her oppa... That he is still the same person that once loved her...

"Do you want to sleep with me tonight?" he asked her suddenly

To his surprise, he could feel her nodding on his chest...

"Go to my room first, I'll be there soon" he whispered and let go of her

Kyuhyun could see that she looked a bit disappointed that he didn't come with her that instance... But he tried to shrug it off... He didn't even know the reason she was upset...

Nana didn't argue though, she walked across the room to Kyuhyun's room...

Sooyoung showed up a moment later...

"Is she okay?" she asked him softly

Kyuhyun smiled faintly... "I don't know" he said

"I think she's jealous" she said

"Je...alous?" Kyuhyun felt like he was just struke by lightning

Sooyoung nodded excitedly

"But....but I'm her oppa" he said and gulped, did Sooyoung notice something?

"There's nothing wrong with being jealous with your sibling..." Sooyoung said

"Sooooo do... you think it’s normal to be jealous around your sibling?" Kyuhyun asked curiously

Sooyoung nodded again, "Yep, it's totally fine... And understandable" she answered

"So it's normal to feel attracted to your siblings?" Kyuhyun wanted to make sure

Sooyoung nodded again, "It's normal... It's easy to get confused between seeing your sibling as cute and you thought that you feel attracted to them" she said again, "what's with the sudden questions?" she asked him

 "Ah... I... I'm just curious..." he said stuttered, "Ah... What are you going to give me?" he said, hoping to divert her attention

"Ah right! Here...this is yours" she said excitedly while giving him a cell phone

Kyuhyun grabbed the phone from Sooyoung's hand... The phone was pretty messed up to say it lightly... The glass on the phone's screen was broken; the phone has scratches all over it... 

"Yah! Choi Sooyoung! I've always known that you have a weird taste... But is this supposed to be a present?" Kyuhyun asked while looked quite upset

Sooyoung could only laugh... "This is your phone Kyuhyunieee" she said, "your old phone" she explained

When she saw the confuse look from Kyuhyun, PLETTAKkkkk!!! She hit his head again... Every time she finds Kyuhyun's adorable expression, she couldn't help but to hit him so he would pout again...

"Yah! Choi Sooyoung! Do you want to die??" Kyuhyun was shocked when he got hit and its true, a familiar pout showed up after that

Sooyoung chuckled again before ruffling Kyuhyun's hair lightly... "It was from the accident... You forgot to pick up your belonging at the hospital... This phone came few days after you got admitted, they recovered it from the scene" she explained

"Ahhhh" Kyuhyun said and nodded, observing the foreign object in his hand

CUP! Kyuhyun was stunned when he felt a kiss on his right cheek...

He looked up and found Sooyoung already in front of her room, "Good night Kyuhyun-ah!" she said without looking back at him

"Yah! Choi Sooyoung!" Kyuhyun called her and success to make her stop in front of the door

"What?" she asked, still not looking back

"Uhmmm... Thank you" he said slowly...

Sooyoung was blushing when she heard Kyuhyun thank her for kissing him... She turned back and smile at him shyly, a side of her that she has yet to show him...

Kyuhyun grinned and said, "For the phone" he said while pointing at the phone in his hand and tried to look innocent...

The short sentence succeeds in swallowing Sooyoung's shy smile... It is now changed into a big smirk... "Yah! Kyuhyunie, We actually not sure if that's your phone or not..." she said, and quickly added, "It might be belong to the deceased taxi driver for all we know" she whispered before disappearing to her room

"Yah! Choi Sooyoung! You know I hate horror stories the most!" he yelled at her, however, she was already gone

Pouting, Kyuhyun walked back to his room, where he found his sister lying on the bed, she covered her whole body head to toe with the blanket

Kyuhyun turned off the light and quickly put the phone on his desk near the bed... He climbed up the bed and looked at the girl lying next to him... Nana was facing the other direction, refusing to face him…

Kyuhyun sighed, he missed her, missed their interactions... Her reaction when she refused him didn't settle well with him... She had always been really fond of him...  But tonight incident triggers something within him...

He purposely tapped her head above the blanket... still no response...

He then put his hand under the blanket and tapped her head again..., still no response from the girl... Kyuhyun tried to ruffle her hair... Hoping that it will somehow disturb her... But again, no response…

Kyuhyun doesn't know why but on his final attempt, he hugged her from behind... Inhaling her strawberry scent relaxed him and he hoped the gesture will relax her too.... Wrapping his arms around her shoulders, he could feel that she was trembling a bit... She moved and wiped her face... Kyuhyun immediately turned her over to face him and he could see stain of tears on her cheeks...

Without even asking, he engulfed her in his arms and cares her hair in an attempt to sooth her... She sobbed and sobbed, buried her face on his chest...

She wrapped her arms around Kyuhyun tightly... Even though Kyuhyun hug her just to comfort her crying self…. so be it… If Kyuhyun only hugged her because she’s his sister… so be it… If this is the only way to hug him… so be it… SHE…. MISSES…. HIM….

