*10 years ago*

 

 

 

 

“Where are we going?” asked Jhope as he followed Jisoo who was walking fast. “Why are you in such hurry?”

 

Then Jisoo stopped.

 

He looked around them and realized she brought him to a chapel.

 

“What are we doing here? What happened? Have you changed religion?” he asked as he went to the front facing her.

 

And that’s when he saw she was crying.

 

“Why? I didn’t do anything to you Jisoo.. why are you crying? Your dad will kill me if you-..”

 

Jisoo wiped her tears as she walked inside the chapel.

 

Two days have passed since the accident happened.

Two tormenting days passed by and she hasn’t slept at all..

 

Her parents told her it wasn’t her fault.. that it was supposed to happen anyway even if she hadn’t been on the road that afternoon..

 

But everytime she closes her eyes, she can see the woman’s face.. she seemed to be asking for her help.. which unfortunately she couldn’t give..

 

She had gone to the hospital to ask information about them and she was told that a funeral was being held in a chapel nearby..

 

She thought she needed to pay respect at least..

 

“Jisoo.. what is it? What are we doing here inside?” asked Jhope to her whispering. 

 

He has never entered a chapel before.. and it feels spooky to enter one when a funeral is being held!

 

He turned to Jisoo who was still crying silently.

 

What the heck has happened to her? Does she even know who died?

She has always been weird but she has never been this weird!

 

“Can you at least tell me what we are doing here Jisoo? It feels awkward because I don’t know anyone here..” he said in a low voice as his eyes looked at the people around them.

 

They don’t seem to be people he or Jisoo would know.. and if their parents knew about them then they would have come..

 

Just whose funeral is this?

 

He was still curiously looking around when an old lady came to them and offered some drinks and food.

 

“Thank you ahjumma..” said Jhope as he grabbed two of each for him and Jisoo.

 

He turned to Jisoo.

 

“Look here.. we got some free food.. do you want to eat it now?” he asked smiling a little.

 

But Jisoo didn’t answer him.

 

He noticed she was looking at something to the front.

No.. she was staring at it.. 

 

He followed her gaze..

 

It was a boy.. 

 

A boy who had bruises all over his face.. he was also wearing a bandage around his arm..

 

And that boy.. was staring at something in front of him..

 

It was a picture of a woman and a man..

 

Jhope stood up to see the picture better.

They must be the deceased..

There were two of them..

The woman and the man must be that boy’s parents..

 

“Jisoo.. do you know that boy?” asked Jhope to Jisoo as he sat back. “Is he your classmate?”

 

Jisoo sighed before turning to him.

 

“We should go home now..” she said in a trembling voice as she rose on her feet. 

 

Jhope knit his brows.

Why does she look so sad as if she knew the deceased? What’s her relationship with them?

 

Then he saw Jisoo going out of the chapel.

 

“Wait for me!” he said taking the food that was given to him. “I haven’t even had a bite of my sandwich..”

 

And before he went out, he turned to see the picture again.

 

“I don’t know who you are but.. thank you for the food..” he said in a low voice before hurrying to follow Jisoo.

 

 

 

*end of flashback*

 

 

 

 

 

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“Are you cold?” asked Taehyung as he looked at Jisoo’s face.

 

They were on the bus after visiting his parents.

 

He held her hands.

 

“You’re shivering..” he said worriedly. “I’m sorry.. I didn’t know it’d be cold today..”

 

He quickly took off his jacket and put it over her shoulders.

 

“Cover yourself.. you can’t get sick..” he said smiling as he held her closer to him.

 

But Jisoo wasn’t shivering because of the cold..

 

Fear.. pain.. guilt.. regret..

 

All the emotions she felt back then are haunting her again after learning that the husband and wife who got killed in the accident she had caused back then.. turn out to be her boyfriend’s parents..

 

She can’t believe it.. she doesn’t want to..

What is she going to do now? How is she supposed to tell him that the girl to be blamed is her?

 

She took a deep breath as she kept herself from crying..

 

It took her years to move on from her past.. 

It took her efforts.. lots of them.. before she could forget all of the pain..

 

She developed trauma and depression 10 years ago.. and she had to get treated for them..

 

She would stare blankly nowhere and all of a sudden she would cry..

 

Because she was aware of what she did.. because she knew it was her fault that people died and a boy was left orphan..

 

And it became worse when her father suddenly killed himself resulting her mother to fall into coma..

 

All she had back then was Jhope and his parents..

They would spend all night looking after her.. afraid that she would do something to harm herself..

 

Jhope was always with her whenever she had to see the psychologist.. he never left her side.. and that’s why he’s the only one who knows everything about her..

 

She used to have nightmares about the accident.. every night it would be the same dream.. every night.. she would see that woman and her husband..

 

And that’s when the psychologist advised her to do the “Cognitive behavioral therapy” in which she was able to re-experience the accident..

 

Only after being through the therapy, she was able to change her mindset.. she didn’t blame herself anymore.. although she knew exactly what had happened and how it did..

 

And the most important thing was.. 

she was able to forget and forgive herself..

 

She blamed herself for causing the accident and blamed herself even more for making his father kill himself out of guilt..

 

As she moved on from all of the pain and sorrow she experienced, her memories about the accident faded little by little..

 

She couldn’t remember the faces of the husband and wife anymore.. and neither their son’s..

 

But after hearing the story from Taehyung again.. the memories.. the emotions.. the faces from the past came back to her again.. 

 

 

 

 

Jisoo looked up at Taehyung.

 

“Why?” asked Taehyung smiling wide.

 

Now that he has noticed it, she looks pale.

Is she feeling sick? Maybe because of the bus? Does she have motionsickness?

 

“Are you okay?” he asked holding her face with two hands. “Are you feeling dizzy? Wait for a few minutes and we’ll be home..”

 

Jisoo held his hands tight.

 

Can she continue holding these hands? Is it possible to keep him close to her?

 

Once he learns the truth, he’s going to hate her.. he’s going to leave her.. he will never forgive the girl who killed his parents..

 

Taehyung looked around them before kissing her on her lips quickly.

 

Then he hugged her tight making her lean her head against his chest.

 

“I’ll get a driver’s license one of these days so I can drive you next time..” he said softly. “I had a really bad trauma getting into a car back then.. I couldn’t breathe even if I was just sitting at the back seat..”

 

He smiled as he patted Jisoo’s head.

 

“It took me a lot of years before I could ride a car.. and up until now, I didn’t have any courage to drive one.. but I think I have to get my license if I don’t want you to feel sick..”

 

Jisoo choked back a sob as she listened to him.

 

He wouldn’t say this to her if he knew the truth..

What should she do now? What would happen to them? 

 

 

 

 

———————-

 

 

Jisoo has been calling Jhope since last night but she hasn’t received even a message from him yet.

 

She wanted to ask him if he knew about Taehyung’s parents..

She wanted to ask for his opinion.. that maybe.. her intuition was wrong.. maybe their stories were just really similar..

 

She couldn’t ask Taehyung for more details because she was afraid of him finding out about it.. 

 

Because if he were about to discover she had something to do with his parents’ death, he might leave her..

 

She held her phone tightly in