Joong ki went home with a heart full of longing & hurt. The whisper of yeobin saying sarangae is embedded on his heart. But why does it hurt so much? The weight of those words are shambling his thoughts. He feels empty. Why couldn't I say it back? I obviously have feelings for her.Then why?  What's keeping me at fence? He just can't grasp the fact. When yeobin was caressing his nape, he could feel the incredible warmth of this woman. Even though she herself was hurting, she was there for him! Even when he couldn't say it back! She understood it & was by his side. How can she understand me so well? 

He made himself tea & took a shower. He started to gain his strength little by little. His manager sent him the flowers, cards & postcards from the casts. He started going through it little by little. & found a blue envelope. It looks like a letter. Who sent me a letter? He observed the envelope & opened it cautiously. It was from yeobin! Wow! Why did she write a letter? He was geniuely surprised. He sat on his comfy coutch & started to read.

My Dearest Joong Ki oppa,

I'm writing this letter to you sitting on my couch where you sat just 10 mins ago. It still has the warmth & smell of you. So, I feel at ease. We have been filming for almost 8 months & you and I became so close. But there's a lot about me that you don't know. & There's a lot about you that I don't. Even so, I feel an undeniable connection here. That just calms me down. 

Did you know that I had a crush on you. Just like any of your regular fan, my heart was full of thoughts about you. So, when you got married, I got drunk! Haha, are you laughing at my immaturity?  You should, it's laughable. But now, i'm no longer there. I got to know you, i stood by you for 8 months & should I dare to say, I understood you more than anyone else? We shared a bond which was so precious. I was literally shaking at the thought of acting with you! But you made me overcome my fear! You reached out to me, helped me & comforted me. You helped be become cha young & I'm extremely grateful to you for that! 

But now that the end is near, I can't help but crying. We told each other that we will have a discussion about us later. We comforted each other by saying that. But will we really? Is there a future? I k