After a while, she calmed down, though still refused to let him go..

"Na-yah, are you okay?" Kyuhyun asked the girl in his arms for several times already… he’s worried…

Nana nodded, but didn't mutter a word

"Are you mad at me?" he asked her

To his surprise, she slowly nodded

"Do you want to tell me why?" he asked again

The girl shook her head

Kyuhyun could only sighed, "I'm sorry..." he said softly

Nana finally looked up to Kyuhyun, her eyes were puffy red, the tip of her nose was red too, she pouted her lips... Kyuhyun was a bit stunned when he saw her... She's soooo adorable!!!! She looks like Rudolf the red nosed reindeer!

"What did you apologize for oppa?" she asked, speaking to him for the first time that night

"Uhm... Everything?" he answered unsurely... She might be mad because he's been busy these days.... He hadn't had a chance to take her to school anymore... His busy work plus now he has to take Sooyoung around Seoul everyday... She might miss him just like how much he's been missing her...

She pouted, “That’s very insincere!” she said

Kyuhyun chuckled and ruffled her hair lightly…. “Let’s go back to sleep… you have school tomorrow… it’s too late!” he said

“Ne Ahjussi” she smirked and turned back to face the window…

“What??? Ahjussiii????” he said and started to tickle her from the back…

“Oppa….oppa… oppa” she said in between her laughs…

“That’s too late” Kyuhyun said and kept tickling her….

“I’m tired…. Tired” she tried to tell him in between her laughs….

DEGH! That familiar thump kicked her… her hand automatically reached for her heart… What is it? She focused her view to the ceiling…

“Na-yah?” Kyuhyun suddenly stopped and watched her closely as she paled and looking at the ceiling blankly, “Yah! Are you okay?” he became alarmed all of sudden…

Nana suddenly become alert and averted her gaze from the ceiling and looked at him in the eye…  Her color came back to her pale face… Suddenly she laughed… “Got you!” she said

“Ck!...” Kyuhyun was upset, “Why would you do that!” he said and pouted, “That’s not even funny!” he added

“Served you right! That’s funny to me… Oppa’s expression was funny to me!” she said and buried her face inside the blanket again

Kyuhyun could only sigh and laid his back to the bed… Somehow, being together with her on the bed like this… feels right…

*******************

Kyuhyun went down stairs with Nana the next morning… Sooyoung was just like usual, helping Donghae’s mom with breakfast….

“Aigoooo… I miss you dongsheng….” Donghae said when Nana showed up from the top of the stairs… he ran up to her but at the last minute was drawn to Kyuhyun instead… Kyuhyun had pulled him aside and hugged him…

“I miss you too, hyung!” he said with a smirk

PLETAAAKKKKK! Donghae hit his head…. “Not you evil dongsheng!” Donghae said averted his gaze to (this is Donghae’s imagination) “an angel” smiling brightly beside Kyuhyun…

“Aigooo… I’ll be happy if I can see you like this every day!” he said and pinched her cheek

 Sooyoung laughed at the bottom of the staircase… “You’re right! Donghae oppa likes to hit your head!” she giggled

“High five Sooyoung-ah!” Donghae told her and gave her his hand

Sooyoung gladly accept it while Kyuhyun was pouting and pulled his dongsheng’s hand away from the two people… “Come here Na-yah… don’t let you get corrupted from those evils” he said and took her to the dining table

“Where’s Aboji?” Kyuhyun asked Donghae’s mom when he saw the empty chair at the end of the table

“Your Aboji is really busy these days… he’s going to go back to Japan to take care of some things…” Mrs. Lee said

Kyuhyun only shrugged his shoulder…

“Yah… Otokke…. Appa is gone already, and I have a really important meeting in an hour…” he said while glancing to his sister…

“Kyuhyun-ah, are you going somewhere this morning?” Donghae asked his other dongsheng

“We’re going to visit the theme park” Sooyoung answered for Kyuhyun instead, “I heard you have to go early morning if you want to try lots of the rides… or it will be packed like weekends… “

“Ahhh… jinja?” Donghae said

Nana was unknowingly upset when she heard Sooyoung answered for Kyuhyun, let alone when she heard that they are going to visit the theme park… They have lots of memories in there… and for him to take another girl there, she felt like somehow, he’s cheating on her….

“I don’t want you to go by bus… I think it will rain soon...” Donghae said, “I’ll just be late for the meeting” he added with a smile

Nana smiled at her oppa… Donghae is indeed the best… She shook her head lightly, “It’s okay… Yunho oppa actually live nearby… he might be able to give me a ride to school” she said

Kyuhyun chocked on his orange juice the minute he heard Yunho’s name coming from her lips… “Yah! Didn’t Yunho ride the bus as well?” he said

Nana nodded, “but in the morning Jung Ahjussi dropped him off at the school before he went to work… he only ride the bus to get home” she explained…

What? Jung Ahjusii???? Are you that close to that Yunho boy that you’re friendly with his dad as well?

