Finding out about the packages that Soonho was sending to Dara, behind his back, was like opening Pandora's box for Jiyong. All the feelings he tried to suppress are now out and are making their presence known again. But unlike Pandora, it seemed that for him there was no hope left in sight.

Tam-Tam, Dara's once beloved stuffed rabbit with the disproportionate arms and legs came out of his socks drawer where it had been hiding all this time. He stole it from Dara when he was on a fit of jealousy years ago during their happy times together. He meant to give him back but they broke up before he got the chance to return it.

He smiled at the stuffed toy. The two of them used to have a love-hate relationship with each other. He hated the rabbit at first sight. And at second sight. And all the sights thereafter because Dara seemed to treasure the thing more than she did him. But despite the constant disdain he used to regularly feel towards Dara's baby, Jiyong had come to love Tam-Tam as his very own. 

It's a measure of the depths of despair into which he has sunken that he had to resort to seeking comfort and understanding from a crude child's toy. When he finally realized how much he'd lost by letting Dara go, he had lost the courage to talk to his friends about Dara.

He knew between him and Dara his friends would choose Dara over him. They always treated Dara as if she was their very own sister. They protected her wihout him having to say anything. He hated himself enough already. It would be like adding salt to his injury to see the reproach in their eyes if he told them how he had hurt Dara. 

They thought all along that the break up with Dara was a civil one where both walked away from each other unscathed. He was too much enthralled with his infatuation for Kiko at that time that he didn't say anything to correct their assumptions. 

So when the realization of what he had lost finally sank in he had no one left that he could freely talk to. Tam-Tam became his secret companion and confidante during his darkest hours. The inanimate object's unblinking mismatched eyes seemed to communicate to him, "It's okay. I get you. I miss Dara, too."

There was no one he could turn to for comfort. But Tam-Tam was there for him. He was there to listen to all of Jiyong's woes. After hating the thing at first sight he never thought that he would have a change of heart. It was funny how Tam-Tam would turn out to be his lifeline all these years.

Tam-Tam was instrumental in how Dara and Jiyong met. He was on his way to the acting workshop that YG wanted him to attend. He was dragging his feet to the location. He didn't see the need why he had to attend the stupid classes. He knew why he wanted to enter the entertainment industry and he had no plans of becoming an actor.

As he stepped into the workshop, he gazed uninterestedly across the room looking for his friends. They haven't arrived yet. He found an unoccupied seat and dragged it into a quiet corner. He was not in the mood to talk to anyone. 

As he was dragging the seat across the room, he heard someone scream. "Noooooooooo!!!!! Stop!!!!" He kept on going. 

A scrawny girl ran in front of him and pushed him as