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Chapter 8
(Changmin’s Pov)
While sipping on my drink, my eyes were on the search for Min but he was nowhere to be found.

“Maybe they had lunch somewhere else.” I muttered to nobody before biting on my sandwich.

“Nice to meet you again, Changmin ah.” A familiar voice was heard; slowly lifting my head up, there stood Jung Jessica, the very same person that broke my heart 4 years ago.

Not wanting to entertain her, I get up from my seat before exiting the cafeteria but just to realise that she was trailing me from behind.

“What do you want?” I asked, turning around while giving her an icy cold glare.

“Changmin ah, I miss you.” She said, trying to grab hold of my hand but was unsuccessful.

“Go away & don’t appear in front of me anymore.” I said before trying to walk away but she grab on to my arm.

“Changmin ah, give me another chance. Give us another chance.” She said, pleading.

*Chance? Is she kidding me? Why would I when she crush my heart?*

“Listen, get ou-“ my words was cut when her lips was lock with mine.

*What the hell is she doing?*

“What the hell are you thinking?” I said, coldly after we break apart.

“Just thought that you might miss my kiss.” She answered, smirking before walking away leaving me disgusted by her kiss.

(Jaejoong’s Pov)

“Minnie,who was that?” I asked the moment we reached the rooftop.

“Someone not important, hyung.” He answered & I didn’t press on for any further answer.

“Min ah, I think we forget the drinks.” Yunnie said while holding up a bag of buns & sandwiches.

“Let me go & get it.” I offered.

“Let’s go together,hyung.” Minnie said before the 2 of us headed for the cafeteria.

The moment we near a corner which located quite near to the cafeteria, I saw a familiar figure with Changmin.

*Who is she?*

I was shocked when they both share a kiss while her eyes were looking at me, I could hear my heart breaks, witnessing the scene.

Before my tears could drop, Minnie has already pulled into his embrace as I hid my tears stained face in his chest, tears continue to fall freely.

“Let’s go,hyung.” He whispered before he slowly lead me back to the rooftop.

Nobody say a word after that as I enjoy Minnie’s companionship since Yunnie left for lesson while we decided to skip.

(Changmin’s Pov)

After that disgusting kiss, I wasn’t in the mood for lessons so I decided to excuse myself & headed to the rooftop but just to find the ‘couple’ cuddle up, not even noticing my existence.

*So now Min even dare to skip lessons just to be with that pabo.*

Without realising I was already approaching them, the scene in front of me makes me lose my cool again & the strong urged to separate them is killing me.

“Hyung, skipping class?” Min asked, the moment he saw me while that pabo hide his face in Min’s chest.

I just nodded before turning my attention to clear blue sky instead of the ‘couple’.

(Jaejoong’s Pov)

*Kim Jaejoong, stop crying. It’s not gonna change the fact that he hates you.*

I keep telling myself but my tears betray me as it keep falling freely the moment I saw him which cause the whole scene to replayed in my mind. Not wanting to attract his attention, I end up hiding my face in Minnie’s chest.

An hour passed & Minnie decided to make our way home while we left him behind at the rooftop.

(Dinner)

(Changmin’s Pov)

The moment I reached home, I headed for the shower.

*Why is she back? How I’m gonna face her now? I just hate the mere sight of her.*

Shrugging the thoughts off, I quickly get showered not wanting to waste any more time since it’s already dinner time & I’m getting hungry.

After changing to a fresh set of clothes, I headed downstairs just to see that everyone has start eating. Omma is still mad at me due to yesterday incident so I decided to keep quiet before taking a seat beside Chun.

“Jae ah, you looked sicker & paler then yesterday.” Omma commented but he just replied with a weak smile.

“Baby ah, your intake is too little.” Min said, looking at him worriedly.

*What’s wrong with him? Just because of yesterday incident he has to act all weak today. This pabo is really full of lies.*

“It’s ok, Minnie ah. I don’t feel like eating.” He said, his smile was weaker then before.

“It’s not ok, come let me feed,you.” Min said before scooping some rice.

With that sight, I suddenly lose my appetites which cause me to quickly get up from my seat before heading for the stairs.

(Jaejoong’s Pov) .

“It’s not ok, come let me feed,you.” Minnie said before scooping some rice.

After crying too much, I lose my appetites but I accepted the spoonful of rice not wanting Omma & Minnie to worry about me.

Suddenly, Changmin get up from his seat before heading for the stairs.

*Am I so disgusting that he loses his appetites? Why does he disgust me so much? I want to know the truth even though it will hurt.*

“Changmin shii” I called out after getting out of my seat which cause him to stop in his track.

“Why do you hate me so much?” I asked, Omma, Minnie & the twins just keep quiet looking at the both of us.

He didn’t answer but instead continue walking.

“Why do you disgust me?” I asked once more, this time louder.

Stopping in his track once more, he turned before looking at me with anger in his eyes.

“Do you still need to ask? I think I make it clear to you that I don’t even like you yesterday. Secondly, you call yourself a music student when you don’t even bother about the piano, what the used of you studying at the academy then. You’re not even at the same level as me & you dare to confess to me. You are just sore loser, a pain in the eyes for me.” He said coldly, his eyes not leaving me.