Donghae sighed, “In normal circumstances, I would really hate that… but since I can’t really miss this meeting and I would prefer that compare to you taking the bus alone Na-yah!”

“But hyung,…” Kyuhyun was about to protest when Donghae’s mom chuckled

“Well, it’s been a while since I’ve seen Yunho-sshi… he’s such a polite boy… and he’s always been kind to our Nana” she said

That last statement just boiled up Kyuhyun’s anger… How come everyone entrust this little petite girl to an unknown young man… a perfectly healthy young man who is at the age where he will be full of passions and curiosity about the other gender… Sure, his dad will be there with them… but that makes it even more dangerous… what if both dad and son are in it together? Just because Nana is not the biological daughter of this family, doesn’t mean that they don’t have to protect her, right?

“I’m going to call Yunho oppa” Nana said while got up from her seat

Kyuhyun held her hand before she could even stand up properly… Nana looked at him curiously, so did everyone in that room…

“I’ll take you to school myself” he said while still spooning his food with his other hand

“Huh?” That’s all she could say to him… she looked surprised…

“But… Yunho oppa…” she tried to say something, but Kyuhyun cut her off

“I said, I will take you to school” he repeated his sentence, still, not looking at her

“Oh…” she answered and sat back to her seat… Her gaze traveled to Sooyoung who looked confuse

“We can go tomorrow!” Kyuhyun looked up to Sooyoung

“But…. Isn’t tomorrow is Saturday? The park will be full, right?” she asked confusedly

“What’s a theme park without the crowds!!!” Kyuhyun said trying to sound excited about the crowd and divert the conversation

“Ah… that’s good Sooyoung-ah… you can actually shop with me… Kyuhyun never brought you to shop right?” Mrs. Lee’s eyes sparkled… She had always like to shop with her future ‘daughter in law’… “We can go later when Mr.Kim back from the office” she added

“Ah… sure Ommoni” Sooyoung said, recovered from her initial shock

But the other girl in the room has not recovered from her shock… She curiously observed the guy sitting next to her… Kyuhyun purposely cancel his arrangement with Sooyoung just to take her to the school… He didn’t do it some other day… nope! Only today… only when she mentioned someone… only when she mentioned Yunho…  She tried to connect the dots… At that time… Kyuhyun also angered because the mention of Yunho… and when Yunho touched her shoulders, he sent him flying to the floor… An idea popped up in her brain… but she just has to test it out first…

In the car, they were quite… Kyuhyun looked at the girl sitting neatly beside him… Is she upset that she can’t go to school with that Yunho-boy?

“Uhm… Na-yah, I didn’t get to ask yesterday… how close are you to Yunho?” he asked

Nana looked at her oppa with a smirk, BINGO!

“Pretty close…” she said and decided to make it sounded uncertain

“Like how close?” he repeated the question but Nana saw his knuckles turned white while gripping the steering wheel hard…

“What do you mean how close?” she sounded confuse

“Uhm… like us close?” he asked

“Are we close?” she asked him back, now shifting her gaze to his face

“We are right? We slept together” Kyuhyun said and regretted once he heard himself… he sounded like a erted ahjussi

Nana chuckled when she heard him saying that, “If that’s what you mean, oppa… then the answer is No… “ she said, “I haven’t slept with Yunho oppa” she added with a wink

Kyuhyun knew she was joking, however, he couldn’t help but felt a pang in his heart when she talked about another guy, let along saying that she hasn’t slept with them…

“Uhm… is your friends nice?” Kyuhyun asked her

Nana shook her head, “But they’re not bothering me anymore since they know that you’re my boy friend” she said and grinned

Kyuhyun smiled too… he felt happy when he heard her calling him her boyfriend… “Uhm… why did you tell them my name? You could have told them Donghae hyung’s name, right?” he asked

Nana’s heart skipped a beat when she heard the question, she placed her hand on her heart to calm it down… “Uhm… because… because I don’t want them to fall in love with Donghae oppa… “ she said, “I… I don’t think they’ll like you” she said vaguely

“WHAT???” Kyuhyun was pouting when he heard her saying the reason… “Ck!”

