MINA POV

Iam smiling toward tzuyu’s picture. She is so cute, her eyes is closed and her dimple is showed. Even i re-read my chat with her, i just wanna smile today.

“seems you happy today~” my hair-stylist comb my hair.

Hair? My smile is widen. I remember when tzuyu tap my hair. My hand cover face now, iam blushing. My heart is fluttering now. Its has been long time, i can feel pit-a-pat like this.

“waeeireee??” jihyo sighed toward some crew, then she sit in beside of me.

Waeeeiree?? It is favourite’s words of tzuyu. I giggle because imagine tzuyu speak “weiireee”.

Jihyo sigh, “the event ended already, let’s go home”

“uuh you back fist, my friend held little party in her apartment” i order jihyo to not company me because i know she just make-up with nayeon. i don’t want they have fight again.

“friend? Sana? Momo?” jihyo curious.

I shake head, “sowon and girls from another agency”

Jihyo doubt it, “i will accompany you”

“NO!!” i firm.

“but...” i know jihyo worry me as i never hang out, except friends in same agency.

“I will discharged you if you tag along me” i glare to jihyo and she give up.

One hour later, iam in front of sowon’s apartment. Sowon and the girls are my friends, another side they are my rival in “modelling world”. actually this party invited only korean model for talk about representative of The Next Asian Top Model. Although iam japanese but they want me join. They said that iam suited in this group. I open door nervously but i smile widely.

Iam supermodel but i have big secret. The secret that i couldn’t tell to anyone. Everytime many people look at me. At same point, i’ve gotten scared of people’s eyes. Iam scared how they look at me. iam scared that they’ll talk about me. so, i tried smiling all days, and there is no one who can recoginze my secret and my fear.

“mina, come here~” sowon wave her hand.

Iam passing many model, even we are smiling each other, i can feel ‘competitiveness vibe’ in here. the game of high pride to be prettiest, famous, rich and many fans.

We are talking randomly, the topic about asian top model only 20% in this meeting. I feel this conversation is so nauseating. They are talking bad thing about life or face of level famous model who are our friends too. this is loathsome, how could they talk about friend’s weakness and badness in behind of them?

I ask permission to go to toilet. i sigh to fix my make-up. i will back to them but i heard something. they start talk about me.

“Yah~ why’d mina is in here? even she is number one ranking this year in brand and some event, but please.. hellow she is japanese” one of them try to open conversation.

“actually she is elegant but her body isn’t too tall” another model start a hate.

“i think her face is suited for actress, not a model”

“aigoo, she act calm one but i think she is good drinker and ..hahha”

“haha maybe she can be number one in korea because she kiss her CEO’s ”

“bingoo she is in big agency, of course, she slept with owner’s agency first..haha”

I can’t resist with this insult but iam alone. Iam the one japanese in here. if i come to her and angry to them, surely they will spread fake rumour to ruin my image and all model will stay away from me. i don’t know what to do. I back to toilet. i sit and cry.

i want call jihyo but i remember that jihyo send me a picture of her and nayeon in a park. The pict showed nayeon who lean in jihyo’s shoulder. Iam crying heavier, there is nothing left to hold, i want lean on too but i know i have no one.

 I heard the door is knocking many times. i act tough again and fix my make-up.

“pengu, penguin, open the door, now !!” my heart is beating fastly. It is tzuyu’s voice.

I open the door, i smile to her. i can see tzuyu’s face now, she look at me with full concern.

“why are you in here?” i ask.

Tzuyu grab my hand, she doesn’t say anything till in front of my model-f