L - Lies
LETTERAL OF LOVENAYEON POV
Ever you feel insecure? Insecure because unreasonable.
Iam sitting in window, look at same sky with mixed feeling. I can’t scream about my feeling, i will endure this strange feeling. Strange feeling? I don’t know how to describe it. my instinct whisper slowly that lies would revelead soon.
I don’t know who is worse liar in between us but i admit that many lie come out in our relationship. for her, my lies will decrease her guilty. for me, her lies comfort me temporary. Our lies isn’t something new but i feel insecure everytime.
I return my body, there is another star in different sky. She is my star, she give me light, she is my liar.
I closed the window. i lay in beside of her, i touch her hair, her cheek, her nose and her lips. Her lips remind me about great our love which filled by lies. Her lips speak harsh words and sweet world. i hate her lips which speak lies but i love her lips which smile to me. i kiss her lips, my heart is trembling, i miss her even she is in beside of me.
She kiss me back softly then open eyes, “you steal my lips, nayeonie”
I smile innocently. Her long arm embrace my body. sleep in her hug is the best thing ever i have. Maybe the lies become our blanket, still it is warm in our night.
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“let’s date, huh? Pweeeasee” i show my aegyo to jihyo.
“ iam busy” jihyo refuse without consideration.
“hmm.. how...”
“i go~~ i love you” jihyo kiss my forehead and leave me alone.
I run follow her, put the lunchbox in her passanger’s seat. I kiss her cheek, “i love you too”
I love her and vice versa. Not only this line popped in my brain easily but this line popped out easy in my heart. i can’t different a lie and a truth anymore.
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A week passed quickly. iam in library to doing my thesis and jihyo is busy working. For some reason, the life is busier than before. Days when we contact each other less, we have only conservation forcefully. I opened my phone, there is no chat. I type the message :
“i miss you, let’s meet up. hmm have you lunch? don’t dare you to skip meals. saranghae..” i doubt to press send button.
I re-write again, “don’s skip your lunch. I love you” then i send it.
15 minute later, i get reply from her, “nee, you too. love~ya”
Words are written and erased, these all are foreshadow classic scene. Classic scene which the relationship start tasteless without emotion.
I wake up when my phone is ringing. I fell asleep in upper books.
“hallo~~”
“sleep? where? Iam your house” i can feel jihyo’s mad voice.
“library~~ pick me up, pweeasee” i speak with half eyes.
“iam so tired. Take care on the way” jihyo hung up phone. I only sigh.
I walk to buss halt, there is a hand who take books from my hug.
“why are you in here?” my eyebrow is raising.
“wanna ride?” she is tzuyu who offering without request.
“where is your bike?” iam confused.
Tzuyu show her dimple, “ride on my back”
“aish~” i slap her arm.
“seriously, you are real grandma. if you walk slowly like that, the buss will gone” tzuyu still squat in beside of me.
“if your bone break, i don’t want take responbility” i jump on her back.
“iam glad that my dad is orthopedist” tzuyu’s lift me easily.
“nomuheeeee~~” i bite her shoulder.
“awww~~ your virus will
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