When they finally arrived at school, Nana purposely told Kyuhyun, “Oppa, can you please tell Mr. Kim he doesn’t need to pick me up later? Yunho oppa promised me to take me to the theme park after school today” she said

“What???” Kyuhyun jumped from his seat… He quickly grabbed her arm before she had the chance to open the car’s door

“Yah! Who gave you permission to go to the theme park on school day, let alone with a guy?” he said

Nana could feel Kyuhyun’s tight grip on her arms, but she didn’t care… she was happy…

“Tomorrow is Saturday“, she said and rolled her eyes, “Beside, I’m almost eighteen… and you can tell that Omma really likes Yunho oppa” she said

Kyuhyun tighten his grip, he will not let her go… “But Donghae hyung didn’t seem to like him” he said

Nana smiled faintly even though she almost grinning… “I’m sure Donghae oppa will understand… beside he’s busy… I haven’t visited the park for such a long time” she whined

Kyuhyun shook his head, “If you want to visit the park, we can go together with Sooyoung tomorrow!” he said

“But I don’t like to go with the three of us” she sulked

“I thought you said you wanted to go to the theme park?” Kyuhyun asked her confusedly

Nana nodded, “True… but Yunho oppa has to come too” she said

“What??? NO! Why?” he quickly said

Nana pretended to pout again, “If you don’t want me to go with Yunho oppa today, then all four of us can go together tomorrow” she said, “And that’s final” she said while looking at him directly in the eyes

Kyuhyun looked at her suspiciously and began to fire questions, “Do you like him? Do you like Yunho that much? I thought you just wanted to visit the park? But that’s not the truth, Right? You actually just wanted to be with him?” he said

At a regular day, Nana would be really upset with his accusation. But she planned this, she knew that Kyuhyun would be furious whenever she mentioned about Yunho.

“Oppa! You’re really weird? Is there something wrong with liking Yunho oppa?” she said

Kyuhyun looked up to her, speechless… his heart hurt?

“I’ve told you so many times… I’m almost eighteen… I’m allowed to like whoever I want… You seemed to be quiet fond of Sooyoung onnie yourself! And you don’t see me arguing about it!” she told him

“I… I… that’s…. “ Kyuhyun stuttered

“Do you really like her?” Nana asked him softly, Kyuhyun looked up when he saw those crystal clear pair of eyes, pleading at him… telling him to say “No”…

“I… don’t know” he finally managed to say… and he saw those pretty eyes diverted its gaze towards the dashboard…

“I’m sorry…” he said, he doesn’t know why he said it… why he apologize for not knowing whether or not he likes Sooyoung… he raised his hand and found her pale cheeks… he brushed her right cheeks with his thumb… feeling the smooth skin on his rough finger… she still didn’t look up at him…

“Oppa… “ she finally said, still not looking at him, “I don’t like Yunho oppa… I’ve told you right” she said. Nana then looked up to his eyes, she looked so tender and vulnerable at the same time, “I like someone else… I can’t tell you yet… but I’ve promised you that when the time is right, I will tell you” she said

Her heart is not ready to tell Kyuhyun yet… What is she going to say? That he was a bad guy who dated his own sister? That they loved each other? He must think that she’s crazy…. She has to make him realize that he loves her first before telling him about them…

Kyuhyun put his hand down… “I’ll pick you up at 3… You better be here” is all he said before drove off after she climbed out from the car

Nana watched as Kyuhyun’s car disappeared from the driveway, Oppa, I will make sure you’ll love me again…

As she walked to her class, she glanced to Yunho’s class and couldn’t find him… it’s weird, Yunho always arrived early…

***********************

“Ah… you had a flu, oppa?” Nana was talking on the phone at home after school

“Is that why you didn’t come to school today?” she asked him again

“Yeah….” Yunho answered, he still sounded a bit sick, “I’m all better, I just don’t want to spread the germs… so I decided to stay home for a day… tomorrow is weekend anyway” he said

“Ahhh… I see… I hope you feel all better Oppa!” she said

“I am…. How do you know I’m off today? Did you look for me?” he asked, being hopeful

“Yeah… I needed something but it’s not important anymore… “ she said, “Well, have a good night oppa” she added

“Wait…. What did you need me for?” Yunho asked

“It’s nothing important really,… it’s okay!” Nana said, her whole plan to make Kyuhyun jealous is now crumbled

“It is important to me… so what is it?” Yunho insisted

Nana laughed, “Oppa… it’s nothing important….  You have to rest!” she said

“I can’t rest until I know what it is” he said firmly

Nana sighed, why all of the guys in her life are so persistent? “I was just wondering if you want to go to the theme park tomorrow” she said, “I didn’t know that you’re sick!” she quickly said

Yunho was in cloud nine when he heard that she wanted to go to the theme park with him, “No…. I’m not sick… I told you that I’m fine already” he said

“No… oppa… it’s fine! We can go another day!” she said, suddenly, she doesn’t feel that good anymore involving Yunho… Yunho oppa is such a nice person… he deserved better!

“I’m fine… really! What time do you want me to pick you up?” he asked excitedly

Nana sighed, “Uhm…. Kyuhyun oppa and of his friend actually will come with us… so… I’ll meet you there?” she asked, her heart ached a bit when she said it… is this really okay?