*So I’m just a sore loser? Maybe his right..I‘m just dreaming for something that beyond my reach.*

Tears once again flooded my eyes without me realising but I still keep that smile on my face.

*Even though it feels like my heart is bleeding, I finally knows what he think of me.*

“Thanks for telling me.” I said before running out of the mansion.

“Hyung/Jae!!” I heard Omma & Minnie shouting but I just keep on running while tears just keep pouring out like rain.

(Changmin’s Pov)

My body froze & my mind went blank the moment I saw his tears.

*Tears? But his always been smiling?*

“Thanks for telling me.” He said before running out of the mansion.

I could hear Omma & Min calling out for him but my mind just went blank.

“What the hell are you thinking?” Omma shouted which cause not only me but also the other 3 to startled a little since we never seen her this angry.

“Didn’t you hurt him enough yesterday?” Omma shouted again, not waiting for my respond.

“What’s going on?” Appa’s voice was heard as he appears from the entrance.

“Hyung was being rude to Jaejoong hyung.” Su answered since Omma is too tense up to answer.

“Listen, he was the one that ask me so I answered him.” I explained myself.

“True but it doesn’t mean you have to be that rude to him.” Omma answered.

“You don’t have the right to say that to him,hyung.” Min said, obviously piss off.

“Just because he’s your lover.” I replied, getting piss off as to why my Omma & Min is defending him.

“It’s not the matter of he’s my lover or not but you don’t have the right to say that to anyone, not even to a beggar.” Min replied.

“Listen here Shim Changmin, the person name Kim Jaejoong that you looked down upon was once a famous piano prodigy just like you now.” Omma said.

*She’s joking right? Him?*

I notice that I wasn’t the only one surprise, Min & the twins were too.

“At the age of 16, he got into a car accident with his father which causes him to lose his beloved father. Being protected by his father, he survives but loses his ‘gift’. Due to the impact of the accident, he loses the ability to play. If he push himself or worn himself out, he’s nerve system will swollen up which cause him to be infected by fever easily.

Imagine, losing 2 precious things in his life in one go but that didn’t make him gave up. He keep on smiling for his Umma, being her only pillar of support & the only man of the house. He still enrol in a music academy because it’s was his late father wish to see him in one. His will & scarification is just too great for words.

That’s something that he has & you don’t, the will to live. If you have that, you won’t be the heartless Changmin right now. It’s already been 4 years but you still hold on to that pain, you acted like it was the end of the world when she left you but have you ever thought of your parents & dongsaengs that was constantly watching you change into something you wasn’t”. she ended her words, tears threatening to fall.

“Changmin ah, think about your Omma’s words.” Appa said before comforting Omma as they headed for the living room.

The words struck me like thunder, I lifelessly headed for my room.

(Minho’s Pov)

I was shocked when Omma reveal hyung’s past, who would have thought that someone who’s always smiling & happy, have such a painful past. I finally get it why he was trying to hid his condition when we went to the doctor the other day & the reason why Yunho hyung says that he don’t like people see him crying.

Suddenly my phone beep, indicating a text.

“Min ah,
Joongie, is over at my place. Come here & help me cheer him up.
Yunho hyung”

I sigh in relief knowing that hyung’s is somewhere save.

“Hyung ah,
I’ll be there. See you soon.
Min”

After replying, I offered Su to come along.

“Min hyung, can I come along? I want to apologize.” Chun suddenly said, guilty written on his face.

I nodded, understanding. After all, Chun is still a child so he will feel guilty for saying those words even though most of the time he didn’t mean it.

The 3 of us get on a taxi & headed for hyung’s place.

(Changmin’s Pov)

*Why am I feeling so guilty? I mean how great he is, it didn’t change the fact that I hate him, right? So what if I’m not as strong willed as him? But.. I may have hurt him badly.. Is her the cause of everything? ..Yes & now, she’s back..Jung Jessica, stop messing with my life.*

My thoughts are all mixed up.

(Flashback)

(4 years ago)

I was happily heading towards our favourite place a few hours earlier, feeling excited that we are going to celebrate our 1 year anniversary.
The sight that greeted me was heartbreaking, she was in another guy embrace.

Not wanting them to realise my existence, I hide in a corner while listening to their conversation.

“Baby ah, when are you gonna break up with Changmin? I don’t want to share you with him anymore.” The guy said before they shared a kiss.

“Don’t worry, I still love you. He’s just an accessory to help me gain popularity among the rich & famous.” Sica said which cause my heart to crash.

*The time we spent together was just all a lie. She was my first love & I love her with all my heart. Never did I thought she was the one to betray me*

“Don’t worry, she all yours now.” I said, coming out of my hiding with cause the both of them to look at me, shocked.

“Chang-min” Sica stuttered.

“Goodbye ,Jessica.” I said before walking away.

(Present)

The nightmare that I can never forget, the one that change me, the one that change my perception on love, for me it was just a lie when the words ‘I love you’ is being says.
Not wanting to thinking about either Kim Jaejoong or Jung Jessica, I force myself to sleep.
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