Bora POV

“Arrhythmia” Doctor Im said, I have heard this word before but with is it. “What is that” I asked her, she sigh “Arrhythmia is a heart condition, that could be cause by stress, high blood pressure, smoking, drinking to much alcohol or could just possibly be genetics” oh, I don’t know what to do, what do I say. “Has any member of your family been diagnosed with any heart problems” Dr Im asked “ahh yes my mother was diagnosed with a heart problem, I’m not sure what because she died before I was able to remember her” I told her. “Oh I’m so sorry to hear” she covered “Dr what will happen if I don’t get this treated” I asked “it is not recommended to not get treatment as soon as possible” she paused “in your results you have Bradycardia, if your wondering what that is, Bradycardia is when the heart delayed for too long or there is something blocking it causing the heart to beat slower then a normal heart beat.” She explained “since from the results, it has shown that if you don’t get treatment now then it could be life threatening” she informed me. What should I do I don’t want to tell Siyeon, I’m afraid of what she will think. “What are my options in treatment” I asked “well I highly recommend you get surgery for it, we could replace your heart with a donors heart since yours is very weak right now” she said. I don’t want to her surgery “do I have any other options” I asked leaning more forward “I- I don’t recommend it though” she looked at me worried “I don’t care what is it” I asked “well I could get you to eat pills but it won’t be very affective, it will only delay the sickness until your body can’t handle it, I really don’t recommend it” she looked at me shaking her heard. I really don’t want to take the surgery, I’m worried what is I don’t make it out alive, I won’t be able to see any of the people I cared about, I just met my real father to. “Dr I think I’ll take the pills until I’m ready” I told her, she sigh deeply “I really don’t recommend it Miss this is serious” she said “please just unit I’m ready” I told her. She sigh before taking out her medication paper and writing down the medicine. “Ok remember to eat the medicine in the morning when you wake up and at night when you go to sleep, don’t skip, you will come to see me once every 2 weeks on a Friday for be to check your condition” she said. I nod and thanked her before I walked out, I’m going to keep this a secret from Siyeon. I did go and buy the medication and went home after yo see Siyeon was already home, when I went home she was sleeping in the couch with her phone I her hand. I got a blanket and approach her, I took her phone and looked to see a picture of her and Sua together, they look so happy it hurts but it’s ok. I went to Bora’s bed room and sat on the bed looking at her stuff, I touched her elephant toys, it’s really cute.

“Bora” I looked to my right to see Sua standing there, we where suddenly at a playground. “Yes” I asked her as we were both sitting on the swing “don’t be scared” she held my hand “but- its- I don’t want to” I said understanding what she was talking about. “Bora if you do the surgery, you will live” she stopped us both from swinging on the swing “but I feel like it’s better if I don’t live” I looked at her with tears in my eyes. She brought my head to her shoulder and hugged it “don’t say that” she patted my head while I cry “but it hurts, Siyeon will only love you, she in her eyes see me as you, I’m sorry, I can’t help but feel jealous” I cried “but her heart no longer belongs to me, Bora she loves you, she just needs time to release it, you need to stay strong and wait” Sua told me “your lying, she loves you a lot, she thinks I don’t notice, I has always loved you” I said “look Bora, you and Siyeon really need to stop doubting yourselves” Bora suddenly stood up and yelled “trust me she loves you, stop being stubborn, Bora tell her and do the operation” she continued yelling. I feel so weak, I can’t do anything doing the operation will just become a waste “STOP THINKING THAT PLEASE” Sua yelled loudly, I need time to think. “Sua, I’m sorry can you leave me alone, just for a little bit” I looked at her she looked at me all sad and sh