Yunho was quite for a while before he answered, “Okay, I’ll see you there!” he said, “And Na-yah, thank you for inviting me” he added before hanging up

Nana was looking at the phone for a long time and sighed… Is this okay? Is Yunho oppa will be okay? But this will work, right? Kyuhyun will realize that he was jealous with Yunho… he will realize that he likes her

“Are you going to the theme park with Yunho?” someone suddenly asked her from the back

Nana jumped when she heard the voice, she didn’t expect anyone to hear her conversation…

“O…oppa?” she looked at her oppa nervously….

“I don’t know that you and Yunho are that close… and are you going there tomorrow because Kyuhyunie is going with Sooyoung?” Donghae asked, there’s that concern look in his eyes when he spoke

“I…. No, Yunho oppa asked me to go with him a while ago” she said while looking at the floor

Donghae knew that Nana couldn’t look at people straight in the eye whenever she’s lying. “Are you sure?” he asked her

Nana nodded quickly and walked away from Donghae. However, Donghae caught her arm as she passed. “If you only do this to make Kyuhyun jealous, then don’t do it. You’re going to hurt a lot of people in the process” he said without even looking back at her

“O...ppa… this is has nothing to do with you… so don’t in” she said and tried to release her arm from Donghae’s grip. However, Donghae was a lot stronger that she is… “I know you’re better than this” he said

“Hyung…” Donghae looked up and saw Kyuhyun walked pass them… Kyuhyun’s gaze fix to his hand, gripping Nana’s arm tightly… Donghae immediately released his grip…

 “Are you guys okay?” he looked at both of them confusedly

“We’re okay…. “ Nana smiled awkwardly… “I’ll see you tomorrow morning” she said and walked really fast to her room and closed the door instantly without even looking back at Donghae…

“Is she okay?” Kyuhyun asked Donghae

Donghae was still watching the closed door worriedly and sighed… He went back to his room without saying anything…

What is this? Kyuhyun thought…

***********************

“Uwaaaaa…. Your boyfriend is so handsome Na-yah!” Sooyoung said when Yunho finally approached them in front of LOTTE world entrance

“He’s not her boyfriend” Kyuhyun said under his breath, he felt annoyed for some reasons

Yunho waived his hand when he saw her… he looked a bit pale, but nevertheless excited…

“Anyionghaseyo, Jung Yunho-imnida” he bowed to Sooyoung and slightly to Kyuhyun

“Oppa… are you okay?” Nana asked him when she saw him looking a bit pale…

“I’m okay… I just need to wear this face mask so I won’t infect you” he said while putting the face mask on his face

“If you’re sick then you shouldn’t come” Kyuhyun said before paying for the entrance ticket

“This is the power of love! Right, Yunho-sshi?” Sooyoung said excitedly

Yunho was looking down and appeared blushing… but nonetheless nodded… When Nana saw that, again, it doesn’t sit well with her… Is this wrong? Why I don’t feel good at all?

They went to an ice cream parlor…

“Ahjussi, 5 scoops of strawberry ice cream please… “ Kyuhyun said…. However, before he turned back to ask what flavor ice cream that Sooyoung wanted… His sight fell on Yunho and Nana… “Ahjuma… give me some strawberry flavored ice cream please” he said politely while smiling brightly to Nana

“Yah! Cho Kyuhyun, how do you know I love strawberry ice cream?” Sooyoung asked excitedly…

“Ah… I think you mentioned it before” he sounded disappointed and paid for the ice cream… It was for his sister originally…

“Is that telepathy?” Sooyoung asked again

Kyuhyun could only nod…

However, Nana didn’t miss the sight… Determined, she would get her oppa back at all cost…

She grabbed Yunho’s hand with her when they left the parlor, purposely walking ahead of Kyuhyun and Sooyoung

Sooyoung slipped one of her arms to Kyuhyun’s…. “Ah… young love” she said while looking at the sight in front of them

“Uhm…” the only thing that Kyuhyun said, if stare could kill… there would be holes at Yunho’s back by now…

“Should we ride the roller coaster?” Sooyoung asked the group

Yunho nodded excitedly, “I heard when you scream, it could heal cold” he said and grinned

But Kyuhyun’s gaze fell upon the girl beside Yunho… she looked scare…

“Sooyoung-ah, you can go with Yunho… I’ll wait here with Nana…” Kyuhyun said once they were at the entrance for the ride

“Uhm… why?” Sooyoung asked

“Don’t ask! Just go!” he said and pushed both of them together…

“Is Kyuhyunie afraid of roller coaster?” Sooyoung talked to herself when they were waiting in line to get to the ride

Yunho shook his head, “Na-yah had a heart problem before…. She wasn’t allowed to go on these rides… you can read the sign that said it’s prohibited for someone with a weak heart” he said… “I didn’t even realize it when I agreed on the ride” Yunho added, he regretted being so excited about the ride

“Ahhh…. Hm… Kyuhyunie is such a good oppa…” she nodded, “Yunho-sshi, don’t be discouraged… I can tell that Na-yah really likes you!” she winked at him

Yunho only smiled weakly… It seems that this nuna doesn’t know about their feelings towards each other yet…

“Why you looked so discouraged?” Sooyoung nudged him because he didn't look excited anymore

“Is it because of Kyuhyun?” Sooyoung asked again

Yunho was quite for a while before slowly nodded.

Sooyoung taped his shoulder a couple times to sooth him, “Don’t worry… Kyuhyun was just being really protective of his little sister… I’m sure he’ll warm up to you” she said… “He’s just originally a cold person” she added

Yunho could only nodded

Seeing her words didn’t make any effect, Sooyoung continued, “Don’t worry… I’ll try to help you guys out!” she said and winked

Meanwhile, waiting at the exit….

“Uhm… Thank you oppa” Nana said softly while munching her ice cream

Kyuhyun only nodded, “Why, I’m scared too…” he said

Nana pouted, “No you’re not!” she said

Kyuhyun only chuckled, he picked up the ice cream bowl from her hand and gave her his bowl instead… Nana looked at him confusedly.

“Yours have more” he said and started to eat his ice cream

Nana could only smile… But oppa, you bought 5 scoops… Yunho oppa only bought me 3 scoops… Is this plan really working?

“Kyuhyunie… lets ride something else” Sooyoung said excitedly once they were done with the roller coaster ride… “Yunho would like to try the ice ring… so we can split up” she added and winked at Yunho before pulling Kyuhyun’s hand to the other direction forcefully

“Yah! Choi Sooyoung!” Kyuhyun was upset when he was basically dragged to another roller coaster ride

Sooyoung smacked his head, “Yah! Can’t you feel the situation? They can’t do anything because you’re there!” she said

“Who can’t do anything?” Kyuhyun asked while rubbing his hurting head

“Yunho-sshi and Na-yah… don’t you understand? They want to be left alone!  You were watching them wayyyy too closely… Don’t you think?” she said

But before Kyuhyun could say anything, Sooyoung continued, “Or are you really scared of roller coaster ride?” she

Kyuhyun was blushing, “What???” he said

“Let’s ride this for 10 times… the person who quit first loose and have to fulfill the other’s wish?” she said

“Fine!” Kyuhyun said and dragged Sooyoung to the ride…

Meanwhile, at the skate ring….

“You’re doing great Na-yah!” Yunho said… he was holding her hand, while she was trying to balance her self

Nana only nodded, “Do you need some rest?” Yunho asked

Again, she nodded… they’ve been at it for 30 minutes and she was tired… Yunho helped her to get the exit and helped her to take off her skate…

“I’ll buy some drink for you” he said and left her to get some drink

Nana sighed, this is not what she wanted… Yunho looked so happy when he was with her… is this okay?

“Here...” Yunho offered her some Strawberry milk… “It’s so refreshing to drink some milk after skating” he said… most of the time, Yunho talked to her about everything… there were never silent moment between them… Yunho always asked questions, talking to her… he cares a lot about her…

“Hehe…” Yunho was smiling when he was sipping his milk

“What’s wrong oppa?” she asked

Yunho smiled at her, “Today, Na-yah… you asked me out on your own… so I was happy” he said sincerely.

“Recently I’ve been going to your class a lot, forcing you to have lunch with me, I was afraid that maybe you thought that I was being too obvious… I was afraid you’d avoided me… But now I’m not worried anymore… So it’s great” he continued while smiling

Degh… her heart ached for the first time for someone who isn’t Kyuhyun…

“Do you want to go for the second round?” Yunho asked while offering his hand to her…

“Yunho-sshi, is it okay if I steal your date for a while?” a voice was heard

Nana looked up and saw Donghae was standing right in front of her…

“I… I have to go skating with Yunho oppa” she was stuttering and grabbed Yunho’s hand

However, Donghae was faster… he grabbed her arm and dragged her through the crowd… Leaving the confused looking Yunho alone. “If you want to skate… you can skate with me” he said and pulled her to the skating ring

Donghae was holding her hand tightly so she won’t fall down… “Are you okay? Can you stand?” he asked her

Nana was quite, “Why… why did you come, oppa?” she said

Donghae sighed, he could see the hurt in her eyes… he knew the person responsible for it…

“Na-yah, you’re not the type who will feel nothing after hurting someone, right? You might not know this, but you’re also hurting yourself right now…” he said calmly

“Oppa, you wouldn’t understand…. You don’t know the pain that I went through… you don’t know anything” she said firmly

But Donghae only smile, he stayed calm, “Just because you went through something painful, does it mean you can do anything? Including hurting Yunho? You know he likes you…”

Each of Donghae’s words stabbed her… she, out of everyone… should know how it felt to like someone one sided… she knows firsthand how it felt to get your hope high but just to fall even deeper… And now, she’s doing it to Yunho… she used him…

Some tears were threatened to fall from her eyes… she looked up when Donghae wiped it away for her… “I know you’re not that kind of person… you’re too kind… I’ve always called you my angel, didn’t I?” he said

Nana could only nod…

“I save the last dance for Yunho… you have to go home with me after that… okay?” he said softly

Nana nodded again…. She still couldn’t say anything… she was standing by the edge when Yunho came to find her…. He took her hand and helped her towards the crowd in the ice ring…

“Donghae oppa said that you wanted to tell me something” he said

Nana looked down to her feet…. She was afraid… she was afraid to hurt Yunho even more…

“Uhm… I… Actually I didn’t want to say it… but I really respect you oppa… and I still want to be your dongsheng… And believe me, it’s not easy for me to say this“ she started

Yunho could feel that both his hand and Nana’s are trembling… he wasn’t sure if it is because he knew what is coming… or because she was too nervous…

“I… I hate to see Kyuhyun oppa with Sooyoung onnie… So… I wanted him to see me being close to you and make him jealous…” she said softly…..

She slowed down… they reached and stopped at one of the edge… Nana bowed before him, “I’m sorry…” she said, “I used your feelings oppa… I’m sorry” she said again…. “I know I’m pathetic” she finally said it

But to her surprise, Yunho wasn’t mad… he grabbed her shoulders and made her stand back up again…. “You don’t have to apologize” he said while looking at her eyes softly… “If you’re pathetic then I’m worse… I… actually knew about your relationship with Kyuhyun hyung… “ he continued

Nana was shocked, “I saw him kissing you before” he answered her widened questioning eyes

Nana looked down…  “I… even went to see him one time and asked him to give up on you… telling him that it’s illegal to date an underage” he continued… Nana listened to the story in silent…

“I’m sorry for that… I was just in denial… in denial that you loved him… “ he said

“Good luck with everything” he said while tapping her head lightly and disappeared with the crowd

Nana was left alone… She hates herself… When she saw Yunho’s expression… she hates herself for being the one who caused that… Yunho had been way too kind to her… and not only she used him tonight… but she had used him so many times…. She’s a bad person.. she’s not an angel like Donghae said she was… she’s a devil…. Yes… she’s a bad person… she hurt Yunho to get what she wants…

“Na-yah… are you okay?” Donghae asked her

Nana nodded, but couldn’t hide her shaken figure… Donghae hugged her…

“Oppa… please take me home” she said before collapsing in Donghae’s arms… she wasn’t unconscious… but her body doesn’t seem to have any energy left… her knees gave in…

At the other side of the park….

Kyuhyun looked up to her phone, “I’m taking Na-yah home… she’s alright, Don’t worry”

Kyuhyun frowned, why Donghae hyung is here?

“What happened?” Sooyoung asked him…

Kyuhyun shook his head, “Donghae hyung was here and he’s taking Na-yah home….” He said while showing the text message to Sooyoung

Sooyoung shook her head lightly, “Aigooo… you two brothers are the same… very protective of her!” she said….

“I think we have to go home Sooyoung-ah” Kyuhyun said

“But isn’t it said that Na-yah is okay?” Sooyoung asked him, she could see that Kyuhyun was so worried… and that touched her… She always thought that Kyuhyun is just some cold man with no feelings… but she’s seen the other side of him… he cared a lot about his sister…

“When Donghae hyung said not to worry…. That’s the time to worry” he said while impatiently typing up Donghae’s number

Sooyoung was smiling beside him… she took the phone from Kyuhyun and he immediately looked up to her…

“Since I won the bet… I want you to fulfill my wish now…” she said

Kyuhyun squinted his eyes… “But that was just because I didn’t know that I will think about the accident when I rode the rollercoaster!” he said…. thinking about when he gave up riding it more than 2 times and that the accident kept replying on his mind while he was up there upside down…

“It’s just the same” Sooyoung said and grabbed Kyuhyun’s hand and lead him to the bench at the outside park

“Fine! What do you want?” Kyuhyun asked impatiently

“First, sit here…” Sooyoung motioned him to sit in one of the bench… the sky was dark already… people were waiting for the firework shows…

“That’s all you want? I sit here?” Kyuhyun

But Sooyoung didn’t laugh like she usually did… She smiled but nevertheless sat beside him…

“I want you to listen to my story… However, the whole time I’m speaking… you have to look straight to the pond and not looking at me” she pointed the pond in front of them… “And you can’t interrupt me… you can’t ask any questions during or after I finish my story either” she continued

Kyuhyun was confused with all the secrecy but nonetheless nodded to agree

“And lastly,” she said and grabbed Kyuhyun’s face to look at her… “You have to promise me that you won’t judge me through this story” she said

Kyuhyun nodded again before turned to face the pond, he saw the seriousness and vulnerability that he had never seen from her face

Sooyoung sighed, it took her a couple minutes to calm herself and to convince herself to let him know… “You might notice that I’ve never been to so many places in Seoul… even though I left Seoul only for 6 years… That’s because I left Seoul a lot longer than that… I left Seoul the first time when I was 15 years old… “ she said

Kyuhyun was still confused of what’s to come… “My parents both died because of an accident since I was young… My biological oppa…. sold me to a rich guy from Tokyo… to pay off his loan…  “ it was hard for her to continue… it was hard for Kyuhyun to keep his face to the pond… but he managed to do it…  From the corner of his eyes… he could see Sooyoung wiped away her tears… Kyuhyun grabbed one of her hand and squish it… “It wasn’t in the rule that you gave me” he said while still facing to the front

Sooyoung swallowed her uneasiness before continuing, “I won’t tell you anything in details about my period of life at that time… but one day, I managed to escape… and a couple adopted me as their own daughter… paying for all my studies until I became a nurse….” she said

 He always thought that Sooyoung is so lively, that she must have a really good family background… same like Nana, she doesn’t have any parent… same like Nana, she has to struggle with so many things in live…

“Six year ago, for the first time… I came back to Seoul… and I met my oppa for the first time… he went to see me because he needed to borrow some money… I watched as he kneeled down before me… apologizing and telling me if he didn’t pay off his loan… he would be dead…” she said again and stopped for a few minutes

“But I didn’t…. I didn’t give it to him… I thought he was only after my money… I was still mad at him… I thought I should give him a lesson for doing that to me…” she said, now sobbing uncontrollably

“But then… He died…. They said he committed suicide…. But I knew the loan shark must have something to do with it… he died the day after we met… “ she continued, “I felt like I’m such a horrible person… I was mean and cocky… But I went back to work the next day… acting like nothing had happened in Korea…. I hide behind my own mask… I acted like I’m an angel sent for the patients… but I’m not… I’m a bad person” she said

“When… when I see how you and Donghae oppa were so concern about Na-yah… I couldn’t help but to feel jealous… even though she’s not your biological sister… both of you will move sky and earth just to make sure she’s okay….but my biological brother… he… he…” she finally broke down and buried her face in her palm…

Kyuhyun immediately hugged her… “I’m sorry… I’m sorry Sooyoung-ah… I’m sorry for what had happened to you!” he repeatedly said in her ear….

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“How’s Na-yah?” Kyuhyun asked when he saw Donghae walked out from his room. Kyuhyun was just taking Sooyoung back to her room and was about to check on Nana

“She’s fine… she’s in my room” he said and walked towards the stair

“Hyung” Kyuhyun stopped him, “Why are you there? Why did you have to take her home, not Yunho?” he asked

“Why can’t I be there? You were there, weren’t you?” he shrugged his shoulders

But Kyuhyun wouldn’t let go…. “You know what… this is really bothering me and I have to ask you” he said

There’s something about Donghae and Nana that had bothered him a lot these past couple of days… Donghae knew who she liked, and he never seen Nana with any other guys but Yunho, Donghae and himself… They kept telling him that they will tell him when the time is right… Last night Donghae was holding her tightly… Everything could only lead him to one conclusion…

“Ask then” Donghae looked confused

“Do… do you like Na-yah?” Kyuhyun hesitantly asked, “Or… or are you the person she likes?” he said

“PFTTTTT PWahhahahaha” Donghae was laughing so hard when he heard the question

“Yah! What kind of question is that?!” Donghae smacked him on the head….

Kyuhyun pouted… “I just want to make sure” he said

“What? That I don’t fall in love with her?” Donghae asked, I already did… a long time ago… he thought

Kyuhyun mumbled, “You know she’s our sister… and she’s too young… I just don’t want you to make her confused or take advantage of her… You guys looked really suspicious these days…”

Donghae sighed… “I wish I could tell you the same!” he said and tapped his shoulder

“Huh? What do you mean?” he asked confusedly

Donghae shook his head, “I’ll let you know when the time is right” he said and walked down the stairs…

“And hyung” he called him again

Donghae looked up, “What?”

“When is Na-yah birthday?” he asked

Donghae frowned, “Why do you ask?” he said

“Uhm… I… I was just curious since she always said that she’s almost 18” he answered

“Uhm… it will be next week on Sunday” he answered

“Thanks hyung!” Kyuhyun said and quickly went back to his room

Why did he ask? He pulled out the broken phone from his desk beside the bed… He had been trying to get into the phone… however it asked for a password… he tried his birthday but it doesn’t work… If he was as close to Nana as everyone had been telling him… then it’s worth to try her birthday

He checked the calendar and found the date… he punched in the date and….. BINGO! It opened…

Kyuhyun tried to look through the inside folders… but most of the screen had been broken that he couldn’t see anything…

Ck! So it is useless to have the password….

He tried to click on some button… when suddenly he could hear noises from the phone…

“Oppa….”

“I…. I…. miss you…..”

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It's a bit longer than usual... I hope it made up for not updating last week.... Things had been really hectic for me that I don't even have time to do anything... T^T.... But I'm not complaining! I'm happy to be able to work and to share this story with all of you! Thank you!